N from D megathread

[Smart No More]

How much did you pay for one bottle?

The price varies depending on your location. I'm pretty sure it's cheapest if sent to the US. The further away you get the more expensive due to shipping costs. I'm not sure if we're allowed to discuss specifics of price. It's also understandably frowned upon to inadvertently disclose courier service providers used.

 

[_Seeking]

I live in the US, in a high-rise where all packages go through the front office and when it comes, you get a code to enter the room. Other tenants are fairly trustworthy as far as stealing a package, but I am worried about it looking suspicious to the front office. Would it be better to rent a UPS box? I have a PO Box, but I think he does not ship to PO Boxes. Has anyone tried a UPS box?

 

[Mukey]

does he accept bitcoin via cashapp? like does he have a cashtag?

 

[ChrisLeeHZ]

I have the Coinbase app. It has a send feature. Do I need another app, like Coinbase Wallet or Trust Wallet, to send btc to D?

If bitcoin is not available,can I pay through Moneygram or WU?

 

[Starchaser]

That's a good question. I have enough powder for 2 attempts on top of the bottles you've mentioned. That's a lot and I've probably went overboard, I'm gonna admit that. That's enough N for several attempts. But I'm gonna explain why I made that decision and it's a very rational one.

I've been suicidal for over 13 years and during my entire life, I never had the ability to leave in a peaceful manner. I remember when I became suicidal the first time when I was 14 years old, it was such a traumatizing moment to realize that I'm not gonna be able to leave with dignity and that all the methods that were avaiable to me during that time were violent and painful. I'm never gonna forget that. And that's the only reason why I survived during all these years. I was simply forced to live and I don't want to get into that position ever again. I just can't. Back in 2018 when I received N for the first time in my life, I finally felt free. I was in control of my life, I knew that. I knew nothing could take that away from me but to make sure it's gonna stay that way, I made another purchase in 2020 and now I've bought N for the final time. Long story short: it's simply a safety mechanism. I'm pretty confident I've permanently ensured my autonomy with that last purchase of N. It might seem obessive but for me, there is no price on a peaceful death. I could literally fail my attempts repeatedly, mess up in grandios manner, drop one of my bottles accidently and I'd still have enough N to go for another attempt and that makes me sleep well at night. My right to die is bulletproof and nothing is gonna change that, no matter what.

And right now, D seems to be the last known and reliable N vendor in business - at least in this community - and that's why I made one final purchase. It might be my last chance for a while to get my hands on legit N.

Damn, I identified myself.
I ordered 2 bottles some days ago but I'm thinking about ordering +2 or +3.... just in case I fuck everything up and I will be using one of the bottles to test it properly without worrying of fucking up my N's.

I don't pretend to catch the bed right now, but having those bottles at safety on my home, will bring extremely peace to me.
I don't think it's obsessive, no price on a peaceful death ^- ^

 

[GentleJerk]

i can only afford one bottle from D, should i risk it since most people are taking 2 bottles

One bottle will have just over 6g which is enough. People have easily died from as little as 2g. The use of 10-12g+ is excessive but designed to eliminate the very rare occurrence of a prolonged event.

he included 2 bottles when I only paid for one... I don't know why. Meto is also included

The whole shabangabang! D is the man

but I am worried about it looking suspicious to the front office

Don't worry, it will not look suspicious. I'm sure plenty of people order similar looking gifts and things from amazon all the time.

can I pay through Moneygram or WU?

Yes. Works fine.

 

[xyzblahh]

Has anyone managed to get successful delivery in the UK? PM me if you'd prefer to stay incog

 

[_Seeking]

Don't worry, it will not look suspicious. I'm sure plenty of people order similar looking gifts and things from amazon all the time.

Thanks, I think I'm just a bit paranoid about ordering.

 

[Smart No More]

Has anyone managed to get successful delivery in the UK? PM me if you'd prefer to stay incog

Many have posted on the forums detailing successfully receiving it in the UK. Usually reporting delivery in around one weeks time.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

It's so expensive. I've decided on N but don't think I want to ctb straight away, maybe in a few months.. I've even considered haggling with D. Probably a bad idea..

 

[KlMeNw]

It's so expensive. I've decided on N but don't think I want to ctb straight away, maybe in a few months.. I've even considered haggling with D. Probably a bad idea..

I wouls not haggle if I were you, he is literally your only source rn and if you piss him off your royally screwed...

 

[Julgran]

It's so expensive. I've decided on N but don't think I want to ctb straight away, maybe in a few months.. I've even considered haggling with D. Probably a bad idea..

I wouls not haggle if I were you, he is literally your only source rn and if you piss him off your royally screwed...

What's the point of haggling when purchasing a suicide method? It's not like you will take your money with you when you leave this life

 

[Catloaf]

What's the point of haggling when purchasing a suicide method? It's not like you will take your money with you when you leave this life

Situations are different. You'll never know why someone can't afford it.

 

[Julgran]

Situations are different. You'll never know why someone can't afford it.

That's a fair point. I actually don't know how expensive N is.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Does anyone know how long N is good for? I think I remember people saying two years but I'm not sure.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Does anyone know how long N is good for? I think I remember people saying two years but I'm not sure.

Good question.. I've read it's good for 12 months

 

[boc]

Good question.. I've read it's good for 12 months

This question comes up all the time. It's noted in the PPH. It's 20+ years if stored correctly and unopened. When it goes bad, it takes on a milky look to it (no longer clear). So just keep an eye on that.

 

[_Seeking]

This may be a stupid question but if I were to use WU, do I go in person and pay in cash? I would assume doing it online via a bank account would not be a smart idea. I don't understand BTC or Monero, but if I have to, I could probably learn.

 

[Matthtvr]

Hi you pay in cash at WU. More expensive but i think safer as mr D also Said. Western union exchange Cost is really High. 1000usd became like 1200 USD.

 

[ClaireBear31]

This may be a stupid question but if I were to use WU, do I go in person and pay in cash? I would assume doing it online via a bank account would not be a smart idea. I don't understand BTC or Monero, but if I have to, I could probably learn.

I opted for Moneygram and used a debit card to process it online. Just don't use a credit card because that may be flagged for fraud. Due to my circumstances, I could not go in person, so I was grateful that I could do it online. I received an email that the money was picked up last night but have not received further word from D.

 

[Mukey]

i asked him about WU and he hasnt replied yet, does he go a bit slower when mentioning WU? now im worried i feel like i drove him away and i guess the people who use WU with him get less priority?

 

[Ldog9]

Don't stress about it, people have reported success with using WU. I'm sure he'll get back to you.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Some people have said they've been asked questions at WU about why they are transferring the money, and have made up something to say. Has anyone been asked for reasons, if so what did you say? Friend? Family member?
It says on WU that they carry out checks before the money is sent, I wonder what the checks are

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I opted for Moneygram and used a debit card to process it online. Just don't use a credit card because that may be flagged for fraud. Due to my circumstances, I could not go in person, so I was grateful that I could do it online. I received an email that the money was picked up last night but have not received further word from D.

Could you keep us updated as to when you receive it as I am looking at paying this way.

 

[Somber]

What's wrong with simply using crypto?

Sounds a lot less secure to go through Western Union. Especially when you do it in person (camera) or when you use a credit or debit card (full disclosure, adress included).

 

[WhiteRabbit]

What's wrong with simply using crypto?

Sounds a lot less secure to go through Western Union. Especially when you do it in person (camera) or when you use a credit or debit card (full disclosure, adress included).

I think some people don't know how. Coinbase is pretty easy to figure out and I'm a dumbass at this kind of stuff.

 

[Somber]

I think some people don't know how. Coinbase is pretty easy to figure out and I'm a dumbass at this kind of stuff.

You exchange money for crypto (Monero is anonymous), you receive it in your wallet and you transfer it to the other person's wallet is not more complicated than earning money, receiving it in your bank account and transferring it to the other person's bank account and it excluded the extra step of going to ye olde WU shoppe.

What am I missing?

 

[WhiteRabbit]

You exchange money for crypto (Monero is anonymous), you receive it in your wallet and you transfer it to the other person's wallet is not more complicated than earning money, receiving it in your bank account and transferring it to the other person's bank account and it excluded the extra step of going to ye olde WU shoppe.

What am I missing?

I think some people are just intimidated? I'm not sure.

 

[Interloper]

I can confirm the intimidation angle, the brain is weird. Maybe someone has ethical issues with crypto and want no part of it, or maybe they straight up can't/it's too much work compared to just handing the money to some clerk.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I can't speak for everyone but my depression makes it difficult to string a sentence together at times, the whole crypto thing feels too much to get my head around.

Could also be an age thing. I'm in my 30's .. I feel older