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candy578

Member
Sep 10, 2024
24
hi, i'm hannah! i'm 19 and from the uk (i only want to speak to people of a similar age and preferably same country).
i have bpd and most likely autism as well - i'm in a bit of a bad depressive episode atm which i fear makes me quite boring but i do like going for walks, baking & cooking and kpop (i'm probably seeing nct on sunday but i'm more of a casual listener these days)
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Student
Sep 7, 2024
125
31 F New England USA
I love horror movies, anime (I'm still an anime newbie) and I'm queer. I play a lot of board games and enjoy walks and swimming. I'm trying to read as many Stephen king books as I can before I ctb. I have several chronic health conditions and haven't been able to work since Sept 2023.

Just looking for someone to occasionally chat with and someone I can safely talk to about my pain and my plans.

I get overwhelmed easily and then it can take me some time to reply. I promise it's me and not you. I'm autistic.

Tentative plans to CTB in January but it may be as late as Summer 2025. I will say goodbye first if possible.

No terfs please
Anna
 
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Lost21

Student
Sep 24, 2018
181
50 M Canadian who loves to play chess and talk about politics
 
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Lucid.44

Lucid.44

Member
Jan 6, 2024
25
Hi you can call me lucid for now. I want to find someone i can talk to and vent. Rn im stressed about life. Im always moved around so its hard for me to develop friends and social skills. We can just talk about each other you know; vent and all that.
 
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Wanted Opioid

Wanted Opioid

Drugged
Sep 9, 2023
26
Hi!
You can call me Olive, I'm from Canada.
m19

I need to vent to someone who is preferably around my age.
You can vent to me if u want. PM me, I'll answer.

About me:
I'm a waste of air.
I like cats.
 
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deleted

Warlock
Jul 31, 2020
704
Deleted, 22M from Brazil

I think I'm a very uninteresting person but I feel very lonely, I only have 2 friends and one doesn't understand me and the other we only talk once a month after he started dating lmao. During the week I work and go to the gym, on weekends I like to stay at home and watch movies, smoke weed, play lol and gta v, watch anime, listen to music, I especially enjoy rock, witch house, rap and hardstyle. English is not my first language, but we can try. I have no gender or age preference.
 
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frog problems

frog problems

Member
Oct 25, 2024
16
Hi! You can call me frog.

I am 22M from Brazil. I have been slowly losing my mind over the last 5 years or so and I finally reached some kind of tipping point. A kind of minor but somewhat traumatizing event happened to me in April and it seems to have triggered an insanity that had been building up for some time. I can barely sleep or eat anymore. I might have OCD or something because I keep having these horrible repetitive and painful thoughts that keep me awake at night. I have been hurting myself again and rotting in bed all day. I bought a comically large container of crappy SN from a chemical store that keep stashed in my room but I just couldn't muster the courage to even open it, at least not yet. Life is just endlessly horrible everyday but I'm not ready to say goodbye to the few beautiful things in it, so I'm here for now.

Anyway, I will now talk about the beautiful things. I like horror movies a lot. It's been hard to focus on anything lately so I haven't been able to read or watch anything but when I was feeling better would watch a lot of shit tier horror movies. They remind me of being young when I used to watch movies with my sister all the time. I love books too but I haven't been able to read one in months. The last one I read was No Longer Human by Dazai. I was so fucking depressing yet so beautiful.

I like to write sometimes. I was writing a book of poetry last year but it seems like I was so long ago I can't even remember what I was about. I feel like I was a completely different person a year ago. It was really bad poetry but I felt good to make something. It seems like I'm always planning to make something but rarely actually do these things, so writing made me feel accomplished.

More than anything, I like math. I'm in grad school but I'm in no condition of actually doing anything. Last year everything was going right for me and I really thought I could become a real mathematician. Actually making money from doing and teaching what I love. But mentally ill people like me don't really have what I takes to survive in academia. My scholarship fell through and now I'm financially fucked and having to sell everything I own. But I don't even care anymore. I don't have the energy to care. Deep down I want everything to go wrong so I can finally have the courage to get the fuck out of here.

This was a mess. I am not good at writing about myself so I'm lucky if this is even coherent. I don't think I can chat yet but I'll be glad to chat with any of you fellow suicidal people when the time comes. I hope everything works out okay for you guys.
 
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miyamura_04

miyamura_04

If I say stupid stuff it's cause I'm stupid
Oct 29, 2024
8
Hi I'm hoping to find some friends around my age (20). Location doesn't matter too much to me but I'm from the uk if you wanted to know. Right now my head is thick with fog and it's hard to think so I'll say sorry in advance for being slow. I'm too tired and insecure to write down an elaborate description of my interests and life, but feel free to message me if you're also cripplingly lonely or want to talk with someone
 
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DepressedEgg

DepressedEgg

Member
Jun 20, 2023
27
Hi there, I'm Egg. I'm 19, from the UK, non-binary (AMAB). I don't really have anyone in my life right now and I need some people I can talk to, or help, or just spend some time on. I'm very nerdy; I love roleplaying games, horror, and comic books (in case the pfp wasn't clear). I'd really like to meet some people who might understand some of the isolation I'm feeling. Admittedly I always feel more comfortable with femme people, it's a flaw of mine that AMAB people I struggle to be close with, but I am trying to work on that so don't feel restricted by it haha.
 
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lok_sat

lok_sat

dawg
Nov 1, 2024
11
hihi ! you can call me rall or lok, im a 20 year old transman who is stuck in the limbo between continuing on existing and cbt.

i'm not always online or that talkative but i enjoy having people around me and hearing about their day/interests ! i used to draw and play video games, alongside watching anime/tv series and reading manga/novels quite often before depression and art school kicked my ass ><

i don't think i can actually pm anyone yet but feel free to reply or something to let me know you would like to be friends :D ! i don't really mind anyone as long as they're being nice.
 
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yellowjester

yellowjester

Specialist
Jun 2, 2024
301
hey, i've posted here before, but never got very far with anyone, so i'm trying again. i'm 24/m and looking for people, ideally in my age range, who are also planning on ctbing in the next few months, possibly by the end of this year. we can recapitulate our lives together, talk about music/books/whatever, vent to each other, maybe bond a little, and keep each other company until our final hour comes. it should be said that i might be going a lot sooner than expected (like in a week or so), so if you are currently in a vulmerable state or anything, talking to me might not be such a good idea.

i could keep talking about my preferences, or what my ideal chat partner looks like, but i feel like i'd be filtering out potentially worthwhile people by doinh that, so just shoot me a dm and let's see where it leads. if i don't respond, it's probably because i changed my mind about wanting to talk to someone (that can happen), or because i'm already busy talking to someone else (i'm on mobile and my brain is cooked, so i can't send too many messages in one day). anyways, thanks for reading this far; i doubt anyone finds these unhinged ramblings appealing, but if you do, well, you know where to find me.

edit: we can talk even if you're not planning on going soon, just don't try to talk me out of it or anything.
 
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never_take_my_heart

never_take_my_heart

Just a boy, who had to sing this song.
Nov 9, 2024
8
Shame I can't initiate contact with people here yet...

I'd like to find a chat buddy... Kindness being the only "requirement", really.
 
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HenryHenriksen_6E

HenryHenriksen_6E

Member
Oct 19, 2024
54
Hello, Henry here. I'm an amateur animator and writer, so I've got that going for me, though there are many things I find interesting, so I'll likely be rather enthusiastic about your stuff going on.

Chances are I'll dip in march, just so you're aware.

Also: I'm occasionally mildly witty, with me usually being the one who's entertained.
 
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(in)sane

(in)sane

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself"
Jun 9, 2024
29
I'm 18F, I like mobile games and planes. I work as a car mechanic rn but the plan is bigger than that. I love math and all things logic. I also like philosophy. I love cartoons and horror movies. I'm big time into music, my favorite artist is NF and my favorite genres are Rap and Hyperpop but I listen to everything really. If we have something in common PM me :)
 
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UnwillingSavior

UnwillingSavior

Mr. Self Destruct
Nov 2, 2023
113
21M from the US. Willing to talk about lots of things, serious or not, though don't expect me to be a pro on a lot of topics haha. Not currently looking to ctb myself, but I still entertain the thought and even have a full kit ready for whenever.

I love indie games, anime, auto-mechanic stuff (am an amateur lol), bits of philosophy, digital media creation (also an amateur), and vaporwave + industrial rock music. If none of these things are interesting to you, I'm still willing to talk about whatever :)
 
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OldManOfTheLake

OldManOfTheLake

Dakhma
Nov 11, 2024
47
Just call me an old man. I have lived around the world. The UK, the US, and if I am able to pull out a miracle, I will either be moving to Norway or the Netherlands in the next few months. I currently reside in the US.

Im a nerd. Like such a big nerd you would want to bully me and steal my lunch money. I work in research and development, and I like reading academic articles in my free time, read other books, hike/mountaineer, photography , and play horror co-op games with my friends.

Right now I am dealing with a lot of trauma, and my decade of substance abuse has finally caught up to me. I am sober right now and I'm struggling. I'm a member of the LGBT community and I have nearly always surrounded by people who would not accept me for it. I am making a pretty detailed plan to ctb if push comes to shove, and things are not looking great right now.

I like you guys and will probably be posting here more often. Know that you can talk to me anytime.
 
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brokendreamsxo

brokendreamsxo

Member
May 28, 2021
22
30 F MtF trans. (I transitioned as a teen) From Canada. Im in a unhappy and emotional abusive marriage with my husband and dont have any friends or family. I like to play games like fortnite, fall guys , friday the 13th on xbox. horror movies. going for walks. looking for someone nice to talk to and be friends with or play games with thank you.
 
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graveface

graveface

Timor mortis exultat me
Nov 3, 2024
33
I'm graveface, I'm 2,000 years old and gender noncommittal.

I'm an omnivorous reader but prefer scifi or other books that offer depth of knowledge about the area or experience written about. No detail is too small or nerdy. I also like books about how things work: anything from dictatorships to the Donner Party... but it better have the manifestos from the wagon train.

I go down research rabbit holes (how do storms spawn tornadoes, how do different areas of the brain work together, the 1893 Chicago World's Fair, etc) and if you want I will let you know what I find out about.

I like music from a wide range of genre and time... Clock DVA, Tangerine Dream, Areknuteknyterne, Queen Adreena, Modest Mouse, Clark, whatever.

My hobbies include writing and doing aerial acrobatics. Am not particularly good at these things but some of my short stories have been published. I also explore abandoned places and take pictures of what I find.

I sometimes intensely want to CTB and sometimes don't. That's the joy and exasperation of bipolar disorder.

I don't waste time on head games, but will engage in playful banter.

No matter what I do, I feel better when I stop doing it and lie on a pile of soft cushions.
 
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Thisisnotaname

Thisisnotaname

Fvck stalker watching me die
Aug 27, 2024
327
Hi , I'm G from France.
Tbh I'm looking for someone who can understand and talk about near ctb experiences. And whatever you want. I plan to ctb on Christmas time alone and unfortunatly in a mid painful way.
I love asians shows and musics, I'm an old gamer and junkie too...
All I do everyday is watching Disney+ and listenning musics I like. I'm fkin bored. I can't even talk to my family bc of my plans. So it's appreciated to talk to someone who want to talk with me.

Feel free to chat with me, no matter your age or your country. I love everyone in here. Not outside
 
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SnowLeopard21

SnowLeopard21

Terminal Sadcat
Oct 30, 2024
19
Hey, 29M from Wisconsin. Into a lot of outdoorsy stuff, but I also enjoy indoor nerdy stuff. Not nerdy stuff like fellating corporate properties, but more like obsessions. I enjoy talking about music and I don't really have a limit to this. I'm good with my hands, but don't ask me to fix your stuff. Not looking for anything romantic, don't think I'm capable of feeling it anyways. Just want someone I can talk to daily without feeling like I'm bothering them.
 
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ShatteredShards

ShatteredShards

Lost One
Aug 26, 2024
15
Hello, I'm Shards, a male in their twenties. It's a little difficult to summarise exactly who I am and what my interests are, but I'll try my best to be brief and decisive, bare with me in this one.

Right, I enjoy digital painting, though I mostly sketch these days, specifically for my personal friends outside Sanctioned Suicide. What I draw is a little random, it can range, from a cute cartoon bird, or a stylised humanoid, pretty much whatever ideas they throw at me that sticks (I'll attach some of my sketches). I think it goes without saying that I enjoy art as a whole. Creative writing has always been an interest of mine, reading it that is. Good stories with original characters always keep me captivated for long periods. I've read a few manga here and there too, I'd be happy to check out your recommendations, maybe we could spark up a conversation about them? Just please don't send me something that'll take a week of committed reading to get through, I'm not that much of a book worm. Working out is an interest of mine too, from long distance running to high weight drop sets, that could be something worth chatting about too

Who I am as a person, I don't really know anymore, got this whole identity crisis going on upstairs, still trying figuring out what I do and don't like. But what I'm certain of is that I'm open minded and willing to listen, though if you're wanting to vent, let me know beforehand, I need that mental preparation for heavy subjects. Meeting someone of the same wavelength as me would mean a lot.

If you want to talk, drop me a PM, Thanks!

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Ryn_0

Ryn_0

All my delusions are discovered in hindsight
Feb 6, 2023
11
hi guys, im ryn, questioning everything about my life and shit but have constantly wanted to CTB since i was 11 ...

F, probably, going to university for computer science (and totally not failing my classes!!)
Im just so fucking tired of people pushing their own agendas on my life and so i come to this place (mostly lurk LOL i suck at communication) to unwind i guess, it makes me hopeful in a way to know I have a way out of it if anything.
right now im obsessed with fortnite (zb shush idk how to build) and watching random shows nd anime ( please give me recs PLEASE), but overall i like fishing and sailing and outdoorsy things... also digital art and oc stories.... tryna get better at both writing and drawing
got ~20 cats under my and my family's care they are my everything !!!

my life sounds perfect on text but in reality im super demotivated all the time...
mann i just wanna like discuss methods and feelings and maybe other random stuff too, the feels hit hard sometimes and keeping them in or risking *~consequences~* just feels ass

also note i find it hard af to be vented to, i dont vent much either and if i do its in a joke-y way, so... yeah....

hopefully i didnt make myself seem weird or whatever LOL i am just hungry for some nice real no bs chatting
 
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shrizoid

shrizoid

New Member
Nov 18, 2024
3
I'm Shrizoid, I'm from the US and would really enjoy some new friends at the moment that could actually bear with me and now grow tired of me and my depressive moments, I mainly enjoy automotive things and tech stuff, I'm also learning Portuguese as well if anyone would rather talk in that
 
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barely_afloat

barely_afloat

meh
Aug 29, 2023
43
Hey, I'm 20 (no, this isn't my name). I'm from Canada/USA, kind of. Anyhow, I'm a university student, it's hella stressful but I manage. I love nature and hiking, and I have quite a few pictures that I think are cool. I love making stories but I struggle to write them down. I occasionally read manhwas of any genre really. I dunno what else to write here. It's kinda awkward to talk about yourself unprompted.

Anyhow, I think it'd be cool to meet someone new, so here I am. I don't mind listening to someone either. If anybody does PM me or something, I hope we click. If not, it was still nice meeting you. I've also been told I'm distant or cold at first, but I swear I'm not mean or anything like that...
 
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