Random thoughts

[15dec]

What kind of somethings? Like really substantial? And have you tried antidepressants?

Just a feeling I guess. Haven't been on antidepressants but might try them in the future, I'm still on the waiting list right now

 

[SkyBlue]

Okay I see. Because it sounds like the very essence of depression! Really...

 

[Scribble Fan]

I don't know why I get so lonely. I spent hours with my sibling yesterday and the instant I was out of his company this hollowness started eating away at my heart. I can't even take one minute on my own..? I feel isolated from the second I wake to the moment I fall asleep most days and it doesn't make an ounce of sense, being a complete introvert. I've noticed I still feel that cold loneliness deep down even with my younger brother, it's just pushed under the surface around him.

Maybe I need friends? I don't want friends, they always fade away, but I'm tired of feeling alone... at the same time I don't enjoy being abandoned time and again.

 

[throwaway123]

I am close to ending it. I hope I find peace.

 

[bayarea]

I wish people didn't judge each other on looks
Sometimes i wish looks didnt exist at all

 

[waived]

Of all the expropriations, a precious little bit of time.

 

[SinisterKid]

I cant help but think, man I need to get away from this shit.

 

[waived]

And here the liberals thinking they've made a major discovery again, are safely goose stepping down the palace streets to the tune of 'why is evry1 so mad just get a long guyz' as capital terraforms the present into just another spectacular and the world rehabituates to a hypoxic twilight existence.

A good tune though

 

[waived]

Well everyone it's been a fun few hours sitting here with the tab open while doing other things but regrettably I think it's time to wrap up this particular visit. I've watched the shadows grow long across the city roofs on this pale-blue almost summer day and I think it's due time I go grace the ground with my own, and find a quiet spot to walk in circles before the big shade washes over the world. May you all find respite, stay hydrated, and until next time.

 

[not_a_robot]

I am so pathetic and hopeless. I hate being so clingy. I hate being able to feel. I want to be numb, that my brain stops thinking. If I can't die, at least I want all my emotions to be gone. I want to be an unfeeling machine.

Aren't there psych drugs that do that?
Probably have weird side effects though.

Well everyone it's been a fun few hours sitting here with the tab open while doing other things but regrettably I think it's time to wrap up this particular visit. I've watched the shadows grow long across the city roofs on this pale-blue almost summer day and I think it's due time I go grace the ground with my own, and find a quiet spot to walk in circles before the big shade washes over the world. May you all find respite, stay hydrated, and until next time.

Do you eat lots of shrooms, by any chance?

 

[EphemeralDream]

I miss my ex. But I know it's best to remain without contact. I'm scared I will be rejected for reaching out.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I wish I was confident. Instead I'm always drowning in self doubt and anxiety. I'm not even a shell of what I used to be. Life is the biggest lie. All I know for certain is that I don't want to experience an entire lifetime of this. I'd rather die.

 

[waived]

Do you eat lots of shrooms, by any chance?

I devour the grace of the earth.

 

[15dec]

People wonder why I don't talk to them about my mental health, but when I do all they say is "you've just read about it online and think you feel like that" and "don't be silly".

I know how I feel, and I only turned to the internet after I started to feel this way. Not before.

 

[SinisterKid]

And speaking of shrooms, I found a deep net site that supplies grow your own boxes which produce a fair amount of edible shrooms. I am sorely tempted. Then maybe the self obsessed twats of this world will appear more likeable?

Nah, me neither

 

[waived]

I always look forward to being annoyed at those thankfully isolated posts that surface from time to time, suggesting in earnest that it is likely a good idea to use psychedelics during a mental health situation/crisis.

"Believe me guys it ALWAYS works for me"

 

[not_a_robot]

People wonder why I don't talk to them about my mental health, but when I do all they say is "you've just read about it online and think you feel like that" and "don't be silly".

I know how I feel, and I only turned to the internet after I started to feel this way. Not before.

They are too ignorant to understand most of the things I talk about so they classified everything I said as "delusional/fabricated."

So I started demanding that they google stuff in front of me so they could see that yes,the things I talk about exist, I do not imagine them.

Now, like with you, they say I'm just "fabricating fantasies about things I read on the internet."

I wish the fucking sun would explode and incinerate this whole ugly planet, it's so hopeless.

 

[throwaway123]

I can't look at myself anymore. I am a complete failure. Everywhere I look people are living their lives.

Why the hell am I still here

and I also just realized again that I am a loser and I probably always will be unless a miracle happens.

 

[thatguyakira123]

I decided fuck it, I don't care anymore. I'm applying to shit jobs that I'll be miserable at and shitty at but I'll atleast make some money to save up. Doubt they'll hire me though anyways so fuck it.

People wonder why I don't talk to them about my mental health, but when I do all they say is "you've just read about it online and think you feel like that" and "don't be silly".

I know how I feel, and I only turned to the internet after I started to feel this way. Not before.

I hate these assholes. Unfortunately everyone who doesn't have mental illness are like this. It's why I don't talk about it with anyone.

 

[inconsequential]

I feel deader than usual this morning. Why do I fucking continue?

 

[AhG]

I can't look at myself anymore. I am a complete failure. Everywhere I look people are living their lives.

Why the hell am I still here

and I also just realized again that I am a loser and I probably always will be unless a miracle happens.

I see your posts all the time and just tried to go to your profile to write you, but it's limited. I just want to say that whatever you are going through, I hope that it'll get better sooner or later. You seem like a nice person and I wish for your happiness soon mate.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I don't know why I got my hopes up that things would pull through on the museum trip. I don't know why I expected anything at all from those people. Time for drugs and a nap. I wish that catfish would come kill me.

 

[SinisterKid]

I am wiped out and need to sleep, but it will be a long time coming tonight, brain is buzzing with so much crap and it aint gonna slow up anytime soon.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I just watched my neighbor get arrested and his kids and wife get taken out on stretchers. FUCK people. I literally heard them screaming while walking my dog. FUCK

 

[not_a_robot]

Fuck it, man. I use women's shampoos and conditioners with no problem. They make my hair soft and smell nice. Men's shampoos come in two scents: nothing and mint, and they don't give the same hair softness as women's.

I use men's. Axe, DoveCare for men, Old Spice, I love all that shit.

 

[WinterIsComing]

I was feeling low... wondering how strong my cats SI Is..they act like is strong

 

[throwaway123]

I see your posts all the time and just tried to go to your profile to write you, but it's limited. I just want to say that whatever you are going through, I hope that it'll get better sooner or later. You seem like a nice person and I wish for your happiness soon mate.

ah shit. I'm sorry. I sent you a PM. I changed my profile settings.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Since she now works for a prestigious law firm can I ctb? They've got one successful child, so the balances out me being a fuck up right?

 

[Scribble Fan]

If I ctb I wont have to deal with the agonizing thoughts of what my suicide would do to my precious younger brother. I love him so fucking much it hurts to have to do this to him but I can't take this anymore. I don't want to be trapped here my entire life until my body fades away. My mental sanity's already gone, I want to be free.

Wow, I'm getting desperate.

 

[WaterUnder]

My dogs like raw string beans and so do I.