Random thoughts

[Letting Go]

I don't even consider myself human anymore. Whenever I see another person, I see someone belonging to a totally different species, as if I'm looking at a cat, dog, or platypus.

 

[Life sucks]

Humans are a piles of contradictions trying to justify the absurdity of life and the shit to avoid cognitive dissonance

 

[Eren]

Why the fuck has it always been difficult for me to concentrate on something? I take 10 more times to make things fuck, I feel like a frustrated useless.

 

[Eren]

I feel as if everyone hates me :/

 

[Sundayafternoon]

The bag seems like a no brainer. Easy, even. I feel better. Hopeful that this won't be that hard when it's time.
The thought of trying to attain N makes me anxious.

 

[lost illusions]

I feel as if everyone hates me :/

Not everyone hates you, they don't know you. I fight with that myself. This place has literally been the only place I can express myself and I have messaged and received messages from people I never thought would give me the time day.

Your never alone on here unless you want to be

 

[Jodes]

Im pasting this here cos its probably big headed nonsense. But it's positive for me so here it goes...

My new philosophy. I am totally opposed to societies' pro-life stances. I used to be pro-choice. But now I am heavily entertaining that pro life, death and choice are the necessary yin-ying-yang of healthy human existence. All rights, to live and die and choose should be protected. Death, while I wouldn't say is positive, it is the relief to the worry of pending suffering, and is a chance to splurge one's energies one last, to enjoy life one final, great time, where the bounds of life no longer restrict you - and to end life in the very most natural way.

Butvwith common sense. Our society is not yet developed enough to expect rigid systems to replace common sense in matters of humanity. If someone really us making a fucking mistake CTBing, I'll want to stop them. But common sense and compassion alone can guide it.

 

[Trashcan]

Everything's going wrong. I don't know if I can wait until winter break.

 

[Jodes]

Everything's going wrong. I don't know if I can wait until winter break.

What's wrong man?

 

[Jodes]

I'm getting paranoid I'm sometimes offending people here. I dont alwsys understand the full emotional effects of everything I say straight away. I dont think about things properly. I have compulsions to say things. I don't essily express emotions, but you are all amazing.

 

[lost illusions]

I'm getting paranoid I'm offending people here. I dont alwsys understand the full emotional effects of everything I say straight away. I dont think about things properly. I have compulsions to say things.

Same here

 

[lv-gras]

fuck, needing to die rn

 

[lv-gras]

such a evil disgusting bad person.

 

[Roulette]

I wonder where I went wrong in my life to end up here

 

[Jodes]

I wonder where I went wrong in my life to end up here

Google

 

[Roulette]

Google

"Ah, if it isn't the consequence of my actions" but in this case its searches.
Question answered, thank you Jodes. You oddly remind me of .... google ..... (≖︿≖

 

[Jodes]

It's biased. It'll bias you. Google. It was all you asked. Verb: to Google. An action. Noun. Virtual location.

You didn't ask why. But wvw :)

Sorry for being abrasive

 

[Roulette]

It's biased. It'll bias you. Google. It was all you asked. Verb: to Google. An action. Noun. Virtual location.

You didn't ask why. But wvw :)

Sorry for being abrasive

Lol it's okay it made me laugh

 

[Jodes]

such a evil disgusting bad person.

Want to talk?

 

[Trashcan]

What's wrong man?

A lot of things, but I'm feeling better today. Thanks for asking.

 

[Letting Go]

I'm happy that I can overlook my personal unhappiness and be happy that someone else is happy.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I just realized I need to take care of the cat before I leave. Otherwise he will be without food for one day, I can't do that. Time is running. Would be really disappointing if I missed my time frame.

 

[Trashcan]

I wish there was a general anesthesia gas over the counter. That way I could take SN and then put myself under.

 

[52shriek]

I'm back. I was away for a while, a friend of mine tried to get me to function a bit better - that is, to function at all. Didn't work. Back to the drawing board so, with every day crushing me more and more with inescapable nothingness.

 

[Xerxes]

I haven't known many in this group and the ones I have briefly conversed with, they have moved off this mortal coil and for that I give them a toast to a peaceful end to their suffering.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I am really sick. I ran out of my meds and I don't know if I can get them filled, if I can it won't be until later next week. I feel really dizzy and nauseous.

 

[Roulette]

Always wondered why this website never gets an influx of preventionists (unless I'm ignorant)
Suicide prevention truely is spamming a hotline number whenever someone mentions the word 'suicide'

 

[Tyuiop]

I feel like a preventionist today, don't want anyone else to ctb.
But who am I kidding, most of you are probably more miserable than me.

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

Just struck me how amazing it is that we eventually die. Imagine if we didn't, and just became ever more old, decrepit, painful, decayed, and mentally enfeebled without limit.

 

[Eren]

Fuck, I am 24 years old and I am already half bald because of trichotillomania.