MourningDove

MourningDove

Member
Oct 19, 2023
45
i dont do these things often lol. im an 18 yo m from the us.

i make music, play xbox, and really just try to chill when i can but as we all know it gets hard these days.

i have a social battery but i love talking to people, i am very blunt and open when i get to know somebody but in the immortal words of Agent 47, "i am the very soul of discretion." i am kind of hard to read and talk to at first but i promise im not mean. im just not used to talking to people i dont know. it doesnt mean i dont enjoy it but its awkward sometimes.

i am the friend group therapist, so im good at that i guess. idk i just want a friend, i dont get to talk to a lot of people because i am in a very complicated situation. ill unlock my pm thing soon hopefully so ill respond when i unlock it. im really glad to have a community of seemingly likeminded people :)
In the same boat as you, feel free to message me :)
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
4,318
I'm 19M and, other than that, I won't bother trying to sell myself because there isn't much to sell in the first place. I'm just here to say that, if anybody wants to be friends with me for whatever reason, feel free to send me a dm. I won't sugarcoat it and I won't act like I am more interesting than I present myself to be. That's all
 
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ixkitty

ixkitty

Let me be Selfish, just this once.
Aug 15, 2020
358
Hello! I am Lily. I won't be around too much longer, but I would love to meet someone to talk to until the time comes.

Some labels that have stuck: pansexual, polyamorous, switch, female, American, BPD, OCD, ADD

I play a lot of magic the gathering. No, I do not play (insert game name here). Mtg is literally it lol.

I am a BIG fan of horror movies. I enjoy the really out of pocket ones.

Bdsm is basically my entire life. I am very active in this community. Very well educated.

Love cats.

I have a strange obsession with sharks.


If you're under 21 pls don't message me. If your introduction message is creepy, I will immediately "ignore" you.
You got me at BDSM and Cats! I'm a random ball of random myself. 🥰 the community here has died down since covid but I'm still true in my heart !

I just figured I'd let you know that your intro is awesome sauce
 
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doctordetritus

Member
Jan 5, 2024
32
middle aged lady coming at ya.

prefer ages 35 to 122, but not a day older.

used to enjoy traveling, sampling nice restaurants, live comedy, but anhedonia stripped much of that away. still somewhat enjoy watching movies/tv (fargo, midnight mass, futurama), playing video games (dead by daylight mostly), learning about neuroscience and listening and pacing to long form debates about various topics.

i dont have an precise ctb date, but plan on cutting out somewhat soon.

cant imagine this coming up because of my age, but please, only platonic inquiries.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

Specialist
Jul 25, 2024
372
You got me at BDSM and Cats! I'm a random ball of random myself. 🥰 the community here has died down since covid but I'm still true in my heart !

I just figured I'd let you know that your intro is awesome sauce
American Mary passed away recently.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
167
19M from London, UK
I love: horror movies, could watch movies all day (and i do), Playing video games, and just talking about random things.
I plan on CTB sometime in october.
Please Only Platonic :hug:
 
Meowers

Meowers

Member
Sep 13, 2024
23
Hello ❤️!

I'm Meowers and I ABSOLUTELY love cats! They're one of the reasons why I chose to live.

I'm 22, and a Chinese living in the Philippines. I'm a pre-op closeted trans masc, no plans to undergo surgery/hormone therapy. I am an avid supporter of the LGBTQ+ community.

I'm about to go to US for my internship program and I'm extremely nervous. If my life don't get better there, then I'll CTB. I'm posting here because I'm feeling pretty lonely, going on to a foreign country, knowing no one. The mere thought makes my anxiety rise.

I'm pretty-shy and self-destructive. I play video games, journal, annoy & kiss my cat, and have multiple breakdowns while lying on my bed. My English isn't the best but I'm looking to improve. I'd love to meet new people before I potentially CTB.

I want to hear your stories and experiences, your thoughts about the absurdity of life. I find beauty in other people's opinions/thoughts on various subjects.

I hope whoever's reading this have a nice and lovely day!
 
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TiredKitty

TiredKitty

I don't know why I try anymore
Feb 26, 2023
11
I don't know if anything will come from this, but I might as well put myself out there.

Hi, I'm TiredKitty. I'm 26F from the USA.

I want to CTB but I don't have any plans to do so, I kind of keep putting it off. My SI is too strong, so I continue to just… exist.

It might sound silly but I'm squeamish. I'm okay to talk about the emotions / philosophy behind certain feelings and ideas, but I can't handle gore or detailed descriptions of certain things ^^;

For fun I like to watch YouTube, sometimes anime, play video games and D&D. It's been getting more difficult to do things I enjoy recently, but I'm pressing on and doing the best I can to make it through each day. Most recently I've been playing Fields of Mistria on and off.

I tend to get along best with people my age or older, though let's say 21+ is fine. I'm more comfortable with other females, though I'm open to making male friends too.

I'm an Independent, I believe in reality. I don't like politics in general, and detest the political extremes on both sides. If you're someone who believes some people are inherently evil for being born as the race they are, please don't talk to me. I'd also like somewhat normal friends who aren't going to explode the second they learn I have an opinion they disagree with.

If you made it through the end, thank you for reading this at the very least <3
 
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Eole2.0

Till I die
Aug 27, 2024
134
Good evening,
I am Eole from France, I like the old songs of the 60's/70's as well as the rap US/FR of the 90's/2000.
I also like Korean drama and the Korean language. I would like to be in contact with FR or KR but as life teaches us, we do not always have the luxury of choosing, so no matter who would want to correspond with me will be welcome.
I have a PSTD and a BPD.
Need to discuss everything, but especially my desires of non-existence.
Feel free to write me to start the discussion. Preferably via private conversation because I have disabled chat.

Good to you, Eole.
 
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Erring

Member
Jul 7, 2024
35
I'm Erring, 24M, from Spain.

I like reading, both fiction and non-fiction, but mainly History, Anthropology and Fantasy, as well as having a feet or two in Horror, Sci-Fi and Historical narrative. Some of my favourite books are: Narrenturm; The Name of the Wind; No Longer Human; A Feast for Crows. Probably one of the most interesting reads I had in the History field is "A New History of the Early Middle Ages", and for Anthropology, maybe "The Dawn of Everything", but I'm not that well versed in it and are pretty much an amateur. My favourite topics on the subject probably are the nature of power, the volition of the masses and the meaning of empire.

I also enjoy manga and anime. Some of my favourites are: Haruhi Suzumiya; Molester Man; Look Back; Shin-Chan: Mob Psycho; Gunka no Baltzar; Onani Master Kurosawa; Oyasumi PunPun; Gurren Lagan; Vinland Saga...

As for cinema, I already wrote it in another post some minutes ago ;p

I also like videogames. My favourite is Homeworld 1, but for multiplayer I enjoy Helldivers 2 and some Tarkov too.

I'm open to talking with anyone who's interested in having a chat.
 
littleearthquakes

littleearthquakes

Member
Apr 10, 2024
17
Still looking for friends. I'm in my 30s, genderqueer and queer, very chronically ill and disabled. Lots of trauma, mental illness, autistic. Socialist/leftist and that does matter to me. Mostly homebound. I like writing, gaming, TV, music. Deep conversations.

Not imminently planning to CTB but would like to talk to people who get it and won't judge. For me it's due to chronic pain and will eventually be necessary/totally unmanageable. It already is but I'm still hanging on for various reasons. Feel free to DM or chat, whatever works on here.
 
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CatLove56

CatLove56

Experienced
Jun 30, 2018
297
I messaged a few people here so maybe I'll get lucky with some friends but if not well hello 28 year old bi male from the us :) lately not much of a life can elaborate if interested but yeah I got time mostly hanging around the house. Back problems, mental problems, so you know their is that, uh lately been really interested in personality types of course anyone is welcome but I've been seeking my fellow INFP males since we're so rare like some deluded pokemon hunter I guess :P anyway nice to meet anyone
 
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sadlyexisting

sadlyexisting

Missing the good times
Jun 26, 2023
100
Hi!! I am 20F from Germany and still looking for friends.

I have been suicidal since the age of 11/12. Currently I am studying medicine (first year) and if I stay alive long enough, I'd like to work in forensics some day.

I don't really have hobbies at the moment, and I just spend my time watching YouTube or any kind of series. I also play video games sometimes, but not regularly anymore. Otherwise I am very interested in horror and paranormal things as well, so it'd be good to have someone I can talk about that with. I also love a good horror movie from time to time.

I can not get any mental health diagnosis at the moment, so I can't really tell what or even if I have any mental illness. But my symptoms do match with BPD, depression and anxiety, which I want to get tested as soon as I am able too.

I'd say I am a pretty good listener, even though I have problems communicating my emotions, I try my best to be there for everyone and comfort them.

Age and gender doesn't matter, so just sent me a message. I respond to basically everyone!
 
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dash_

dash_

Member
Dec 31, 2021
15
HI. I'm Dash. I live in WA, USA. Going camping soon and I can probably travel in the US soon. Probably going to be an extended vacay before ctb, or something. Feel free to dm or reply here.
 
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purplesky9

Member
Sep 21, 2024
63
Hi, I'm from New Zealand and I'm looking for someone to chat to. I have really bad social anxiety and struggle to make friends so I get really lonely. I don't have many hobbies but I do like reading, doodling, watching movies, music, dogs. If you want someone to talk to please PM me.
 
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dealeriscrazy

dealeriscrazy

New Member
Sep 21, 2024
1
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Hi, I'm terra.nuvo. I'm 23M from US looking for a friend. I'm into watching and reading romance, fantasy, and sci-fi related media. I'm looking for someone who I can talk to, listen to, and get to know better and become real friends with. I know it can be hard to form relationships through text but I'd like to give it a try. I'm pretty shy and reserved but I'd like to get out of my shell a bit. If any of this interests you please feel free to PM me!
hi i get you and i also want a friend. we should definately talk about movies.
 
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Laurentj

Laurentj

Is it rumination - or is it lamentation?
Sep 13, 2023
21
Hello all, may peace and the day find you well to whomever chances upon this.
Hi, I'm lauren/lawren. I'm a guy from the Philippines, a wayward soul who wants company to listen and be listened to. I have plenty of spontaneous desires, short term memory loss moments and sloth-riddled fits of trying to ease the pain mentally and physicaly but I generally mean good and try not to impose on anyone if I can.
I can sometimes lose sight of what I need to do and recent memory a lot, so I hope there are people willing to be patient with me as I am willing to be patient with them.
I play plenty of mobile games and have no access to a PC, I read vanilla romcom light novels and manga, brew tea once in a while, aspire to draw well, write better and want to take a step further in hobbies I have not chosen to take even a single glance at.
My only request if you are willing to talk to someone like me and take the time is if you're patient enough to read through lengthy text and make responses that even someone like me can understand, cause I am quite the slow processor, do forgive me in advance.
I love plain/sour/spicy/tab-ang/low-taste profile foods so do forgive me on this too if I'm a bit too boring or too plain when I happenstance give a reply from my side. I live and think like a NEET, thoughbeit.
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
616
Hello,

56m from the US (Northeast). Not really sure what to expect by posting here, as I have no irl friends and can be very difficult to carry on a conversation with. However, I do enjoy deep conversations 1-on-1 or small groups.
I spend most of my time working, as I use it as an escape for the rest of my life. But my job is also one of my hobbies; technology. I also enjoy music (many types by especially punk-pop: Geen Day, Sum41, Blink 182). Used to like to travel (mostly for work), but haven't been anywhere in a few years. I also enjoy working with my hands and building things - from crafts to home improvements.
I enjoy mentoring and helping others. It's one of the few things that I really enjoyed. But my last mentee moved on and has been highly successful, so much so that she can't stay in contact.
 
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AbsurdAbyss

AbsurdAbyss

Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
Mar 4, 2024
113
a final redux, for better or worse.

21m, neet, hiki, determined to ctb at the moment - i struggle with depression, anxiety among other undiagnosed chronic disorders, have no friends online or irl and would like to make one before i go.

some things i'm into that we could talk about :
music - asian punk rock, emo, hiphop, r&b, anything with good guitar, mostly upbeat sometimes curious mix depending on my mood
movies although i don't watch them as much anymore - mainly 90s/10s Hollywood, 00s/10s Asian cinema, among the former i find deep thrillers, psychological, neo noir, dark humor interesting and among the latter drama, comedies
a lot of video games - PC, steam, single player, story rich, RPGs, action adventure, open world, FPS, lately even visual novels, FMVs. i'd say i'm an old school gamer, the achievement hunter, completionist explorer sort
a bit of reading and writing - postmodern philosophy and literature, old conspiracy theories that merit intellectual discourse, unsolved murders and mysteries, paranormal investigations, ETs and close encounters, etc. writing comes when i feel particularly overwhelmed.

i have trouble initiating conversations, communicating my thoughts, emotions sometimes but i'll try my best to keep up. i've been told that i'm a good listener so feel free to speak your mind if you want - no pressure and no judgements. i don't mind late replies as i can be pretty patient, but ghosting makes me uncomfortable. Open to PM's and conversations with anyone interested to talk.
 
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lacrimosa

Experienced
Jul 1, 2024
233
Hey, 39 M from Western Canada.

Into philosophy, music production, ChatGPT, coding apps and websites, travel (I've been to 30 countries), and harm reduction.

Let me know if you want to be friends. I love to chat and am an open book.

Please don't ask me about sources or suicide methods.
 
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mmvielm

mmvielm

Member
Sep 24, 2024
7
Hi! Im 19 F from the US.

I like the legend of zelda, music, youtube, drawing.

some music I like is from Duster, The cure, Have a Nice Life, Lovliescrushing

I have social anxiety and i'm incredibly awkward so it's really hard for me to make friends, but i'd love to talk :-D
 
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CatLove56

CatLove56

Experienced
Jun 30, 2018
297
Hi! Im 19 F from the US.

I like the legend of zelda, music, youtube, drawing.

some music I like is from Duster, The cure, Have a Nice Life, Lovliescrushing

I have social anxiety and i'm incredibly awkward so it's really hard for me to make friends, but i'd love to talk :-D
hi :) you need to edit your profile settings I can't message you haha
 
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CatLove56

Experienced
Jun 30, 2018
297
aaaa sorry! im still new here lol im not sure what i have to edit
Oh geez honestly I would not have any idea I can check but you did something right I can view your profile now haha 😆

Okay if anybody sees this it looks like you have to go into your privacy settings
 
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gnarly

gnarly

Rest in Peace
Sep 24, 2024
57
Hi I'm gnarly.

I'm 20.

I like gaming, space, history, anime.

I'm fairly quiet. But I'm also helpful when u need it. I don't have any other friends so I respond pretty quickly(unless I'm at work) I'd love to meet someone.
 
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asiht

asiht

Member
Oct 17, 2019
23
Hey hey.
I'm 43 years old (I know, practically a senior citizen around these parts), gender neutral (though male presenting).
I'm passionate about music... I think it's the one thing that's kept me going all these years.
I'm also interested in psychology and a bit of late night esoteric armchair philosophy.

Ideally you are at least 25 years old (30+ preferred). If you're a musician or singer, that would be cool too, maybe we could collaborate on something :) (I play percussion and also produce music).

As for the dark stuff, I've been having suicidal ideation on and off since I was about 12 years old. I was fired from my job in December after working at the same hospital for almost 20 years. I was able to survive on some retirement $ and unemployment, but my $ will be running out soon, and I am very scared about what the future holds... and whether I will be "good enough" or "deserving" to get another job.

Also I have 3 kids, and I was emotionally abused by their mom for over 10 years.. So if you have experience of being in an abusive relationship, I'm sure we could relate on that.

If you took the time to read all this, thank you, and I truly hope everything goes well for you.. Even if you don't decide to contact me. :smiling:
 
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scofield

New Member
Apr 20, 2023
4
I'm 23M from mumbai, India looking for a friend here.

I am an anaesthesiology resident and at work most of the time and have to study a lot as well, my hobbies are watching football(soccer for the American audience)im a huge Liverpool fan ,i play videogames sometimes on my steam deck currently started stardew valley , watch a lot of tv shows.

I do plan to ctb in about a years time and don't want to change my mind on that I always have wanted to end it but stuck along with hope and now its been 8 years and I feel its time to call it a day. In the meantime I would like to make a friend here to talk well listen mostly as im not much of a talker.
I'm Martis, I'm 25F. I'm diagnosed with MDD with psychotic features. I'm really just looking to make connections and talk about whatever really, I would be game to discuss serious things or to just chat about day to day stuff.

I watch a lot of YouTube, movies, shows, and play a lot of games. Still trucking away at TOTK. I also have been drawing a lot lately. I don't really have friends irl and would like to make some online connections to talk regularly with.

I can make you a playlist, listen to you vent, draw something for you, exchange movie recs, share life stories, etc.

Shoot me a message :)
Hii would like to be friends with you Ive posted on this thread too you could read about me there.
 
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awen

Enlightened
Apr 1, 2023
1,129
I just need someone to talk to because I feel like I'm going insane (yesterday I used c.ai for 2 hours). I don't like talking much and I just broke someone's heart and need some life advice. Oh, I'm from South Carolina, US.

I love scented candles and making art. Math is my specialty but I'm amazed by astrophysics studies. I think I have bipolar personality disorder or sum. Most of the time I'm the nicest person you can meet but then some days I'm just tired and can be very ignorant and cold.
 
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jjt82

Member
Feb 6, 2024
7
Hey all, I'm Jon 41 (look about 21 though 🙂) male from UK.

Joined the forum as been having bad thoughts due to work and how I'm treated. Hope I don't end up needing to result to cbt, trying my best not to.

I'm fairly quiet and keep myself to myself. Not very good with social events etc. I find I can talk to females a lot better than males, maybe because I missed out on having a social life when younger? And I feel women tend to be better listeners.

In my free time I enjoy films, juggling, music, going walks and rides.

If anyone wants to chat feel free to message me :)
 
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