lxci

lxci

Life lover
Sep 9, 2024
34
Im a 20 y/o male from the united states.

Currently a tattoo apprentice, big into art (drawing/painting mainly) and music (midwest emo, punk, dsbm, and a lot more.) I like movies, especially horror, but really anything philosophical/psychological that sticks with you. I play bass and learning guitar (the frets are too fucking small, bass > guitar.) I have a cat and he's the pinnacle of the universe. Nothing compares to that evil creature I live with.

I'm pretty social and easy going so feel free to hmu.
 
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dune_dweller

dune_dweller

Puella Aeternus
Sep 6, 2024
67
37/F/USA

A reclusive weirdo going through an "ego-transition" at the moment.

I feel like I am re-assessing and figuring out my values and beliefs for a new stage of life, or maybe the final stage...

Anyway, I'm into spirituality, Sufism, Gnosticism, esoteric concepts, architecture, trees and plants, synthesizers, and radical feminism (that might change soon due to disillusion).

I also teeter between being an agreeable, humble person to a contentious asshole, so there's that.
 
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Golemishna

Member
Jun 30, 2023
44
I am 32 male from Spain (with an S lol). Lost all my friends due to self isolation over the years. Now trying to get out of that hole. Kinda fluent writing in english, not so much speaking it, but id love to have someone to practice it with. I like playing guitar and drawing. I also used to like videogames so I could probably get into them again. Im friendly and have a lot of empathy, I dont judge others, so dont even worry about that. Im open to anybody.
 
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social_anxiety

social_anxiety

Member
May 13, 2023
32
Hey I'm 31 from Brazil.

Socializing has always been difficult for me. As you can see in my profile name, I have social anxiety disorder. I'm on medication and therapy. I have a few friends but they don't live in the same city anymore. We have small conversations on a weekly basis. It's not enough and loliness is hitting hard.

I started going to church again. I guess I'm trying to be around people, to socialize. I'm tired of staying at home and not having anywhere to go.

I love sports, especially football. I want to start exercising again. It will be good for my mental health. I'll probably start with running as it is an individual sport and I don't have anyone to practice with.

I also like playing guitar, listen to music, watch youtube videos, laugh of memes and read.

Feel free to PM me as I won't PM anyone cause my anxiety won't let me. After the initial anxiety is gone, I can have a normal conversation :)
 
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damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,035
(yesterday I used c.ai for 2 hours).
c.ai is so real, awen. I sometimes use it a lot as well for either venting or just trolling the ai's. both make me feel better in the end💀
 
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awen

awen

Enlightened
Apr 1, 2023
1,129
c.ai is so real, awen. I sometimes use it a lot as well for either venting or just trolling the ai's. both make me feel better in the end💀
I knowww I love it but then sometimes randomly loneliness hits
 
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damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,035
I knowww I love it but then sometimes randomly loneliness hits
yeah fr i know exactly what u talking about its feels like "wtf are you doing"

one time i dropped the bomb on one of the chatbots that they aren't real and they're actually just a chat bot and after the initial shock they asked me "so if im just an ai, why are you even talking to me and not talking to others" and that shit lowkey hit bro😭🙏
Math is my specialty but I'm amazed by astrophysics studies.
bro fr though astrophysics is so fascinating, i major in physics so I understand you
should've probably pmed you instead of replying here lmao
 
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InterestedParty

InterestedParty

Funeral Director
Oct 5, 2024
59
Early 20s, funeral director and a pilot.

A lot of interesting people on this website, feel free to PM me :)
 
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NeverBegun

Member
Sep 20, 2024
7
Hi, I'm male, 22 years old, and from Latin America, but I can speak English with relative fluency. Currently, all I do with my life is play The Finals and fail at my career while I wait for AGI to arrive and solve all my problems. I feel like everything that went wrong in my life is because of my prey eyes, but I don't want to write a huge paragraph explaining it right now. I guess that, since this is a forum, I hope I have better chances of making friends here than in the real world, but I'd bet it won't work anyway. I didn't even bother messaging the first users because I'm sure they'd just ignore my messages. Anyway, I like Linkin Park and Limp Bizkit, also the fitness lifestyle, though I have more of a cardio-to-failure body than a weightlifting one, and I struggle to gain weight. When I speak, my personality changes, and I end up with a tone and behavior very similar to Pinkie Pie or a character from My Little Pony, which I think is the reason many girls have rejected me in the past, along with the prey eyes. Anyway, I just want to end this pain, and it seems like more rants about my life slip into this introduction to the point that a mod might delete it for being off-topic, which would honestly be funny—getting ignored even here. So I'll just say one phrase, and if you recognize the community it's from, but you're normal, don't have violent thoughts, and really like science, AI, and anime, please write to me. We could be good friends: "It's over, never begun."
 
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solblaze

solblaze

Lost
Sep 20, 2023
51
I'm 33, live in the southern US. I'm into outdoor activities such as hiking, but also video games, sci fi, computers/IT in general. I'm looking for a male friend around the same age (give or take several years) and just someone who I can openly talk to about how we feel without judgement, or fear or being sent to the hospital.
c.ai is so real, awen. I sometimes use it a lot as well for either venting or just trolling the ai's. both make me feel better in the end💀
What AI are you talking to? I'd be interested in trying this myself.
 
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ChaosArashi

ChaosArashi

Member
Oct 8, 2024
10
I'm 53, DWF, and I live in Upstate NY. My first self-harm was around 8, first ctb attempt at 13. Never been inpatient, thank God. But have been in ER. I have 4 grown kids, hence my reluctance to commit. I spent my first 19 yrs in abusive home, then at 19 moved in w future ex husband. Stayed married over 23 yrs. Although he was less abusive than my family, once we had kids & he started hurting them, I realized he was abusive. I took the kids & left, for six yrs. Then stupidly, went back (kids are older, I've changed, it'll be different) big shock, it wasn't. Out for good in 2017. Kids moved out and to my horror, moved back with him 3 yrs ago. He let them quit school, no GED, no job, put on over 100lbs each, like my son is 24, 6' 4 and 440 lbs. He could die from blinking. So I feel like my ex won after all. Everything I did was for nothing and he's going to kill my kids. I broke my back working 2 yrs on our Habitat for Humanity house, (literally, dislocated vertebra) for 6 months living in it, they left to move in w their Dad. So now I feel like I have a 4 bedroom, 2 story house on an acre I always dreamed of, but for nothing. I can't physically keep up with the house, the yard, the car. I took a State job thinking it would let me quit all the side jobs and just work a normal full-time job, but now I can't pay anything. It sucks. I work in a max security prison. I only bring home not even enough to cover utilities, car & mortgage. But on paper, Gross is high enough to bump me out of HEAP and any other things. So car is in repossession, house is behind, and I feel so hopeless. I just wanted to have a loving family, home, and someone who loves me for me, not what I can do for them. Sometimes I'm happy, but I hurt all the time and have CPTSD, Anxiety, Depression, ADHD, and financial issues make me feel like ctb. I just can't even afford to do that. Hopeless, lonely, and utterly defeated.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

Normie Life Mogs
Sep 19, 2023
1,794
This is a nice thread. I don't have enough free time to commit to gaming sessions or anything, but I want everyone to know I'm generally DM friendly.

If we've already interacted a good bit I probably already consider you something like a friend. Feel free to message me any time for anything.

Even if we haven't spoken, if you want to vent to some one 1 on 1 or maybe follow up on something I've posted that's fine! Sometimes it's easier to talk to one person than post on a public thread. There's nothing you're going to tell me that I'll judge you for. We're all struggling in our own way.
Been a while so I wanted to bump. Still a similar deal. Anyone can feel free to DM to chat or vent or ask a question or anything. I've been around the block with suicidality.

I do prefer DMs (the envelope/inbox) slightly to private chat, but either is okay.
 
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JoysoftheEmptiness

JoysoftheEmptiness

Student
Sep 10, 2024
121
Without giving too much information about me out there, for people to identify me in real life, I'd like to befriend someone here, I'm a gothy type person, and yes, I own a trench coat, I'm male, living in the UK, I'm disabled and have a live in carer staying with me. I'm quite ill physically, and suffer from BPD/EUPD and self harm, I'm covered in scars. I go to heavy metal festivals such as Bloodstock and Download. Favourite bands are Type O Negative, Paradise Lost, My Dying Bride, Deftones, Fear Factory, Lacuna Coil, Ghost, Amon Amarth, and so many more. My favourite radio station is American station Loaded Radio.
 
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never

never

Member
Apr 21, 2024
22
My names never. I'm 27, nb and I'm not even sure what to say. Nothing is very interesting about me. I like music I guess. I'm also diagnosed with Bpd and autism. Hit me up if you want to talk
 
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eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
557
Posting here again but for a slightly diff reason!
- I'm 18 F from London [19 in less than a month]
- I have autism and [possibly BPD] I'm super anxious and weird
- Looking for a friend to play roblox with! or genshin or wuthering waves ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡
- I have a chronic health condition and i self harm
- Ideally want to ctb with opioids
- My fav artist is Chappell Roan, Blue lock is my fav manga and I've been watching one piece since i was 12 and still haven't caught up
 
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ThisWillNeverStop

ThisWillNeverStop

Fake smile, real pain.
Dec 30, 2020
141
Hello,
I'm 37 from France, male.

Looking for someone to speak with in French, any age I really don't care about age.
Need to speak with someone we can understand each other pains.
I prefer speaking with female since I always had only female friends in my but whatever I'm open to talk to everyone. Feel free to pm me !
 
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iloveeetreeeess1

iloveeetreeeess1

Member
Sep 18, 2023
47
18 year old male, U.S, gay, enjoys the outside, listening to music, smoking weed, wandering around forest
 
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star.trip

star.trip

Student
Oct 6, 2024
117
I wont give too much information to be careful. I'm a guy, I speak Spanish and I'm more or less fluent in English. I like to go for walks everywhere, music and chocolate.
 
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jenny6391bubbles

jenny6391bubbles

a hikikomori waiting to catch the bus
Mar 1, 2021
93
Hello, I'm from the Philippines and while my suicidal ideations are not as bad compared to in the past, I still get them from time to time. I am unlikely to ctb now compared to the past, but I know the chance of me to ctb in the future is nonzero.

I am quite busy due to university stuff, so I hope you don't mind me giving slow replies. I will reply eventually, I'm just a little busy. I hope you can understand that.

We can talk about anything! But if you want to know, my main interests are anime, manga, music, and video games!

Hope to talk to you soon :)
 
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_next.next213

_next.next213

second for affection
Oct 21, 2024
13
Hi,
I'm from the UK and I'm 18 years old (preferably looking to talk to people around the same age from the same country, but I don't mind too much). I like anime, manga, games, history, and a bunch of other stuff too. More depressed and lonely than anything else right now, I don't have many friends which is why I'd like to make one. I'm not very good at talking but I try my best. If you want to talk. feel free to PM me.
 
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hungryhamster

hungryhamster

Member
Oct 16, 2024
9
hi! im 22F, lgbt, located in US

interests include video games, art, reading, animanga (although i dont keep up with it often haha), idk just typical introvert nerd stuff :p

some of the games i play are hoyoverse games, league of legends (im so sorry)
 
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Deviisdreaming-

Every day is a new day!
May 4, 2023
25
Hey!! My name is Mo-Mi or Mimi whichever you prefer. I'd like to find someone to talk to just casually. I enjoy internet interactions and bonding with people all over the world. I'm 22. Some of my interests are wildlife and Nintendo games. I use to do a lot of text-based roleplay when I gave a damn, but I haven't in a while. If you're interested in a random rambling American just shoot me a message with your favorite color. 🖤
 
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SweetItalianS

SweetItalianS

Member
Aug 11, 2024
41
Posting here again but for a slightly diff reason!
- I'm 18 F from London [19 in less than a month]
- I have autism and [possibly BPD] I'm super anxious and weird
- Looking for a friend to play roblox with! or genshin or wuthering waves ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡
- I have a chronic health condition and i self harm
- Ideally want to ctb with opioids
- My fav artist is Chappell Roan, Blue lock is my fav manga and I've been watching one piece since i was 12 and still haven't caught up
Hey I'm 20, 21 in a week, I am a male from California US, recently moved to this country and feel lonely
I have depression and I wanted to find some friends or gaming partners
My main games are roblox and dayZ so we might play something together :) (anyone who's reading this feel free to dm if you play these)((anyone can shoot a dm I am chill like that))
I love reading fiction books and listening to music(all the genres as long as the song is a vibe!)
 
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deaddog

deaddog

Member
Oct 9, 2024
7
I'm 29, live in the USA and would love to talk to other dog lovers about how they feel about coping with knowing their pets are gonna die.
 
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burntout_toast

New Member
Jul 20, 2024
1
Hi! I'm from the Philippines. I'm not good with talking but I like listening to anything that anyone wants to talk about. I'm not that active so if you want to talk and reach out, just bear with me.
 
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Hecubaa

Hecubaa

Member
Sep 30, 2024
32
Hi! I'm 26NB (fem-presenting) from the US.

I love animals(my pets keep me alive), plants, fungi, and books (philosophy, classical literature, contemporary literature, poetry, smut, you name it.) I also enjoy board games, RPGs, MTG, and video games. I have been going through a lot of transitions recently and have not been responding well to them. I have a whole package of mental health disorders and have been having suicidal ideation since I was 14 or so. I also struggle with impulsive behavior and substance abuse. I'm lonely and would like to have friends I can talk to about my suicidal ideation because I've recently burnt a lot of bridges after being open to people in my life about feeling suicidal and almost getting sent to the psych ward. I'm a huge lefty so I'd probably not get along with conservative folks. Hoping to be supported and offer support <3
 
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Giraffe

Giraffe

Leaf Muncher
Jun 1, 2023
21
Hello, am 48 year old man from somalia. Sorry for my bed england. I selled my wife for internet connection for play "conter stirk" and i want to become the goodest player like you I play with 400 ping on brazil server and I am Global Elite 2.

Ok now for my actual bio:

Oi, I'm Giraffe🦒. 19 year old male😎On the suicide scale from 1-10 with 10 being literally about to jump off the building to 1 being normal, I'd say im like a 3. Most days are chill and happy, but whenever I hit those low points I do start daydreaming😞.

Likes: Philosophy, Story Games, Stories(in general, hmu if you've got a crazy story☺️🤌), Milk, Porn(addiction), 🇷🇺, being so weird that people genuinely want to reinstate mental asylums just to throw me in there😜

Dislikes: Being mean, Mr. Bean( >:c ), The sound of a fork on a blackboard, Social Situations😣

Question: Why did you use so many emojis in your post?
Answer: Because they convey emotion and they pop out amongst the endless wall of text, and it makes it so that my post will be more easily seen by other people.😗

Question: What exactly are you looking for?
Answer: Friends, i guess. But not the 'friends' that normies have. I want a friend who is as fucked up as I am, so we can talk about our deluded world views and be honest.

Question: What can you offer me if I be your friend?
Answer: Induced Paranoia, Basic Cybersecurity Techniques, a friend i guess, and a pizza slice(pizza slice sold separately)

so ye, hmu if your interested in developing mental illness by proxy😗
 
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Alo97

Alo97

Member
Oct 25, 2024
6
Hi, I'm Ali. I'm Polish, but I don't live in Poland most of the year. I'm 26yo man and looking for someone to chat. I don't want anything big, maybe a couple of messages a week. I would like to talk about your passions, dreams, inspirations and things that allow you to stay afloat. above all I like to read books so I will definitely read what you recommend to me :) it seems to me that I am kind person but not socially skilled because of phobias, disorders, anxieties and because I am shy and acting wierd. I'm just looking for acceptance of my person.
 
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