Note your level of mental distress now

[witchcraft]

It's so bad now that I can't even adequately put it into words or describe anything.

I've put it all into words a million different ways a million different times. The fuck does it even matter anymore.

10. 100. 1000. 10 fucking thousand. Who fucking cares. What's anybody going to do about it, since I can't? Right. Nothing. Just like always.

 

[Defenestration]

C'est tellement grave maintenant que je n'arrive même plus à le décrire correctement.

J'ai déjà tout exprimé d'un million de façons différentes, un million de fois. À quoi bon, franchement ?

10. 100. 1000. Dix mille, putain ! Qui s'en fout ? Qu'est-ce que quelqu'un va y faire, puisque je ne peux rien faire ? Exactement. Rien. Comme toujours.

People.is sometimes without heart

 

[grizzlycamel]

3/10

I'm tired of where I am in life, I've been thinking about it a lot but I haven't put much action into it because I have to keep up appearances for others. Though I can feel it coming very soon

 

[UnPlugMe69]

2/10, I feel serene, like right after completing the plan for CTB and going through the motions till it is time for CTB.

 

[Defenestration]

2/10, je me sens serein, comme juste après avoir finalisé le plan pour le CTB et avoir accompli les gestes nécessaires jusqu'au moment du CTB.

Often i think also after plan ctb

 

[Xi-Xi]

3.5/ 10

 

[Defenestration]

Moi 4/10 fear to.be bad

 

[sulvumnolo]

10/10 I bought a bunch of fentanyl and alcohol to CTB with. Got scared. Got high and drunk. I'm fucked. But at least I feel good for a little while maybe I'll get lucky die of alcohol poisoning or something

 

[Defenestration]

10/10 J'ai acheté plein de fentanyl et d'alcool pour faire un test de dépistage de drogues. J'ai eu la trouille. Je me suis défoncé et saoulé. Je suis foutu. Mais au moins je me sens bien pour un petit moment. Peut-être que j'aurai de la chance, je mourrai d'une intoxication alcoolique ou un truc du genre.

Wooow be careful

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

My face muscles have gone limp, my voice is expressionless, my heart is racing and there are thin threads of discomfort whipping around inside my stomach and into my chest.

I want to cry or break something.

 

[Arvayn]

2/10

Now, if only I could do something to reach that fabled 1/10, or the impossible 0/10...

 

[thefarter]

yeah im like 8. im just overthinking bro. my heart hurts in my chest i hate feeling this way :( i want to disappear

 

[Defenestration]

5/10

 

[nitrogenous]

9/10. Lost my job which was my only protective factor. Everything else in life has also been falling apart. Very very close to attempting, I'm heavily thinking about it. I want to give myself a week chance to be able to give proper goodbyes and secretly hope that things get better so I don't need to end it all…

 

[Defenestration]

2/10

9/10. J'ai perdu mon travail, mon seul refuge. Tout le reste s'est effondré. Je suis à deux doigts de passer à l'acte, j'y pense sérieusement. Je voudrais me donner une semaine pour pouvoir dire adieu dignement et espérer secrètement que les choses s'améliorent pour que je n'aie pas à en finir…

 

[Defenestration]

3

 

[zam_zam]

3

8/10
Absolute insanity, I want to CTB so bad, I'm so freaking lonely.

 

[DonLockwood]

Cant put a number to it. But I would say my sleep is worsening my mental health. I'm either sleeping way too much or to little. Just annoyed, (and tired), of where I am at in my life

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

8

 

[kk13]

8/10
Ill do anything to die right now please

 

[kitkatt]

10/10 I'm painting a self portrait for myself as death. I wish I had the energy to get up and do the chores I need to get done. I can't go to sleep can't stay sleeping when I do manage to get to bed. Also extra tired from burnout as well as I'm having a hard time eating:( foods grossing me out lately

 

[thatworthlessmale04]

7/10. I went through another phase of people online (specifically Discord) being very cold towards me, reminding myself that I'm unworthy of even living. Plus, I have to get up within the next few hours to renew my hotel room, for $170 a night.

My grandmother summarized my whole life best one time growing up: I do good, and then I ALWAYS mess up.