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Influ

Influ

Lonely Forever
Jan 28, 2025
12
Well, I have been lurking on this website since many months but I recently made a account so I don't have the permission to PM rightnow. 🐺


I am 18M from India(From mountain regions in the northern India)

I like playing videogames. Infact, I have been playing videogames since lkg/ukg and when I was in 2nd and 3rd grade I used to sometimes even wake up at 8am and play till 10pm or 11pm because no one in my house really looked after me (They still don't 🫠)

I like automobiles(cars and bikes) and fishing but never had a chance (I don't have a driving license rightnow nor I have the luxury of fishing), I also like listening to music, coffee making, cooking, loving animals and gardening.

Academically, I don't really have any special interest in any subjects even though I have scored good marks till 10th grade(89% in 10th). Recently my marks have gone down because of my mental problems(attention deficiency, chronic depression and anxiety) So I am currently searching for my passion and meaning for my life

In terms of physical activities, I only like doing swimming, cycling, gym and maybe some casual basketball. My feet are as flat as a duck (flat feet) and I have hypermobility (My finger can bend 180 degree and some joints are little bit weak), so I am unable to anything which involves running or catching something.

I hope I find some money of my own in life and also someone to ctb with otherwise in some years imma end it myself after getting the resources(multiple attempts since 15 years of age and no relief from medications even after 3 years of treatment and changing several psychiatrists)

I dream almost everyday about perfectly arranging my CO plan, having the last big feast of my life and alcohol and then going to sleep forever while listening to music on my audiophile headphones. 😌😸😺😌
 
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lixiane

Member
Jul 12, 2024
13
hi, i'm lixiane (or lix), 18F

i live in canada and i like reading, listening to music, playing any instrument i can get my hands on, and photography/videography

dm me, i love meeting new people and making friends,, very social and all
 
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sobsob

sobsob

Member
Aug 29, 2024
28
hi, i am 19f and from the united states.
i'm looking for someone i can chat with and share grievances about this sort of thing lol. im not terribly social and i dont really know how to meet people. i am autistic.
if anyones interested in talking about plans, venting, and just generally being there for one another through this stuff, i would love to get a dm. :)
 
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slamjoetry

slamjoetry

Nobody likes you when you're 23
Apr 19, 2024
88
Hi! My name's Joe and I'm a 23 year-old dude. I love movies, basketball (though I'm not very good at playing), video games (not good at this either lol), nature walks and hikes, rock music, and karaoke (damn I'm actually not good at any of these things lol). I have bipolar, schizophrenia, autism, and I'm currently passively suicidal, with occasional periods of intent. It's great how all of these things tend to come in groups. Anyway, shoot me a message if you wanna talk! 💪 :sunglasses:
 
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missedmybus

missedmybus

That's all very well, but I have a bus to catch.
Feb 2, 2025
77
Hi,

I am Y from Belgium. 34M.

I have been wanting to exit life the last 20 years or so. I am only waiting for my mother and grandfather to pass.

I like writing, playing guitar, going to concerts and reading.

I volunteer as a light/stage tech for local venues. I also spend a lot of time hanging out with homeless people.

I also like some videogames (mostly co-op type stuff).

If anybody wants to play a game with me I have PS4 and steam.

If anyone wants to create music/writings with me, I am up for that as well.

I thought it would be easy running out the clock on my family, but it is getting more and more difficult year by year to put up a happy face.

Some interactions with kindred spirits would be nice. It might give some relief.
 
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cyclicism

Member
Jan 6, 2025
40
Hii, I'm 19 from Canada, you can call me Cy.

I like art (traditional, digital, sculpting, any form of it), birds (I have pet birds :) ), and most things involving nature/the outdoors.

I'm pretty gender confused, so if you want to bond over not knowing what the hell you are I'm game.

If anyone wants to complain about getting a degree hmu, I am boundless when it comes to complaining abt school (bonus points if it's engineering).

All in all, it would be nice to talk to someone who doesn't demonize ctb so I could be more transparent about my general thoughts and feelings.

I may not be the fastest to reply but feel free to dm!!
 
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Alpenglow

Alpenglow

Never really there
Mar 5, 2024
83
Hi I'm 20M from France,

I'm basically a flower that's slowly wilting, but bad metaphors aside, I'm a bit lost with my life. I play video games, decent at league, and try to figure out my schedule. I'm not too suicidal just a bit down in the dumps so I won't leave you ^^'

If you want a bit more detail, I'm a femboy who's trying to be more feminine with some success, I'd say it's a pretty important part of my life. I'm still trying to navigate education, finance, happiness and identity. I'm not sure about my gender, defaulting to male since I don't care but know I want to look feminine, so maybe I'm NB. Otherwise I spend my time trying to win small battles and get somewhere with my life, it's a losing battle but I'm still trying atm.

I also sing and cook, pretty mediocre at both. Try dancing very rarely, play some vrchat. Occasionally read. And I use to be curious but now I've just settled into some general or basic knowledge in psychology, philosophy, geopolitics and science. Also I'm not too bad at programming. Obv. I'm a femboy, ofc I'm in CS.

I'm not really sure who I'm looking for, just try not to be creepy and weird. And I'm not saying that in an autistic way, more in a pervy way. Being talked to just because you look like a femboy is weird (I mean if you want to talk about the process thats okay, but just for my looks is really creepy).
 
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fishlover

fishlover

in the end, nothing matters
Sep 17, 2023
167
im 20 (21 soon!), female, from nyc. i like fish, obviously lol- in an admiration sort of way. fish are pretty and interesting.
im also a huge fan of cats, horror media, music, visual novels, drawing, and recently ive gotten into military/ww2 related media. im currently co developing/designing games. if any of that interests you then id like to be friends, pm me 😊
 
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quietism

quietism

We make our own wind
Feb 3, 2025
61
Hello, 26 F from Australia. I would really like a friend that I can talk to and listen to about daily struggles and do fun things with - I've played a wide variety of video games and I'd like to do that together. (I like the video game fantasy that I can just point a healing beam at someone to make them feel better.) I would also like to read together - I've enjoyed that a lot in the past - and watch movies/anime. I'm queer and I like to talk about politics/philosophy/science and do linux things too. Any of the above - anything to ease loneliness, really. I don't mind trying something new either, I really like learning together with someone else, for example a few months ago I tried making music with software synths for the first time, and I like to make digital fractal art sometimes.

Not planning to ctb for now, I don't mind if you are, I wouldn't want to pressure either way. Please DM me if you'd like to be friends!
 
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violet.flowers

Member
Feb 3, 2025
6
Hello
This is my first ever post here. I think because I am new there are some things that I cannot do on this site yet like messaging. I am pretty nervous about being here because I'm afraid that family or someone may find out that I have been using this site and be concerned.
I am here because I would like to talk with someone who struggles with similar thoughts that I have sometimes. I feel that in my daily life there is no one I feel comfortable talking to. Online it may be less scary to talk!
Because I am new I am not sure how you could contact me but I will do my best!
I am a 18 year old girl and I really enjoy nature and I would like to get into art! I would like my friend to preferably be somewhat close to my age if possible.
I am struggling a lot with depression and bad thoughts about going recently due to some recent events in my life. Looking for any nice friends who I can talk to openly about anything! Please reach out to me if possible if you would like to chat!
 
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tiredash

Member
Dec 5, 2024
93
Hello
This is my first ever post here. I think because I am new there are some things that I cannot do on this site yet like messaging. I am pretty nervous about being here because I'm afraid that family or someone may find out that I have been using this site and be concerned.
I am here because I would like to talk with someone who struggles with similar thoughts that I have sometimes. I feel that in my daily life there is no one I feel comfortable talking to. Online it may be less scary to talk!
Because I am new I am not sure how you could contact me but I will do my best!
I am a 18 year old girl and I really enjoy nature and I would like to get into art! I would like my friend to preferably be somewhat close to my age if possible.
I am struggling a lot with depression and bad thoughts about going recently due to some recent events in my life. Looking for any nice friends who I can talk to openly about anything! Please reach out to me if possible if you would like to chat!
at the very least you should have more messages to get to send or receive pm.
 
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tiredash

Member
Dec 5, 2024
93

you might need to check the private messages settings. i dont remember how they start, but they might start as "nobody". this forum starts with privacy restricted and i think people dont know to check it.

1738706570067
 
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violet.flowers

Member
Feb 3, 2025
6
Thank you for all of your help! I appreciate it so much :)
I am not sure how to find the settings for private messages, I think it may be because I am still new and have not sent many messages yet.
I hope you have a good day!
 
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tiredash

Member
Dec 5, 2024
93
Thank you for all of your help! I appreciate it so much :)
I am not sure how to find the settings for private messages, I think it may be because I am still new and have not sent many messages yet.
I hope you have a good day!
I think you are using the mobile browser:
- Click on the 3 lines, top left
- Click on settings at the end
- Click on "your account" at the center the center and a side panel opens
- Click on privacy and below you will see the menus i showed you before. Mostly change "start conversations with you" to "members"
- Save

I must say that I dont remember how it starts, so maybe its already set to "members" and you just need more posts and this message is useless.
 
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dexdbxtchthewxtch

dexdbxtchthewxtch

flirting with death 🖤
Dec 31, 2024
66
30 NB US

MDD, GAD

Kind of a "death positive nerd" (future mortician) 🖤 I'm an agnostic witch, a digital artist, I love reading, playing video games (Xbox), spending time with my kiddos, character creation, and really anything gothic/spooky. Riding the waves of grief currently so apologies if my responses ever are slow, but I am looking for like minded friends. No active plans to CTB and heading into recovery. DM me unmet friends 🖤
 
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violet.flowers

Member
Feb 3, 2025
6
I think you are using the mobile browser:
- Click on the 3 lines, top left
- Click on settings at the end
- Click on "your account" at the center the center and a side panel opens
- Click on privacy and below you will see the menus i showed you before. Mostly change "start conversations with you" to "members"
- Save

I must say that I dont remember how it starts, so maybe its already set to "members" and you just need more posts and this message is useless.
Just checked it and it's set to members only, I made sure everything else was set on that too now. Thank you so much!
 
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ineed2die

Member
Feb 15, 2024
77
I'm 25 from the United States. I enjoy cats, tea, fermented foods and fermentation, skin-care, weird diets (im not on any they just interest me), alcohol and clubbing.

The only game I am good at is competitive pokemon (vgc and smogon)
 
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ikigaimg

ikigaimg

Member
Oct 30, 2023
20
My name is Paulina, I'm almost 22, and I'm from Poland. As for my hobbies, I read a lot of books and soon, I want to start playing tennis and attending fitness classes near me. I'm planning to start running again when it gets a bit warmer outside, I resell items on eBay and Etsy as my job, but due to depression I worked barely at all.
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Severe Medical Phobia « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
446
I'm SoulWhisperer, I identify as MtF, HS student (Failed first year, the point where my life started going south, Year 4/5 atm) economics major from Italy whose life was death-marked preemptively by abuse. I like programming discord bots, playing singleplayer games and anything creative. I struggle a lot mentally and sometimes have issues with my own identity. I'm not that bad and I try to be approachable whenever I can. I lack information about a lot of things in life. I love music.

I'm looking for someone who's struggling like me willing to be my friend to emotionally support each other. The closer you are to my situation the better we could connect I believe (To name one, I don't resonate with people very older than me purely because our lifestyles are completely different, although I love talking to people older and wiser than me, I respect older people a lot, so long they're not toxic). I don't have requirements, if things click they just do.

I have a severe iatrophobia and fear of injuries + hypocondria. I likely have BPD but never managed to get diagnosis for anything. I'm not set on CTBing although I lost interest in life and lately I've been feeling more suicidal seeing death as a way to escape further physical pain. Whether you want to CTB or not doesn't matter, I just wish to not be imposed things.

Basically lost interest in anything, I'm afraid of people because I always end up hurt. Irl I have no one that's why I rely so much on online relationships and connections. I suffer and no one cares about me irl. I have no friends and my family hurts me. I never had a partner neither.

If you want more information about me I made a ton of posts on this site which describe my situation, life and the way I deal with it quite clearly. If you wanna reach out to me send me a message, possibly with an introduction of you and your expectations if any.
 
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6lackstar

6lackstar

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗
Nov 20, 2024
34
Hi, I'm Sky (20F, UK). I play guitar and enjoy movies, anime, reading and gaming (when I can motivate myself to get up). I mostly play Stardew Valley, Clash of Clans, codm and recently started playing Minecraft! I'm open to play other games as long as they can run on a basic laptop or iPad.

I have a couple irl friends, but I struggle to be fully open with them and find myself still feeling lonely around them. I'd love to connect with someone to chat about anything.
Preferably looking for someone around my age who isn't actively planning to ctb maybe just passively thinks about it a lot like me.

Please don't hesitate to drop me a message if you're interested, I don't have notifications for this site so I might take a bit to reply, please be patient with me!
 
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intintint

intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
21
Hiii :) , 23F in Western Europe. I'm still a student, pursuing a master's.
I love anime, music, musicals, cinema, do a bunch of random things for absolutely no reason. I do not judge. I'm pretty cool and chill (trust me bro). I have crippling anxiety. I can't stand void discussions, at all, pls dont say hello wyd.

Idk how that happened but irl, I'm the therapist of most of my friends, it's my fault I suppose, but I cannot stand that dynamic anymore, I don't want to save anyone, I can barely get through the day. I just want a friend that I can be unfiltered with, without any social rules. Does any of this make sense :D?
 
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Nervous young man

Nervous young man

WARNING: Books may cause unseemly outbursts
Feb 3, 2025
76
Biting the bullet because the isolation is all consuming.

20 NB AMAB
USA Midwest ( send help )
Plethora of mental illness but the big one is selective mutism.
I like skating, painting, writing, making music, fashion, old video games ( imsims, rpgs ), tabletop, and any kind of nerd stuff really. I love reading about philosophy and political topics, it helps me make sense of the world I live in. I listen to black metal religiously. I have a hard time with social situations because I'm also very autistic and schizoid + BPD. Pro drug use and a frequent cutter. I'm likely to ctb soon so if that is something you worry about I wouldn't want to bother you. My religious beliefs are very complicated and always changing as I figure more out.

Shoot me a PM sometime I really want to make friends.
 
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whyidon'tknow

Human
Jun 9, 2019
389
Hiii :) , 23F in Western Europe. I'm still a student, pursuing a master's.
I love anime, music, musicals, cinema, do a bunch of random things for absolutely no reason. I do not judge. I'm pretty cool and chill (trust me bro). I have crippling anxiety. I can't stand void discussions, at all, pls dont say hello wyd.

Idk how that happened but irl, I'm the therapist of most of my friends, it's my fault I suppose, but I cannot stand that dynamic anymore, I don't want to save anyone, I can barely get through the day. I just want a friend that I can be unfiltered with, without any social rules. Does any of this make sense :D?
Can't send you a PM but your post resonated with me. You can check out my post in this thread and send me a pm if you want
 
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intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
21
Can't send you a PM but your post resonated with me. You can check out my post in this thread and send me a pm if you want
Heyo, I'd love to converse! But I can't seem to send you a message either (or to anyone really). I checked and everything is to "members" in the privacy setting. Could it some sort of limit because i'm too "new"?
 
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whyidon'tknow

Human
Jun 9, 2019
389
Heyo, I'd love to converse! But I can't seem to send you a message either (or to anyone really). I checked and everything is to "members" in the privacy setting. Could it some sort of limit because i'm too "new"?
Yeah I think you have to post/comment more first.
 
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intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
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littleearthquakes

Member
Apr 10, 2024
35
I've posted here in the past. I'm in my late 30s, queer and genderqueer. Severely disabled with chronic pain and illness. Just started using a wheelchair. My life is horrific and it's really hard to find anyone who understands or will hold space for what I'm going through. It would mean a lot to have someone to talk to right now. I'm struggling and feel very alone. PMs and chat open. Some interests include writing, cozy gaming, TV, music. Prefer folks around a good amount and aren't too far off from US timezones. No immediate CTB plans but want to be able to talk about it.
 
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derekWest

Member
Feb 1, 2025
40
hello everyone,

i'm from france, 30m, autistic with asperger's syndrome.

i was for 2 years as developper. now i'm in sick leave... i don't know if i will come back into my job (maybe i will be fire?).

I like read books and watch videos about science, sociology, economic, news, politics.

i like swimming, walking aside the sea, cycling...

feel free to contact me !
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
100
FoxSauce here

Female 20, live in a small island Puerto Rico
A bit about me:

Has MDD , GAD , BPD

Im mostly a chill person, I can totally be shy but I want to try to get to know other people and

love anything horror related, mostly based on true stories mostly

Passionate about art, also anime art as well, videogmaes like old ones like outlast Fnaf (big fan) other videogames even I'm DS or Wii (ik old lmao)


I have a interest in cooking and baking

I like to talk about any but nothing politics related

Also if you need someone to talk about your woes feel free to PM me!

Sorry of this bio doesn't seem that exciting
 
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