exitingtothevoid

exitingtothevoid

🏳️‍⚧️
Aug 2, 2024
60
5/10 - Thinking about my suicide, but more as an abstract relief from anxiety way than a planning to do it soon way.
 
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voc_89

voc_89

Experienced
Apr 10, 2023
246
7/10. I had two deaths in the family this month. Both i grew up with. Both i could have ended up as. That is being a statistic as they both lost parents young. As such both ended up in gangs. Thus both died in gangs. I feel very out of body atm.
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
527
Probably a solid 6 or 7 using this scale as a reference:
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Mint Floss

Mint Floss

Member
Dec 11, 2025
19
7: very unhappy but I've been worse
 
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hellogoodbye999

Member
Dec 14, 2025
11
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
6/10 the older I get, the lonelier I feel. I find it very hard to form meaningful connections with other people due to a lot of different reasons. Even I get the chance to make a friend or be in a relationship i just allow my own insecurities to ruin it. I know exactly how to change and be better but i simply am just so tired and drained i don't want to do anything. I hope i build the guts to CTB this year. I'm just scared of hurting my family when I do it , also scared that there is an afterlife and I'll go to hell
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Sayonara
Mar 27, 2023
87
5/10 in comparison to only myself, I feel in an average mental state for myself right now. In comparison to the general average person I am probably at a 7/10.
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
71
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
8/10

Took some pills with alcohol but it won't be enough to knock me out unfortunately. I'd say I'm pretty mentally distressed lol
 
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SanagiMezamete

SanagiMezamete

Member
Jan 1, 2026
29
2/10 for me in this current moment. Not happy but not feeling too bad either, just on edge and mentally tired. I finally decided to apply for an account here and was accepted so that felt good. I had been really desperate to connect with people who won't flip out if I want to talk about suicide and now I feel like I have a voice. I also wrote a bunch of journal entries about my ideation and ideas for things I could share on this forum in the future, which were both cathartic. I will be unhappy again soon, but I'll ride this feeling to bed tonight, or for however long it will last after waking up in the morning.

If I went by that "suicide scale" image and considered the last few weeks I would be somewhere between 6 and 8.
 
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Tommen Baratheon

Tommen Baratheon

1+1=3
Dec 26, 2023
462
Between 4 and 8. It goes up and down. Most days there's not much stress, but that can change very fast. It's like I don't have a buffer anymore.
 
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Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
177
About a 6/10 at the moment. I think about suicide a lot but I don't see myself CTBing anytime soon. There are definitely things that could happen that could bump the number closer to 10, though. I think there's a good chance that the number will reach 10 someday. It's just a matter of time.
 
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SweetMemories

Member
Dec 30, 2025
6
10/10

i am so tired, so damn tired. I am suffering since 9 years from tinnitus and hyperacusis, but also being diagnosed with ptsd, depression and anxiety disorders. I also have me/cfs. my life is really such a fucking mess. I can't take it anymore. I am not afraid of dying, but of the pain.. after such a long time period with shitty years i just want to be painless when it comes to the end..
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Member
Dec 29, 2025
86
7/10. I need to die now, but then part of me wants to live. I wonder what do I even want. I hate existing but then why don't I just kill myself. But then I haven't done anything with my life.
 
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MyLastTour

MyLastTour

Member
Dec 6, 2025
30
Been at a 4 or 5 out of 10 for a while now. Maybe a high 7 as of current though. I need a hug and something to make everything stop for a little while.
 
Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Experienced
Dec 10, 2025
221
My emotional dysregulation is very severe right now 10/10. I just don't want to feel these god damn emotions anymore. They are so intense.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
793
Very high. The horror at myself and the life I've lived is my only thought.

If there's a "suicide line" for mental anguish, I already passed it, but due to cowardice I couldn't act. So now I'm post-suicide. It's unbearable but I'm still afraid of that rope.

Maybe that SN wasn't a scam. Maybe it's gonna show up soon.
 
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dreadedliving

Wallflower
Jan 5, 2026
3
1/10, im angry because i cant feel anger towards the emptiness anymore. I gave up on trying to reach out and just too exhausted to try anything more. Really thinking about committing this time around
 
iLikeFrogs

iLikeFrogs

Most likely dissociating
May 5, 2023
139
7/10. I'm way too worried about the fact I have 2 days until I have to go back to uni
 
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Bitch With An Apple

Bitch With An Apple

"Student"
Jul 10, 2019
204
Really hard to quantify at this point.
I don't fully understand what's going on with me or how bad it is or how much of it I deserve.
 

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