Random thoughts

[RM5998]

I've consumed a fair bit of brandy now, and a sour piece of shit that someone had the gall to label as a wine. I'm slightly buzzed. I'm going to spend the next six months figuring out exactly what amount of alcohol I need to be drunk, but awake. Hopefully I won't go bankrupt in the process. I hope that it gives me the courage to CTB.

EDIT: Just like every other time I've had a buzz like this, I wonder whether it's a good idea to use that as an excuse to tell the girl I'm still crushing on after 8 years that I'm in love with her.

 

[Soul]

Such weird things happen out there in real life

Wrong Chicago family takes 'brother' off life support amid mistaken identity

The family of a Chicago man sues the city and a hospital after a dying patient was misidentified.

www.bbc.com

 

[blanketyblk]

Such weird things happen out there in real life

Wrong Chicago family takes 'brother' off life support amid mistaken identity

The family of a Chicago man sues the city and a hospital after a dying patient was misidentified.

www.bbc.com

I simply don't have the words.. i mean WTF!!! truly thats just.... WTF!!! no still don't have the words.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Would you bleed for me? Lick it off my lips like you needed me? Would you sit me on a couch with your fingers in my mouth. You look so cool when you're reading me.

Night night

 

[blanketyblk]

blah, home from gym. got changed back into my PJ's and now watching TV.. and it's not even lunch time here. god my weekend suck.
"Virginia Republican: Women who get raped are 'naive and unprepared' because they weren't carrying guns"

Virginia Republican: Women who get raped are 'naive and unprepared' because they weren't carrying guns

Virginia state Sen. Amanda Chase is facing criticism for claiming on Facebook that women who are raped are "naive and unprepared" because they weren't armed.During a social media debate on gun ownership, Chase told one constituent, "It's those who are naive and unprepared that end of [sic]...

www.rawstory.com

WTF.. oh my god. now I've heard everything

 

[Morphinekiss]

I'm drunk.

I have a little crush on you. Mmhmmm.

Who gets drunk and sleepy by 10pm? This grandma.

Who invented pajamas! Leg prisons!

 

[blanketyblk]

Pajamas are my go to clothes when I'm feeling down.. they are flannel and i put them in the dryer for like 5 minutes and they are toasty as warm... only the simple pleasures in life work for me :-)

 

[Morphinekiss]

Pajamas are my go to clothes when I'm feeling down.. they are flannel and i put them in the dryer for like 5 minutes and they are toasty as warm... only the simple pleasures in life work for me :-)

I like pajamas pants except for when I'm trying to sleep. Then they are leg prisons.

 

[blanketyblk]

I like pajamas pants except for when I'm trying to sleep. Then they are leg prisons.

ahh see i don't sleep with PJ''s on. sleep nuddie for the win :-). i only wear PJ's when i'm up but couldn't be stuffed actually getting dressed. yeah I'm a slack bitch

 

[Donewith_]

I have destroyed everything. I have fired this place, burned it to ashes.
I can be called a 'murderer'.. whatever sense that makes.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

All i want is too be free and happy.....
I am hoping some day that it will happen!

 

[Life+me=error]

I am not going to ctb and i will start to be happy from now on. I am gonna fight for survival like a real man. Looking at myself in the mirror. Ohh yeah flex that undeveloped bicep, what strength.

Next step,...

Fu%k it! Why all the effort?! I am gonna give up.. good thing life has no real purpose. I can escape and after a hundred years no one will remember my cowardliness.

 

[blanketyblk]

Freaking out in my house about now. i live alone in 5 bedroom house and i swear to god that i hear a door open and close down the hallways went and checked and the all doors are closed.. scared the crap out of me.. so I'm turning on all the lights on.. grrr stupid old houses.

 

[Rukia]

Paranoid thoughs are attacking...
I am still thinking about writing a memoir but I already have visions that my family will be ruined because of it...That it will be similar to the Kyle vs Ventura case, that didnt end even when Chris Kyle died...The case was settled out of court for an undisclosed amount...But Chris' autobiography was a bestseller so the widow could afford the settlement...in contrast to my parents...It will ruin them...

 

[RM5998]

Paranoid thoughs are attacking...
I am still thinking about writing a memoir but I already have visions that my family will be ruined because of it...That it will be similar to the Kyle vs Ventura case, that didnt end even when Chris Kyle died...The case was settled out of court for an undisclosed amount...But Chris' autobiography was a bestseller so the widow could afford the settlement...in contrast to my parents...It will ruin them...

May I suggest writing more about abstract ideas rather than recording events? That way, you can ensure that you leave a memento of what certain things meant to you without having to bother as much about the real-world details.
It's what I've been thinking about doing in case I ever get the chance to leave behind a record worth the effort.

 

[Rukia]

Thank you for the suggestion...
But I am afraid that even if I change much that certain ppl will recognize themselves :( You know I was so paranoid that I told in the HR department of my company that they are going to kill me (I named two ppl ) so whenever I will write that somebody wanted to kill me they will now its them...And they are rich so they have the money for suing and lawyers :(

 

[RM5998]

Thank you for the suggestion...
But I am afraid that even if I change much that certain ppl will recognize themselves :( You know I was so paranoid that I told in the HR department of my company that they are going to kill me (I named two ppl ) so whenever I will write that somebody wanted to kill me they will now its them...And they are rich so they have the money for suing and lawyers :(

If they aren't mentioned by name, I don't see them having a case. And if that's still concern, publishing it under a pseudonym is also an option, if you can get hold of a publisher who agrees to keep you anonymous. Yet another route would be to call it fiction, since that would allow you to say pretty much whatever you want, as long as you're not going to use real names.

Since it's a memoir, you're still presenting narrative ideas rather than simply recording facts, so writing fiction and going to an editor would work in roughly the same way as your old plan.

 

[Life+me=error]

Every time I look up someone on Wikipedia I immediately scroll down to read how the person died. Just now I read about Jacqueline Kennedy and her son's death.

 

[Rukia]

If they aren't mentioned by name, I don't see them having a case. And if that's still concern, publishing it under a pseudonym is also an option, if you can get hold of a publisher who agrees to keep you anonymous. Yet another route would be to call it fiction, since that would allow you to say pretty much whatever you want, as long as you're not going to use real names.

Since it's a memoir, you're still presenting narrative ideas rather than simply recording facts, so writing fiction and going to an editor would work in roughly the same way as your old plan.

Unfortunately it is no so simple...I consulted a lawyer and she said that pseudonym will not save me if they decide to sue....
And there was a similar case in Poland one guy called a woman "Esther" and wrote in his diary about this "fictional" character but the judge decided it is in fact about a real woman named Weronica Rosati...He was sentenced....he had to apologize and pay 100 000 PLN which is roughly 26 000 USD...

 

[RM5998]

Unfortunately it is no so simple...I consulted a lawyer and she said that pseudonym will not save me if they decide to sue....
And there was a similar case in Poland one guy called a woman "Esther" and wrote in his diary about this "fictional" character but the judge decided it is in fact about a real woman named Weronica Rosati...He was sentenced....he had to apologize and pay 100 000 PLN which is roughly 26 000 USD...

That sucks... My idea of telling my life story was based on removing it from reality altogether. I'm guessing that's not an option for you... I hope that you manage to find a way of getting your story out. Good luck!

 

[Rukia]

Well I can remove the part that contains real humans...And concetrate on the part that I was speaking with God...lol...But it will be a shame...Maybe I will write it and wait only after the death of included parties that somebody related to me will publish it...:(

I am also afraid to write about my "talking" with caliph Bagdadi, scared he will chase me lol...or some angry follower will slaughter me...

 

[SkyBlue]

I don't think I'm supposed to be happy. No matter what I do, I always end up miserable or make others miserable. I don't know what I'm holding on for.

Did something happen? And what makes you think so if you mind sharing?

 

[Life sucks]

Life is stupid. When you don't eat for some amount of time, you get HAngry and can't think properly.

 

[Donewith_]

I am not feeling that good today. Just want some alone time.

 

[ReverendGreen]

I pulled an all-nighter in an attempt to get everything ready for my moving out next week. Drank one and a half energy drinks and I think I'm having a slight caffeine overdose right now.

 

[Pilum Muralis]

I hope when people read my posts they make sense. My meds make my head fuzzy and hard to concentrate. My train of thought always seem to end up my multi car crash on the Autobahn of thought.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I wish this dark cloud would lift off of me.

 

[SinisterKid]

Today was the closest I have been for 3 yrs. I am in a funk and cant shake it. But I have to wait, but hopefully, not for much longer. I just dont want to do this anymore.

 

[Dartz]

How the fuck does anyone just lie down as go to sleep? How do people get a consistent reasonable amount of sleep? I spend half the day in bed and still sleep no more than 3 hours. So fucking restless.

 

[15dec]

Did something happen? And what makes you think so if you mind sharing?

Just stuff with my dad again really, snide comments about praise I've got from work and screaming at me. It feels like whenever I start to feel better I get dragged back down tbh