Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[want2dienow]

10
i'm waiting for once, i hope it works this time.

 

[FailureGirl]

8.2 really struggling today

 

[Trifecta]

6-7 and before I thought about it I would have rated this as a good day. My normal is completely out of whack.

 

[8evergo]

10

 

[Catloaf]

9.999/10

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.5/10.00- I'm gonna be dead soon

 

[Hollowillow]

It's over 9000! (Dragon ball reference)

I reached total despair, agoraphobia... I tried a bag, horrible... I don't have a decent rope ... Maybe I should try with pants... The psych ward said it can work

 

[Fktw0rld]

Tiptoeing around 6 today, losing balance and occasionally stepping on 7. But always staring at 10.

 

[thedaywillcome]

Very high 8.5

 

[takemenowpls]

8-9 but today was really bad. If I had everything I may have ctb

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.5/10.00 - I still feel so horrible I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I really hate this.

 

[Catloaf]

9

 

[DeadSoul98]

6.65

 

[a_lesser_moon]

at 6 today

 

[ConstantBattle]

1 for the past month 8 before that. Met someone online whom i've been completely honest with and told her about all of my traumas and she has been completely honest with me in return. I'm still suprised she didn't bail even after telling her about my most darkest times.
She has become my lighthouse in a sea of darkness and despair.

 

[Catloaf]

8

 

[Lullaby]

9 for about a week straight now. Can barely function at the moment, feeling very weak physically and mentally.

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[LaVieEnRose]

9.5

 

[thedaywillcome]

Painfully depressed: 10!

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.75/10.00 it seems like it can't get any worse but it can. Wouldn't wish this on anyone

 

[ManicPanic2018]

7. Back to the stage where it's a matter of when, not if. Hoping that I can source some SN to which will put things into motion and I can better start planning what time I've got left.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

9-10. If I had a gun right now I would be gone.

 

[SexyIncél]

10. Onwards & outwards

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[woknows]

9. I am not sure it has ever been worse.

 

[per_aspera_ad_astra]

7-8 right now

 

[noname223]

5. I have more suicidal thoughts than in the last weeks. But my major problem is anxiety. I am so fucking anxious. It is pretty hard to cope with. I think I might relapse in some months and I don't know how to escape my fate. In case I relapse it is no unlikely I have to kill myself.
I am so fucking anxious. I don't want to feel all this pain again. I am desperate.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Ten ten ten

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.70/10.00 - absolute shit. At Least I pickup my Klonopin (60 x 1mg clonazepam) & MSIR (120 x 30mg Morphine sulfate tabs) today. So, least I'll have those later-hopefully they help a bit. Klonopin + Morphine + Cannabis/ THC usually takes edge off.