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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Student
Jan 11, 2026
129
Not sure. It was 10/10 but now 1/10
I feel like ready going to CTB any time if things dont get better. Even more bad news doesn't make me mad anymore.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,255
Oddly calm after a good night of sleep. Had a bizarre and disturbing dream. I get to NEET today and tomorrow so it'll be hard to CTB--I'm simply not in enough distress.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,925
Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
150
Probably 5/10. Life's pretty meh and I'm numb to it.
 
dhk96

dhk96

Student
May 8, 2018
136
Maybe 6/10.

I've been trying to avoid facing reality for the past year by pretending that I've successfully distracted myself from having to think about anything. Most days have kind of been a blur but deep in my conscious, there's always an anxiety-ridden countdown to the day that I won't be able to avoid reality anymore.

"Not thinking" has really killed whatever was leftover of my pathetic capacity for communication. I also didn't think (pun not intended) that trying not to think would affect something like basic arithmetic skills this badly but...wow lol. I feel dumber than ever and am scared of how much dumber I can become at this rate.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,925
overmorrow

overmorrow

you're not special
Oct 15, 2024
221
7/10, it's been a hard week, but this one, will be better, I'm sure of it :>
 
GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
135
7/10 i am lonely
 
MonochromeMind

MonochromeMind

Artist-ish
Jan 26, 2026
75
Earlier today it was an 8, now it's about a 4. If my stomach stopped hurting from how stressed I was last night, maybe I'd calm down more. But it hurts because I'm still kinda stressed. Ugh.
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
187
8. Everything I do is wrong, and I'm
not a good person, nor good at being a person.
 
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TANETS

TANETS

Silly girl w a Viktor tsoi obsession .
Nov 11, 2024
113
5/10

Just slowly waiting for it to start crashing and burning.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,345
images
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,925
I

itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,277
10/10

I can't deal with the life I led. Horrible. Starting in 2011 just horrible. It's too much. I have too much to deal with. Need to ctb and too cowardly
 
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SarahThrowsGin

Member
Aug 22, 2025
52
7/10. I posted in this thread before a much lower number, so yes, things got worse for me: social links keep falling apart, unemployed for a long time, and burned out even more than the year I quit the only job I ever had. Should be seeking suicide but my heart is not currently into it either. Just want to hang around and do whatever I want to, instead of whatever role this stupid world would have wanted me to fill.
 
absolute failure

absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
169
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
We are currently at a 9/10. i have lost my mind completely and its so sad how badly i treat myself, i just cant stop
 
GroundControl

GroundControl

Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Feb 3, 2024
79
4/10

I worked my ass off cooking for my family last night, specifically my dad, only for him to ignore me SIX times when I called him to eat. So then his food went cold. And idk. He was just so dismissive. He's always like that. He doesn't care if he hurts you. It's all about him, when it comes to emotions. I'm just so tired of it.

ok maybe a 5/10 after resubmerging myself in my pain
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,925
8
Now 8/10 Hervé dont speak me
 
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