Method OK, Kiddos. It's going to be Thursday

[TapeMachine]

Nonialabaster, I've got my headphones on now, pulling up Boards of Canada....

Oh! This is beautiful... never heard of them before. And now your memory, though brief, will always be tied to their music whenever I hear it. My brain loves to collect songs from people, and music is the sole thing my inept memory never forgets. It's wild how much music is stored within my mind.

But now Boards of Canada= Noni. Thanks for sharing the music and the beautiful memory of your loved ones.

 

[Saai]

I hope I was able to help you, in some way. I hate for people to feel lost, or lonely.

You read my story and took the time to reply to my honestly, very lengthy, post.

It's nice feeling heard. For this I thank you.

Give KaliKat an extra dose of love from me <3

 

[TapeMachine]

We joined the forum around the same time; I'm just realizing this after having read through some of your past posts. lol

How could I have missed your presence all this time..?

Well, I think it's because I'm far more of a one-on-one person, and most of my time over the past couple months was spent talking solo with a couple friends on here, one of which left the world about a week ago. I am immensely and grievously aware of his absence.. I've sorta sworn that I wouldn't get close to anyone else, because it fucking hurt to lose his friendship, but I know myself well after 38 years, and that likely won't hold. Heh. Anyway.

I read your post about how your and your husband's relationship was pretty insular; that's how my bf and I are as well. Neither of us is very social outside of one another. Makes losing the other person so fucking hard. I don't blame you one bit for wanting to ctb, though I hate that you've been suffering so intensely for a while now, and despite the fact that I can tell the world will be losing one of the actual good ones out there. Sad to see ya go.

I don't know why I feel so drawn to you- maybe I see a bit of myself in what I've read about you- but damnit, I'm gonna cry.

And how did you know I'd like the musician you suggested??? I was fully prepared to let the first song play for a minute before wrinkling my nose and declaring, "nice try", but I'm still playing BoC as I write this long ass post. (not that I expected you *personally* to have bad taste; one just always has to prepare themselves for the worst with a stranger's song suggestions, ya know? Lol)

 

[qwerty1969]

Are you using AEs or just taking SN straight?

 

[nonialabaster]

You read my story and took the time to reply to my honestly, very lengthy, post.

It's nice feeling heard. For this I thank you.

Give KaliKat an extra dose of love from me <3

I will. And, you are heard, sweetheart.

We joined the forum around the same time; I'm just realizing this after having read through some of your past posts. lol

How could I have missed your presence all this time..?

Well, I think it's because I'm far more of a one-on-one person, and most of my time over the past couple months was spent talking solo with a couple friends on here, one of which left the world about a week ago. I am immensely and grievously aware of his absence.. I've sorta sworn that I wouldn't get close to anyone else, because it fucking hurt to lose his friendship, but I know myself well after 38 years, and that likely won't hold. Heh. Anyway.

I read your post about how your and your husband's relationship was pretty insular; that's how my bf and I are as well. Neither of us is very social outside of one another. Makes losing the other person so fucking hard. I don't blame you one bit for wanting to ctb, though I hate that you've been suffering so intensely for a while now, and despite the fact that I can tell the world will be losing one of the actual good ones out there. Sad to see ya go.

I don't know why I feel so drawn to you- maybe I see a bit of myself in what I've read about you- but damnit, I'm gonna cry.

And how did you know I'd like the musician you suggested??? I was fully prepared to let the first song play for a minute before wrinkling my nose and declaring, "nice try", but I'm still playing BoC as I write this long ass post. (not that I expected you *personally* to have bad taste; one just always has to prepare themselves for the worst with a stranger's song suggestions, ya know? Lol)

Haha! My dear Mark, when he was mad at me, would tell me that I had awful taste, in music. Mostly when I was listening to Steely Dan, while he was trying to sleep. He had a hatred for studio musicians.

 

[nonialabaster]

We joined the forum around the same time; I'm just realizing this after having read through some of your past posts. lol

How could I have missed your presence all this time..?

Well, I think it's because I'm far more of a one-on-one person, and most of my time over the past couple months was spent talking solo with a couple friends on here, one of which left the world about a week ago. I am immensely and grievously aware of his absence.. I've sorta sworn that I wouldn't get close to anyone else, because it fucking hurt to lose his friendship, but I know myself well after 38 years, and that likely won't hold. Heh. Anyway.

I read your post about how your and your husband's relationship was pretty insular; that's how my bf and I are as well. Neither of us is very social outside of one another. Makes losing the other person so fucking hard. I don't blame you one bit for wanting to ctb, though I hate that you've been suffering so intensely for a while now, and despite the fact that I can tell the world will be losing one of the actual good ones out there. Sad to see ya go.

I don't know why I feel so drawn to you- maybe I see a bit of myself in what I've read about you- but damnit, I'm gonna cry.

And how did you know I'd like the musician you suggested??? I was fully prepared to let the first song play for a minute before wrinkling my nose and declaring, "nice try", but I'm still playing BoC as I write this long ass post. (not that I expected you *personally* to have bad taste; one just always has to prepare themselves for the worst with a stranger's song suggestions, ya know? Lol)

I replied to you, earlier. Sorry, my sleep schedule is completely fucked, along with everything else. I'm happy that you like BoC! I love that one of their albums is "Music Has the Right to Children." I'm listening to them, now. I've got nothing to lose, and KaliKat seems to like it. Mark and Kristen sure enjoyed them, in their morning petting sessions.

Are you using AEs or just taking SN straight?

I've got a couple of AEs, on hand. I'll use a straw to ingest the SN.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I'm going to CTB sometime Thursday, either late afternoon or that evening. I'm timing my stuff, just right. The walls are closing in and there's no end in sight, except the one I have in my dresser drawer. I'm drinking some wine today, will dry out tomorrow, put my trash and recycling on the curb, send my instructions to my only local friend, etc. I'm hoping she'll take care of my wonderful KaliKat, or at least find a home for her. I feel selfish for wanting Kali here with me, in my final days.

I'll be here for a couple of more days.

I don't know if I'll post a Goodbye thread. This is very hard. I have encountered some wonderful people here. Especially one beautiful lady, and she knows who she is. Thank you, my darlin' one! I so love talking to you, as you know.

I'll miss interacting with you here, and I hope it's peaceful for you and you're reunited with Kristen and Mark, you're an amazing woman.

 

[rabbit_feet]

I replied to you, earlier. Sorry, my sleep schedule is completely fucked, along with everything else. I'm happy that you like BoC! I love that one of their albums is "Music Has the Right to Children." I'm listening to them, now. I've got nothing to lose, and KaliKat seems to like it. Mark and Kristen sure enjoyed them, in their morning petting sessions.

I've got a couple of AEs, on hand. I'll use a straw to ingest the SN.

I've seen some of your posts around and you really seem like a lovely person. Sad to see you go but hope you can find peace when you do. Hope your KaliKat finds a wonderful home too! My kitty boys are one of my primary reasons for not wanting to CTB so I understand you there.

 

[TapeMachine]

"Music Has the Right to Children" is what I was listening to as well. Great stuff.

I'm not sure which AEs you have- you don't have to say either- but I just trialed some domperidone that I purchased over a month ago (because I just happened to feel randomely nauseated today), and it really helped.

My sleep schedule is completely screwed up too. I hate it.

 

[nonialabaster]

I'll miss interacting with you here, and I hope it's peaceful for you and you're reunited with Kristen and Mark, you're an amazing woman.

Thank you. I might not see them again. Thank you, for your kind words, and knowing their names.

"Music Has the Right to Children" is what I was listening to as well. Great stuff.

I'm not sure which AEs you have- you don't have to say either- but I just trialed some domperidone that I purchased over a month ago (because I just happened to feel randomely nauseated today), and it really helped.

My sleep schedule is completely screwed up too. I hate it.

Happy to turn you on to them! Wait 'till you hear Aphex Twin.

 

[ExistHarm]

thinking of you noni, hope its peaceful..

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[nonialabaster]

Mark and I had the pleasure of seeing Belle and Sebastian in Austin, back in the day. I hope you sweeties enjoy it.

 

[rationaltake]

I'm so far gone I can hardly type but your story has really touched my heart. So sorry about the way things turned out for you. I enjoyed reading your sassy posts. ❤

 

[lebrodude]

Mark and I had the pleasure of seeing Belle and Sebastian in Austin, back in the day. I hope you sweeties enjoy it.

Belle and Sebastians are an excellent band. Local to me (Glasgow, Scotland), good to see them get some recognition out there in the states.

 

[TapeMachine]

@nonialabaster, how are you feeling today?

 

[SexyIncél]

Haha! My dear Mark, when he was mad at me, would tell me that I had awful taste, in music. Mostly when I was listening to Steely Dan, while he was trying to sleep. He had a hatred for studio musicians.

Interesting! Why did Mark hate studio musicians? Too technical, no fun?

Rest well, hope you meet him again soon

 

[Neon Grave]

Rest well, hope you've found peace

 

[eroqita]

I hope you've found peace

I'm so far gone I can hardly type but your story has really touched my heart. So sorry about the way things turned out for you. I enjoyed reading your sassy posts. ❤

Hello. Where can I read her story?

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I hope you've found peace

Hello. Where can I read her story?

You can use the search bar, click the gear icon, and put her username in the "by" box

 

[eroqita]

You can use the search bar, click the gear icon, and put her username in the "by" box

Thank you very much

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Thank you very much

No problem! :)

 

[Foxes]

I don't know if I'll post a Goodbye thread. This is very hard. I have encountered some wonderful people here. Especially one beautiful lady, and she knows who she is. Thank you, my darlin' one! I so love talking to you, as you know.

You're so welcome. It's been such a blast getting to know you this past week and I'm glad that I can be of some comfort to you, as you have been to me. I'm really going to miss our chats and laughing/crying with you. You're really some kind of wonderful, as evidenced by all the feedback you've received on your posts, and you will missed more than you know.

Text me, call me, message me on the site whenever you need me. I'm here for you.

 

[nonialabaster]

@nonialabaster, how are you feeling today?

Woke up nauseated. "Not today, fucker!" said my pancreas. The SN will be bad enough. I'm nibbling saltines and drinking mint tea, to settle my stomach.

 

[Letgo]

Good to hear from you.. have been thinking about you. Hope you get some rest

 

[orca87]

Woke up nauseated. "Not today, fucker!" said my pancreas. The SN will be bad enough. I'm nibbling saltines and drinking mint tea, to settle my stomach.

Get well soon! Take some rest. You will know when it's the right time.

 

[nonialabaster]

Interesting! Why did Mark hate studio musicians? Too technical, no fun?

Rest well, hope you meet him again soon

Studio musicians had too much assistance. He was always, "If you're good, you don't need producers to fix your mistakes." He was right about that, but I'd point to his effects pedals and give him a face. We'd have a good laugh about that.

 

[eroqita]

Woke up nauseated. "Not today, fucker!" said my pancreas. The SN will be bad enough. I'm nibbling saltines and drinking mint tea, to settle my stomach.

Get some rest. I've read your story I'm sorry about your hubby.

 

[nonialabaster]

 

[cloverhiding]

hope its going well and smoothly, pls update us