Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[whatevs]

4

 

[Catloaf]

9
I can't take it anymore please

 

[KQuotientW]

13.

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

10. i just want to do it today

 

[ForbiddenSiren]

About a 5. My cat is hanging out with me and the sweet look he gets when we make eye contact is keeping me going today

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[Walilamdzii]

6

 

[Anon1337]

7

 

[allblackallwhite]

I'd say I'm about a 8-9. Tried oding last night and the aftermath sucks pretty bad. Only reason it's not a 10.

 

[RDPH]

Today was a very bad and down day for me. I would rate it as an 8. I had strong feelings to simply down every pill (prescription and over-the-counter) in the house and drink a bottle of vodka. Today, for some reason I realized how useless I was and how unnecessary I am in the big picture of things. I am simply taking up space and using resources. Not necessary for me to be around anymore.

 

[Im.so.tired]

9. Im so done with everything. So done being alone. So done having to be responsible for everything. So done with all the horrible thoughts about how useless i am. So done.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.00/10.00 still shit, just more relaxed cuz of meds

 

[Everlong]

I came into some magic mushrooms so I do have some hope nature might fix nature, if only fir a little bit. I honestly don't want to CTB but options are like dollars in my wallet. Not many.
SN shipment got screwed up so new bottle in route. What a comfort to have a plan and ability. It's always just been a plan and the ugh of "What if?".

I came into some magic mushrooms so I do have some hope nature might fix nature, if only fir a little bit. I honestly don't want to CTB but options are like dollars in my wallet. Not many.
SN shipment got screwed up so new bottle in route. What a comfort to have a plan and ability. It's always just been a plan and the ugh of "What if?".

4 today. But been hanging at 8-9 as of late.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Today

Probably a 5

 

[8evergo]

come down to 6

 

[lugerepair]

8.5 I guess. I really really really want to die but I know that I don't have the means and I don't want to mess up my suicide and wind up worse off. I think it's really inhumane the way that society doesn't provide us the means to die when we choose to. Life sucks. People are so delusional that they don't realize that life sucks. FUCK.

 

[outrider567]

9.8--Patti's last 2 chairs I got rid of today, had to, they were triggers, she was crazy about those 2 chairs, one red, one eggplant one ,also a small dresser of hers---Her bedroom is empty now, except for her stripped bed---An empty lifeless room now, but a full happy room still in my memories

 

[nixxeekes]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

I think I'm at 7/10. I want to go already, sometimes the thought of dying never leaves my head throughout the day. But when I spend time doing stuff I like, I'm not complaining. The other 3 points are my will to live, I guess.

 

[theboy]

7

 

[Adamsnolife]

8

 

[Catloaf]

9

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Today a 7 hovering close to an 8. Yesterday was pretty bad but I am a bit calmer today but still upset over everything I realized recently....

 

[resolutory]

Why was the old thread deleted?

 

[Hope:-)]

10

 

[Zhendou]

A 5 to 6

 

[Aurora_chaser]

Today is a 4. It's a hum at the back of my mind that I can hear when I'm still, so I'm choosing not to be still. I'm putting on some clothes and going out to hike with some friends.

I know ultimately that I am CTB, but I want to do it in a way that doesn't leave my friends with the feeling that I betrayed them, so it has to wait for now.

 

[Alabama_death]

It's been 10 for years, and it will never change again

 

[SecretDissociation]

10. The only thing stopping me is my family finding me and "helping" me

 

[thedaywillcome]

9