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acidreflux

acidreflux

Member
Dec 4, 2024
8
18F, UK
I'm autistic, have PCOS and who knows what else honestly. I'm currently being held together by duct tape, otherwise known as medication and talking therapy (that doesn't work)
I enjoy playing video games, mostly relaxed ones like Minecraft, Roblox and all that (stereotypical, I know) but I also enjoy horror games like Silent Hill, Resident Evil.
I'm trying to get back into reading because I haven't been able to in a while, same situation with video games and it's because I've lost the motivation or don't enjoy much anymore. I've recently been getting into Stardew Valley though!
 
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Sockeye Salmon

Sockeye Salmon

Student
Mar 28, 2018
132
25M
Autistic, got bipolar and ADHD which makes it hard for me to make friends and get a job. Kind of a NEET though I have some side work

I would say I'm mostly chill, though I can be a bit upper when my bipolar says so. I do have a very difficult time talking about things that I have little knowledge or interest in, though I'll try my best.

Interests are making 2D and 3D art, animations, video games, talking about them and making ideas, stories and whatnot.

Kind of a kid at heart? I feel like I've never grown past the age of 13 and so I kind of act like one. Never really understood or gotten any grasp of adulthood due to how I grew up and my aforementioned issues. Probably why I reminisce about my childhood a lot and have a huge nostalgia for the early 2010s, growing up and stuff. So if you too are someone that has a nostalgia boner for those days, I'm one of those people.

I don't really have friends to talk to, at least not regularly and beyond sending memes and such. Been a very long time since I've met someone new.
I'm not even sure if posting here does anything. I guess I'm just kind of desperate at this point. I've been feeling extremely lonely and empty.
 
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sadlyexisting

sadlyexisting

I don't know who I am anymore.
Jun 26, 2023
107
Hi!! I am 20F from Germany.

I have been suicidal since the age of 11/12. Currently I am studying medicine (forensic sciences).

I don't really have hobbies at the moment, and I just spend my time watching YouTube or any kind of series. I also play video games a lot lately, for example Phasmophobia or Valorant. I am very interested in horror and paranormal things too, and watch horror movies from time to time.

I can not get any mental health diagnosis at the moment, so I can't really tell what or even if I have any mental illness. But my symptoms do match with BPD, depression and anxiety, which I want to get tested as soon as I am able too.

I'd say I am a pretty good listener, even though I have problems communicating my emotions, I try my best to be there for everyone and comfort them.

Age and gender doesn't matter, so just sent me a message. I respond to basically everyone!
 
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ShesPunishedForever

ShesPunishedForever

Punished
Sep 15, 2024
34
20fem im one side from straya the other new zealand
im a 1st year CS student at a Melb uni im all abt music and like anything from jazz fusion to progressive metal, indie, pop, hip hop and rap and playing guitar n instruments mostly prog metal and jazz fusion, i like making homecooked meals and cooking any food from Asia, curry is my favourite. I read a lot of manga, webtoons, and watch anime sometimes. I play vidja game like mostly paradox games and overwatch xD my steam library p hyuge tho and i like all vidja. ooh also movie buff, i keep a top 100 films. im a nerd and like things all science, technology or even like history or humanities xp. hope to meet and talk to yall c:
 
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AtLast

Member
Jul 16, 2018
32
Your English if great. Didn't notice anything was different until you mentioned it. Not planning on CTB either. I've done a lot of healing over the past years but I still have lots of residual in me. What do you like to write? I'm Bill
 
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S1_ckJoe

S1_ckJoe

Member
Nov 15, 2024
37
Your English if great. Didn't notice anything was different until you mentioned it. Not planning on CTB either. I've done a lot of healing over the past years but I still have lots of residual in me. What do you like to write? I'm Bill
nice to meet you. I like to write stories, you know, things that take me a little away from reality. I just started journaling and it helps me a little.
 
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stopwizard

stopwizard

again & again & again & again
Dec 7, 2024
11
Hi, trying this again

24f Living in the US
Planning to ctb sometime in the following months.
We can talk about ctb or our interests or just how the days have been, I'd enjoy anyone's company and am happy to listen to whatever you'd like to talk about.

Shoot me a PM; I'll respond to whomever :)
 
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mint_parfait

Member
Jul 10, 2022
14
21F, from non english-speaking region

Looking for someone to talk about ctb, without all the anxiety that comes from posting public threads.
I plan to ctb after 3-4 weeks.
I'll look forward to a PM from anyone. (except the case of a romantic interest)
 
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foreverlanguish

foreverlanguish

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ sleepy in a heaven's sprawl
Dec 7, 2024
147
Hey hi halloo, I'm 18f, and I'm looking to have a chatting friend or someone to play Terraria with. I like video gaming, writing (I'm currently working on an original story!), eating hot fries, stealing memes, singing, listening to music, and making art sometimes. If you like Whirr or Narrowhead or Title Fight, please reach out! I'm quite shy but once I get to know you a little better I tend to be really talkative, so bear with me if I get a little over my head with what I'm into. I plan on CTBing soon, probably later this month or in the next two, but it'd be nice to talk to someone before I go. I hope we can all get along!

Spider-Man Hello GIF by MOODMAN
 
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Edu Ardanuy

Edu Ardanuy

Member
Dec 3, 2024
50
M - Undisclosed location. I like poetry, coding, instrumental rock/classic/jazz/blues/electronic/pop. etc. I'm interested in movies and tv shows.
Planning to CTB, I very much would like to meet someone here who can relate and talk about it(or anything, with an open-minded view) without romantic/relatioship intentions. At first, I plan to talk over PMs in here, and then if we gain trust, maybe over whatsapp.

Peace
 
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timorousTruant

timorousTruant

Azoidant
Nov 18, 2022
75
20y/o FtM (trans guy) in New Hampshire

Hello! I'm looking for friends around my age range who live in my area. I'd like someone in my region because if we become comfortable enough after chatting online for a while, I'd like to meet IRL. No pressure, though. If you're in another New England state and don't mind travelling a bit, I'd be interested too. I don't have a driver's license, but I could travel by uber/bus/train to meet halfway.

I'm into general fandom culture! Anime/manga, fanfic, fanart and all that. I've been to a few conventions and hand-made a couple of bad cosplays too 😂. I write and draw when the right inspiration strikes! I'm a fan of whump and darkfic; exploring darker topics through fiction is an interest of mine. I work out a lot of my feelings that way.

I'd also love to travel more someday. I want to see the Great Lake and the Rockies, and anything nature related really…

If you're interested in discussing these kinds of things, or even meeting at a convention or something, send a PM my way so we can be friends! It'd be nice to have someone I can be open with about suicidal thoughts and whatnot, hence this forum.
 
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AtLast

Member
Jul 16, 2018
32
nice to meet you. I like to write stories, you know, things that take me a little away from reality. I just started journaling and it helps me a little.
Journaling is great for your mental health. I haven't done journaling in a while. I would wright a daily journal of everything throughout the day. Worries, fears, wants, dreams, lessons learned, etc. It's good to get them out of your head and in focus, so they don't run your life. Hope that makes sense. Sorry, I don't bet in here all the time. It can be a little much. Thank you for getting back!
 
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Just_Average

Navigating through life
Dec 12, 2024
1
Hi, good to meet you. Thanks for scrolling by.

In my late 30s and living in the eastern part of the world so I'm not a native English speaker. I'm undiagnosed but I know I am depressed most of the time and can get anxious. I just try my best to curb them since I've been dealing with these since I was 10.

My life's been bad and I've lost and regretted so much. I know it's not as bad as what others may have gone through. I had a good childhood, with exception of being bullied throughout my formative years. Yet, I can't help but feel this way.

If you've managed to reach this far, thank you. I like to read books, play video games (mostly single player), watch anime/movies. The typical stuff. Definitely in my younger years, I tend to read more non-fiction books and play hard-core games but now I prefer light-hearted novels/manga or tear-jerkers with a happy ending because IRL's already difficult.

If you want to be friends or just talk (and for me to listen), feel free to DM me. :)
 
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scottchy

scottchy

The sad wise old man
Dec 20, 2024
61
Hello All
I'm Scottchy
Canadian eh!
M 40yrs (feels like 185 lol)
In search of happiness
Some of my interests include metal music, smoking pot, legos, watching documentaries, horror movies, body mods, piercings/tattoos, my pets, engineering, aerospace, astronomy, philosophy, religion.
Basically I'm a sapiophile nerd lol
My therapist tells me that Loneliness and isolation are very bad for me despite feeling so right.
I've been dealing with a magnitude of mental health problems all my life ranging from major depression to autism and everything in between.
I'm genuinely a good person, i consider myself to be highly intelligent, i can make people laugh, I'm passionate, caring, loving but I hate myself so much that i have never accomplished anything in life.
People tell me all the time that I should have done something with my life like go into psychology or some sort of higher learning but instead I'm unemployed now after working a deadend retail job all my life. If life is only work, misery, sleep, repeat than I don't want to do it anymore.
I have never lived a single day of my life and I'm afraid despite all the effort I'm putting in that it will never change.
I feel immense alone.
I have had girlfriends but nobody that understands me and that I could ever consider a partner and nobody that would have my back the way I have theirs.
I have no family and I have come to terms with the fact that I will never have children.

I simply feel I need to meet more people that see the world the same way as I do but my biggest challenge is my fear of people.
If for whatever reason what I wrote resonate with whoever reads this (highly doubtful) or you would like to chat with a wise broken old man please feel free to send me a message or whatever
Much love
Scottchy

P.s. I'm really new here and have no idea when I will have access to chat or pm or whatever else
 
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whatcouldofbeen

whatcouldofbeen

Member
Dec 17, 2024
18
hey there

19m (or 20? i forgot)

looking for someone to talk suicide with i guess, i dont wanna burden my friends and i suppose its not burdening some online stranger if they have the same desire for knowledge and comfort?

i was a engineering major before i got construtively dismissed from uni lol, i used to skateboard alot before the events happened.

I play alot of ddnet/ddrace, small but fun and cute game, too flakey and broken to arrange playtimes together probably lol. but the game runs on literally anything and its a beautiful game.

right now my current objective is hammering out a to-do list to plan a near perfect/satisfactory suicide accounting for the things before and after. also in the midst of trying to do some schiczo astral projections to catch a glimpse of the next bus stop in a sense lol.

but yeah feel free to just randomly dm me and trauma dump if you got any questions about skateboarding i suppose i could answer them as i amassed a ungodly amount of knowledge about it (autisitic special interest)
 
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toxicjester

toxicjester

Because you know in a moment, it could all..POW!
Dec 11, 2023
146
Maybe I'll try this

You can call me Jester, J, whatever

I'm 23 enby and from US and Hispanic

I'm autistic as fuck (diagnosed) and probably also have bpd (undiagnosed) and have weird "brain stuff" (or maybe just delusions)

I talk about my "mama" a lot as a concept, I dunno if that's weird to anyone but best not to message me if it does bother you

I like seals!! Like a lot if we talk I'll send you seal pictures! I also like Pokémon but I feel like my special interest has shifted to seals 🦭

I also play Fortnite occasionally! I'm v bad and mostly play with my gf but maybe if the stars align playing with someone else would be cool?

I think that finding someone that I could talk about CTB with would be cool! I'm not sure if I'll ctb soon, part of me desperately wants to but I don't quite have the means to or have my loose ends tied up. I really want to make my life better but recently it feels like a lost cause.

I dunno, you can look through my profile if you want to see how I am n stuff but I know I can be a bit much and difficult. I also sometimes struggle with communication since I get burnt out easy. But I'll try, I promise

Just message me if you're into that, I'm always way too nervous to talk first
 
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Neoatlech

Neoatlech

Prince of Disorder
Aug 15, 2023
26
hello there. 20M here. I'm a programming student.

I do a lot of things.. from tabletop games like D&D to sometimes emulating videogames from 20-30 years ago for fun. Occasionally I jump between reading the world classics or focus on science fiction. As for my taste in music, while I listen to anything from breakcore to metal to 80's pop, I'd say I'm mostly a fan of rock & metal. If you can think of something, I probably have tried it at least, if I don't have experience with it.

As time passes by, I'm starting to realize I relate less and less with the already few people I interact with. I'm making this post to hopefully find friends who I can just talk to. If any part of my post interests you and you want to become friends, feel free to shoot me a message.

Thanks for taking the time to read my post.
 
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gambara1

New Member
Dec 28, 2024
4
40s man from Australia, looking to make a friend or two in my last few weeks. Open to talking about CBT, life, or interests in general. Some of mine in include fitness, music, reading, history, travel.
 
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Too_Many_Years

Too_Many_Years

Future Corpse
Dec 18, 2024
15
Hi, am F late 30s from UK. Looking to talk to others of similar age and location. Love video games, animals, horror movies, spooky stuff 🖤
 
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sadlyexisting

sadlyexisting

I don't know who I am anymore.
Jun 26, 2023
107
Hi!! I am 21F from Germany.

I have been suicidal since the age of 11/12. Currently I am studying medicine (forensic sciences).

I don't really have hobbies at the moment, and I just spend my time watching YouTube or any kind of series. I also play video games sometimes, but not regularly anymore. I am very interested in horror and paranormal things too, and watch horror movies from time to time. Otherwise I listen to rock & metal music very often.

I can not get any mental health diagnosis at the moment, so I can't really tell what or even if I have any mental illness. But my symptoms do match with BPD, depression and anxiety, which I want to get tested as soon as I am able to.

I'd say I am a pretty good listener, even though I have problems communicating my emotions, I try my best to be there for everyone and comfort them to the best of my ability.

Age and gender doesn't matter, so just sent me a message. I respond to basically everyone!
 
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aikoelis6

aikoelis6

Member
Dec 9, 2019
26
I'm 26 F and from Canada.. incredibly shy and introverted. Feel free to message me and ask me anything.

I don't leave the house these days and want to try to make some friends..
 
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requiemforadream

requiemforadream

This little fellow is getting tired
Jan 1, 2025
45
25M from Poland. I am better listener and do not like talking about myself much. I do not enjoy anything anymore but can talk about gardening, sports, computers and everything you like.
 
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stink144

stink144

Nothing
Dec 29, 2024
35
Poland, girl, 20s, autistic, looking for women only, preferably also autistic and sensitive, who don't have romantic relationships.
 
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Alpenglow

Alpenglow

Never really there
Mar 5, 2024
66
Heya, I'm 20M from France.
I play video games, mostly league, I'm decent at it, but I have a bunch of others that I've played in the past and sometimes go through phases of them again. Occasionally I also acquire some culture or knowledge with the internet, writing or drawing. I also sing mediocrely so if anybody wants to do Karaoke thats cool too :3 And maybe eventually ill be not shit at dancing (next century or so maybe).

Oh yeah also sometimes my gender does a funny on me but thats probably normal.

Anyways, thanks for reading, I hope you have a good rest of your day ^^
 
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imsotired005

imsotired005

Member
Dec 25, 2024
15
I'm 19F in the united states.

Im diagnosed with BPD but also am seeking out an autism diagnosis.

On here you can call me Winter I want to keep myself mostly anon on this site to the best of my ability.

Right now I dont have many hobbies I used to love to game (minecraft, stardew, fortnite, and more) draw and sing. Im in a not so healthy relationship so I dont call people much and prefer to only really talk to other girls than to guys just due to a bunch of things.

as of right now I do not plan to CTB but depending on if I can successfully get myself out of my situation or not that might change. I just really want to be able to share my frustrations and experience with a friend and do the same for them just to feel a little less isolated...
 
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Dgafajwd

Member
Jan 1, 2024
65
I'm 18F, I live in the UK. Diagnosed with depression, anxiety and autism. Battling an undiagnosed ED. Living with my family- not so healthy relationships with them.

My interests:
I love music, I play multiple instruments, I sing and write songs too. I listen to a range of genres
Sometimes I like to play minecraft, fortnite, forza horizon etc.
I love playing with my pets, I have a dog and 3 rabbits.
Currently studying biology, chemistry and psychology
Spending time with younger brother

I plan on CTB at some point, not sure when though, I want to try get better atm.

I am looking for someone who is understanding, kind, has similar interests as me and around the same age as me (18-25). Location and gender doesn't matter. Just looking for someone I can talk to, if possible a friendship

If you're interested please PM me. I will answer to anyone. Thank you for taking the time to read this
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,236
Hello All
I'm Scottchy
Canadian eh!
M 40yrs (feels like 185 lol)
In search of happiness
Some of my interests include metal music, smoking pot, legos, watching documentaries, horror movies, body mods, piercings/tattoos, my pets, engineering, aerospace, astronomy, philosophy, religion.
Basically I'm a sapiophile nerd lol
My therapist tells me that Loneliness and isolation are very bad for me despite feeling so right.
I've been dealing with a magnitude of mental health problems all my life ranging from major depression to autism and everything in between.
I'm genuinely a good person, i consider myself to be highly intelligent, i can make people laugh, I'm passionate, caring, loving but I hate myself so much that i have never accomplished anything in life.
People tell me all the time that I should have done something with my life like go into psychology or some sort of higher learning but instead I'm unemployed now after working a deadend retail job all my life. If life is only work, misery, sleep, repeat than I don't want to do it anymore.
I have never lived a single day of my life and I'm afraid despite all the effort I'm putting in that it will never change.
I feel immense alone.
I have had girlfriends but nobody that understands me and that I could ever consider a partner and nobody that would have my back the way I have theirs.
I have no family and I have come to terms with the fact that I will never have children.

I simply feel I need to meet more people that see the world the same way as I do but my biggest challenge is my fear of people.
If for whatever reason what I wrote resonate with whoever reads this (highly doubtful) or you would like to chat with a wise broken old man please feel free to send me a message or whatever
Much love
Scottchy

P.s. I'm really new here and have no idea when I will have access to chat or pm or whatever else
You should be able by now:)
 
Timelapse

Timelapse

Well, time can heal, but this won't.
Nov 3, 2023
55
Heya

37M from the french side of canada

I love music and tv shows (currently watching Krapopolis, Extraordinary, ghost 2021, shrinking 2021 and more

PM me ... lets see where it goes
 
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ylenol

Auspicious
May 30, 2020
20
24m 177 76 france, lf duo partner to rot with while playing league of legends, marvel rivals or wtv (europe 18+)
I like lemon pasteries and cage the elephant
Last show I enjoyed was Severance.
Don't intend to ctb in 2025 so my shelf life is alright, u can invest in me.
 
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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

Member
Jan 5, 2025
56
I'm Hela , I'm 25 . I'm Transgender and I really enjoy metal , alt and most rock music . I'm into anime and such and video games. I'm very emo with multiple mental illnesses .
I'm Hela , I'm 25 . I'm Transgender and I really enjoy metal , alt and most rock music . I'm into anime and such and video games. I'm very emo with multiple mental illnesses .
 
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