Random thoughts

[ForensicallyAware]

You will get your own customised hell . And if you blame anyone but yourself we will all know that much more about you.
Henry Rollins

 

[okdoomer]

You can't change the world. You can't change others. You either give them what they want or you're nothing.

 

[Rue89]

I admit that I don't want to die alone. I know that is more than likely how it will be though.

 

[_Kaira_]

I'm sorry, just please stop being angry with me. It's killing me.

 

[Lmd]

Would be nice if i stop crying so i can go to sleep 2 or 3 hours

 

[nerve]

Had a lot of BDD thoughts yesterday. I had to take a few breaks from schoolwork to cry and then collect myself because I kept getting distracted and triggered by every little thing. Im so tired. I just want the terrible thoughts to stop.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

It's 7:39 am and I've been up all night. I'm starting to be tired but I had to be up at 6 for a meeting for a group project that's still happening. I still feel sad about her and I feel bad that I want to reach out to her and ask how she's doing but I won't do that. She didn't specifically say I can't, but I'm worried about what if I do...

 

[_Kaira_]

Don't even know how long I've been awake for. More than 30 hours for sure. Perhaps I'm blowing it out of proportion. But my eyes hurt, and no matter how hard I try to fall asleep, my body doesn't let me. The sleepy pills aren't working. But this is nothing new, this is how I suffer after severe arguments. Fun stuff. Wish I didn't react the way I do to everything that ever happens to me. I've been online SS for a long time now. God I need to find something else to do...

 

[KleinerWolf]

Don't even know how long I've been awake for. More than 30 hours for sure. Perhaps I'm blowing it out of proportion. But my eyes hurt, and no matter how hard I try to fall asleep, my body doesn't let me. The sleepy pills aren't working. But this is nothing new, this is how I suffer after severe arguments. Fun stuff. Wish I didn't react the way I do to everything that ever happens to me. I've been online SS for a long time now. God I need to find something else to do...

I would like to share with you this sleeping ambience sounds.
It's helped me from time to time and I hope this can help you get some sleep.

 

[_Kaira_]

I would like to share with you this sleeping ambience sounds.
It's helped me from time to time and I hope this can help you get some sleep.

I appreciate the help, thank you Might end up having to wait till the night. Already 9am, will have to see.

 

[Rue89]

Feeling lonely, so lonely...

 

[KleinerWolf]

Feeling lonely, so lonely...

Yes. We are all alone in our own forms of struggles.
However I'm thinking of you from the other side of the planet.

 

[http-410]

It seems that my masquerade is effective.

Nothing has changed in my suicidal ideation. Or has it? I mean, if they'd become less, I wouldn't be here. And yet I manage to disguise it. I have done everything right. Everything destructive feels right.

I'm tired of this boring roller coaster. Fantasizing about suicide is the only thing that keeps me alive.

I don't know why I should even be honest about this topic anymore. At this point I would only risk my autonomy.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Chinese citizenship is the biggest insult to my soul.
Nothing will ever beat that!

 

[Georgii]

I wonder how they're doing.

 

[okdoomer]

God, do I hate working.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

It's 7:39 am and I've been up all night. I'm starting to be tired but I had to be up at 6 for a meeting for a group project that's still happening. I still feel sad about her and I feel bad that I want to reach out to her and ask how she's doing but I won't do that. She didn't specifically say I can't, but I'm worried about what if I do...

I just fell asleep for about an hour. I feel surprisingly well rested but not by that much...

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Yay for the millionth time life finds a way to beat me down. Is tolerable happiness too much to ask!?

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Maybe this planet is some other planet's hell

 

[nothingleft]

Being depressed is boring af.

 

[http-410]

tfw you visit a suicide forum right after waking up.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I don't consider myself a good person.
I have no morals except the ones that aligns with my agendas.
I feed off fantasy despite how bad or delusional it appears.
If anything, it'd be more fitting if I was born in a previous era, with a different nationality lol.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Why do people have such a hard time admitting their value systems and beliefs aren't universal, and are generally built to be self-serving?

The older I get the more I feel like "I have a strong moral compass" is a synonym of "I am a hypocrite" more often than not.

 

[throwaway123]

Today I realized that it's not my fault. It's not my fault for having fucked up mental health. It's not my fault that I have diseases. It never was and yet I keep blaming myself for whatever reason. Perhaps because this fucked up society tells you to.

 

[Rue89]

To do it or not... hmmm... so conflicted, so indecisive... so much could go wrong, but more likely so much could go right. :/

 

[GrumpyFrog]

There is nothing quite like a roommate that goes out partying with friends and hooking up nearly every night to remind me how much my own life sucks in comparision.

 

[http-410]

These neighbors are driving me crazy. Insomnia and noise intensifies the dissociating a thousand times. Great.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

Being a girl sucks. I wanna rip out my own uterus.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I was washing my clothes in the washer until I realised in the middle of the night, the backdoor is open and there's a bloody toaster on top of the washing machine and the toaster is plugged in.

I literally thought some psycho broke in or one of my housemates sleep walk or something

Saw the housemate later and she said the kitchen sockets burns her toasts

Wut?
I'm still confused but whatever lol...

 

[llerutem5]

Sometimes dogs are the better people. They should be running the world.