
Influ
Lonely Forever
- Jan 28, 2025
- 12
Well, I have been lurking on this website since many months but I recently made a account so I don't have the permission to PM rightnow. 
I am 18M from India(From mountain regions in the northern India)
I like playing videogames. Infact, I have been playing videogames since lkg/ukg and when I was in 2nd and 3rd grade I used to sometimes even wake up at 8am and play till 10pm or 11pm because no one in my house really looked after me (They still don't
)
I like automobiles(cars and bikes) and fishing but never had a chance (I don't have a driving license rightnow nor I have the luxury of fishing), I also like listening to music, coffee making, cooking, loving animals and gardening.
Academically, I don't really have any special interest in any subjects even though I have scored good marks till 10th grade(89% in 10th). Recently my marks have gone down because of my mental problems(attention deficiency, chronic depression and anxiety) So I am currently searching for my passion and meaning for my life
In terms of physical activities, I only like doing swimming, cycling, gym and maybe some casual basketball. My feet are as flat as a duck (flat feet) and I have hypermobility (My finger can bend 180 degree and some joints are little bit weak), so I am unable to anything which involves running or catching something.
I hope I find some money of my own in life and also someone to ctb with otherwise in some years imma end it myself after getting the resources(multiple attempts since 15 years of age and no relief from medications even after 3 years of treatment and changing several psychiatrists)
I dream almost everyday about perfectly arranging my CO plan, having the last big feast of my life and alcohol and then going to sleep forever while listening to music on my audiophile headphones.




I am 18M from India(From mountain regions in the northern India)
I like playing videogames. Infact, I have been playing videogames since lkg/ukg and when I was in 2nd and 3rd grade I used to sometimes even wake up at 8am and play till 10pm or 11pm because no one in my house really looked after me (They still don't

I like automobiles(cars and bikes) and fishing but never had a chance (I don't have a driving license rightnow nor I have the luxury of fishing), I also like listening to music, coffee making, cooking, loving animals and gardening.
Academically, I don't really have any special interest in any subjects even though I have scored good marks till 10th grade(89% in 10th). Recently my marks have gone down because of my mental problems(attention deficiency, chronic depression and anxiety) So I am currently searching for my passion and meaning for my life
In terms of physical activities, I only like doing swimming, cycling, gym and maybe some casual basketball. My feet are as flat as a duck (flat feet) and I have hypermobility (My finger can bend 180 degree and some joints are little bit weak), so I am unable to anything which involves running or catching something.
I hope I find some money of my own in life and also someone to ctb with otherwise in some years imma end it myself after getting the resources(multiple attempts since 15 years of age and no relief from medications even after 3 years of treatment and changing several psychiatrists)
I dream almost everyday about perfectly arranging my CO plan, having the last big feast of my life and alcohol and then going to sleep forever while listening to music on my audiophile headphones.



