Random thoughts

[EssenceFocus]

I would like to visit "advanced" ancient civilizations from the far past, to see how they lived. There is more to them, than what historians think.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Well I had a mental breakdown today. I lost it... crying screaming. I hate bpd. It's such a curse. I want to be free from my brain prison.

 

[sadgirl2002]

There's really no way to reach me
'Cause I'm already gone

 

[BitterlyAlive]

SN sounds so, so tempting once again. Mmm. Also I'm nervous about seeing my therapist again. She talks to me about going to the hospital for meds and it just doesn't sound good to me.

 

[Sensei]

Why can life not just be peaceful? I'm so tired of the constant stress.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My heartbreak suddenly feels just as bad as it did when it first happened five days ago for no goddamn reason it seems. I can't talk to anyone right now about it because they're either gonna spout fake feel-good shit at me or they're just gonna tell me to get over it. Why am I so goddamn alone?

 

[Hennessy]

I wonder if we still have to work in the future? I sure hope not.

 

[nerve]

My SI has been really low these last few days. Sometimes I'll just be sitting there minding my own business and I'll think "let's just get this over with already." Being alive is mostly a formality at this point.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

My roommate declines my calls and isn't calling back and I'm 99.9% sure the only reason is that he doesn't give enough shit about me to inconvenience himself with picking up the phone while he is out partying. And he's the closest thing I have to a friend. Fuck my worthless life.

 

[Rue89]

I think I have an ear infection, and it sucks! My left ear feels clogged and everything sounds muffled in that ear. I guess thankfully it's not both.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

My neighbour's car alarm goes off every 15minutes and his dog won't stop barking. It's driving me up the bloody wall.

 

[Xocoyotziin]

Thoughts? I don't have any of those.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Kinda suicidal eh?
Life hasn't been particularly enjoyable for me so far,
I wonder if I will be dead by next month...

 

[TheSoulless]

Stress. Stress stress stress.

 

[EssenceFocus]

Rental appartments are so expensive

 

[TheSoulless]

Rental appartments are so expensive

Mmh. I have a pretty cheap apartment since I go to school, but I've still begun to feel afraid when I look at my bank account.

 

[EssenceFocus]

Mmh. I have a pretty cheap apartment since I go to school, but I've still begun to feel afraid when I look at my bank account.

Of course it depends, where you want your appartment to be (or it has to be there, because of distance etc.)

 

[catalepsy]

If life made sense, pi would equal 3.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I really want to kill myself. I felt pretty numb and detached until I woke up from a nap earlier. In the dream I was bleeding out and it was so nice. Everything hurts and, as my emo tagline says, I'm so tired of the pain.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I wished that I could've lived to at least 40 before I killed myself. I had lived my life as if I had time but time had ran out just as life was getting started.

To live just wasn't worth it.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

really wondering where my parents were when i was getting harassed by some older kids in some fucking alley at night. i can't even fucking remember what happened.

i know i got anxiety whenever we passed by that alley, but i never knew what it was from. goddamnit. if only my damn mind could remember things when i want it to. who knows, maybe when i finally fucking remember it, it'll be part of my sob story.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

It's been just a little exactly one week since I last spoke with her...It still hurts. I know a week isn't long but I just don't want to wait long enough to be over it. Especially because there's not enough content out there to fully distract me. Maybe if I could go out and hang out with people more but thanks for nothing, pandemic. :/

 

[WOODESITY]

I've sometimes so much to say and I don't think it's worth sharing, I don't even trust myself anymore, I could be delusional anytime and I'm afraid of myself, things I say, I doubt my honesty, can't keep living for long, it's too much, every day is already beyond what I think I can handle, I didn't ask for this, if I saw this, I would never wish my life to happen in the first place

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Please, talk to me. I'd do anything, just talk to me again, stop acting like I don't exist.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Despite how I may excel in a few areas in my life,
it just means so little to me,
without the 1, the 0s are useless.

 

[catalepsy]

I'm good at work, I am abysmal at literally everything else. I can keep a clean house, but have nobody to share it with except transient strangers and animals who don't know any better.

 

[nerve]

My anxiety & ctb thoughts are getting a lot worse in the morning and it's exhausting I hate starting each day with this awful sense of dread and having to go over all the reasons I can't ctb yet.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Note to self:
They got my back,
All is good.

Be patient and do something.

 

[http-410]

I feel under pressure.
If I don't buy it soon, I'll have to choose more violent methods. It seems that the Polish seller no longer exists.
It would have been much less complicated if I had bought it back then. I am angry with myself.

I feel torn, lost, forced to live. And too paranoid to finally buy it.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i criticize society constantly, and yet here i am, bending to its will without a fight. never voicing my doubt. how pathetic. society is my god. i hate this miserable existence.