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calloftheabyss

calloftheabyss

Member
Aug 30, 2023
18
What up fellow nerds, nerdettes, and nerdudes. I'm just another mentally unstable dude losing my mind. I'm 27, from the US, and enjoy long walks on the beach. But my state doesn't have those (yay, landlock!). I used to be an avid gamer and reader, but now I just watch anime and drink too much. I'm still a huge gaming fan, though, and host a few different servers (Right now I have a Satisfactory server and a few Minecraft servers. If anyone is down, I could probably spin up a new MC server for Sasu friends 👀). I don't know what else to say, but you're welcome to ask me anything! My PMs are pretty much always open, though, I'm not on often oops
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
213
20M, originally from Nepal, currently in US, CDT time zone. CS Major. Currently a little interested in osdev, but haven't been able to do much, have made some small 2d games, but don't think I wanna go down that road in future, a linux fanboy, wanna rice my system to the max someday, currently using mint with gnome. Am looking for someone in uni or just studying in general so we can encourage each other to do stuff and study together or smthing like that. Better if u are CS or something STEM, it's alright even if u r not tho.

I'm also trying to lose weight, been overweight my entire life, have been trying to do it for quite a while, but never succeed, hopefully I don't give up midway this time around too. I'm also a little interested in femboyish stuffs, I really wanna give makeup and cosplay a try at least once if I manage to lose some weight this time around. Don't think I'm gonna look as good as I like to think of it in my head, but wanna give it a try once.

I also like reading fantasy webnovels, I don't play games except one called osu!, I'm open to trying others if that's your thing, but my laptop is a little crappy and I use linux so choices aren't much. I like Japanese songs, imperial circus decadence are my fav band, I love wagaki band too, don't like the cringy ones with high pitched voices tho, yoasobi and the oral cigarettes are pretty good too.

In terms of ctb, I don't know... I've kinda lost touch with reality in some sense lately, Even if bad/ disappointing thing happen, the "pain" is just momentary. I remember when these feeling used to last longer, It has made life a lot more bearable, but it's been a little weird.

Anyway, just dm me if u think we can be friends.
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weallhaveourghosts

Student
Mar 2, 2025
121
Hey there, up for friends I guess for a few hours haha. Plan to CTB tomorrow night so won't be around for long but if anyone wants to chat I'm up for it.

Bit about me

I'm 30 years old

Non-binary

Likes include: coffee, reading, poetry, drawing, music, walking, youtube, podcasts

I live in the midwest. If you know the building in the gif in you know where!

Milwaukee Wisconsin Hashtagmke GIF by JMatt
 
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person2

Member
Apr 14, 2025
24
Hi,
I am person2, or you can call me Mack (because that's my name). 33 Male. I live in the USA. I like Dark humor, horror, true crime, music, reading, writing, philosophy and all things esoteric/obscure/disturbing. Contrary to the things I fill my head with I am a very empathetic person that strives to help people and keep a positive attitude in the face of unbearable angst and existential crisis. Hope to make some friends here.
 
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_Maya

_Maya

Maybe tomorrow.
Jan 26, 2025
113
Heyo, I'm maya. 19 MtF.
I like writing, gaming, learning firearm history, music, and tv.
I like a lot of genres, but my top 3 is jazz, vocaloid, and rock. Some of my favorite music artists are Metric, Red vox, and That Handsome Devil.
Some of my favorite shows are yellowjackets, you, and South park.
I'm looking for people i can fuck around with and play games with, but i don't mind just chatting.
I really like tactical shooters, and shooters in general. Helldivers 2, Ready or Not, Payday 2. But i enjoy tons of other games outside shooters.
I have no plans to ctb soon, just a lot of suicidal thoughts.
Not much interesting to say about me, dm me if you want to be friends or just chat.
 
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thereisnoneed

thereisnoneed

Member
Jan 23, 2020
52
Hello, I'm 29M from this planet called Earth. I'm autistic and suffer from a chronic illness (a form of arthritis). In real life, aside from my sister I don't have any other friend. In 2021, I lost my job as a software engineer and since then I haven't met many people. Generally, I enjoy solitude but I also like talking with people who are open and non-judgemental.

I read a lot about random topics because my autism (and maybe some ADHD) makes me curious about almost anything. I try not to restrict myself to specific genres, but sci-fi, fantasy, and philosophy are my favorites. I also enjoy writing (limited to my journal), cooking, and coding.

I try to maintain a balanced outlook (neither optimistic nor pessimistic) towards life, but I naturally lean towards pessimism. While I accept that most people are optimistic about their future, I prefer Thomas Ligotti and other pessimistic philosophers' perspective that "coming into existence is not alright and non-existence is preferable to existence." Rust Cohle from True Detective is one of my favorite characters. Am I depressed? I'm not sure.

Many people have told me that I'm a good listener. Even if you feel that we don't have anything in common but want to talk about almost anything, feel free to message me. I ask a lot of questions during conversations but if you think it's a lot, feel free to ask me to stop.

I've acquired most of the tools necessary for my ctb, but don't have a specific date in mind.
hey, i cannot access your profile, but i wish to be-friend, you i too into pessimistic philosophy, i like reading about various interesting things, and i have autism too.
 
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Ann M.

Member
Feb 13, 2025
5
I could use a friend. Im F , in us and just feel so dead I can hardly move.
 
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Olivie_420

Olivie_420

King of self-sabotage 🥲
Mar 13, 2024
11
Okay, so this is worth a shot

My names Oliver (but everyone calls me Olli)
I'm 19 yrs old and non-binary/trans ftm and use mostly they/them. I'm from the US (oh what a wonderful place to live as a gay 🧟‍♀️)
I have autism + adhd (best combo 🤧), PTSD, a plethora of other mental illnesses AND I am chronically ill.
I know it also might not matter but I'm pagan? I like to do tarot readings and witchcraft, and if anyone here is also a pagan please PM me 🫶🏽
I have a Nintendo switch (currently having issues with it though due to the new ToS)
I mostly play phone games. I love Roblox, and Good Pizza Great Pizza (+ it's Cafe variant)
And the last thing I can think of: Im in a band as the lead singer, I love to draw and create and write. Also I smoke the devils lettuce (so bad, I know)

I don't know what else to put here. Imo I'm not that much fun, I see myself as really boring person. But I hope someone reads this and is intrigued by me. Have a good day/night everyone!!
 
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ihatemyself2025

Member
Apr 23, 2025
86
Please chat with me. I am lonely. Looking for CTB methods hopefully poison that is quick. Im in the US in Northern California. 51 f.
 
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ghostxheart

Member
Mar 4, 2025
14
Hello, it's-a me, ghostxheart. The name is based off a song I like by LM.C. I'm 26 and born and raised and have lived all my life in California. I grew up a nerdy weeb "girl" (I really only felt like a girl when I was really little, I just also always knew I definitely wasn't a boy), watching stuff like Nana, The Twelve Kingdoms, and Naruto (but I never made it past the chunin exams). I love to play RPGs, but haven't always had a system to play them (including now, besides the switch). My favourites growing up were EverQuest 2 (my family was one of the first to play!) and Kingdom Hearts- Dearly Beloved will still make me emotional.

I was "raised" a witch, though what that really means is my dad had a lot of books on the subject and family friends would gift me more, spell books and ritual collections and all sorts of things. My favourite thing to learn about was the fae, but these days, I'm actually technically a Daoist in training. I have a master and he does know I've been suicidal, but he doesn't know I have plans to CTB. I don't have a date yet, so I hope that won't be too much of a deterrent for others.

I love fantasy, but it's been around a decade since I've actually read any fiction- even manga, I did recently read one but it was just the one, and it was Aku No Hana which isn't terribly long. I used to write and even considered starting up again, but I'm a student so I don't actually have much time or mental space. I'm probably autistic and/or ADHD, but my parents were super against me getting any kind of diagnosis like that so it wasn't something I considered until I was an adult, and now I'm far too tired to care about getting a formal evaluation. It's also possible I have BPD, but others seem to struggle more so that's more of an iffy one, but I don't want people to be blind about my situation in case it's something they'd rather not deal with.

I try my best to be kind and I'm generally a very understanding person, so I'm always willing if someone needs to vent or something, though naturally it depends on my personal availability. Sometimes life is overwhelming and I just can't talk to anyone at all. Still, I hope we can be friends regardless.

Oh, and I was trained as a classical violinist for some time. It gave me a great appreciation for music of any and all kinds, from metal, to electronic, to classical (of course), to folk... You name it, I've at least listened to something similar. Music can reach me more than almost anything else, so if that's your jam (ha) then I'm also more than happy to talk about that too.
 
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RoseGirl

RoseGirl

Student
May 8, 2025
105
Hi I'm uhm rose. I'm a 20 y/o Australian girl failure thing.
I have no friends outside of my gf.
Uhm i spend most of my time laying in my bedroom, sometimes i go outside to eat with my brother. Sometimes i watch anime if i have energy. For the past few days I've just been here browsing the forum with music in the background.
Uhm I'm pretty sure i have bpd and like depression.

 
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stevej103

New Member
May 15, 2025
2
Hi, this is my first post here, but I've been around in Right to Die communities in general. I find the importance of building local communities to be important for organizing momentum for this cause.
Does anyone live in Washington State or near the PNW USA area in general?
 
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pandabe78

Member
May 6, 2025
5
Hi
18f
US
I like to read, watch shows, and I make jewelry.
I'm lonely a lot and I'm looking for anyone who is willing to just talk about anything I'm not picky I just want a friend
 
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User7529

New Member
May 18, 2025
4
Hello Community,

I am a new member from Europe now living in Thailand. (My english is not pretty good, i do my best!)

I Look for people to sit and eat together while have some Talk in Pattaya.

Anyone interested?

Thank you!
 
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merryberry

merryberry

Falling Snow
Nov 3, 2024
20
Hi, I'm a 20 year old girl from Finland. Not looking to CTB yet but considering hanging or SN if my state gets worse. I've struggled with depression, social anxiety, eating disorders and self-harm since a kid. I've also had my parent die when I was a kid. I'm in the process of possibly getting an autism diagnosis too

I really really love cats and all other animals too. I also like studying mandarin, coloring, divination, games (touhou, zelda, pokemon, infinity nikki... I have a 3ds, ps4, switch and pc steam games). Baking used to be my hobby but I don't like eating it lol. I know some anime, my favorite is madoka magica and I like chiikawa too

I'm open to people all ages, gender, backgrounds etc idm

I'm wlw as well and available to chat on discord too. I'd love to get friends so no pressure
 
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DaisiesRegrets

DaisiesRegrets

Ideal and the Real
May 16, 2025
8
Hey, 23 year old guy from Arizona. Been battling depression and social anxiety my entire life. I've tried ctb a few times but I guess I'm not even good at that. I like movies, books, games, anime, manga, art, pretty much anything that's an artistic medium. Humans were put here to create. If anyone wants to play some games or watch some movies, I'm open to talking to anyone. If you just wanna vent to me I'm here for that as well.
 
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nattns

nattns

Member
Mar 12, 2023
14
Hey!, my name is Nattns (21M). I'm studying Games Art & Design in UK so I have a big passion for videogames, I love anime and films, I also learning how to play the bass and chess. I'm mainly on SS to fight my Social Anxiety, so I'm trying my best to open myself to new people. I don't use SS too often, so feel free to DM me your Discord.

Have a nice day everyone:)
 
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PrettyWhiteFlower

Use my corpse to grow mushrooms, preferably magic
May 14, 2025
57
Hi, I'm a 38 year old female from the UK and I've been depressed as long as I can remember. I like music, anime & animals. I get obsessed with new things all the time though.

I have no preferences of age or gender. I really enjoy listening to people talk about something they are passionate about and learning new things.
 
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malia

malia

Member
May 21, 2025
20
Hi,
I'm almost 30 yo, from Europe. I'm a vegetarian, I like to play chess, I love rock music. Just looking for new friends or people who would like to chat here and there when they feel lonely.
 
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jb.fletcher

jb.fletcher

The one that's all sixes and sevens?
May 21, 2025
24
If you need someone to talk with, I'm here my friends!
30s, F, Midwest US
I trend overall positive, as I'm stubborn by nature. I believe in support and encouragement- but I fully understand the other side and how absolutely crushing it can be. Like a black hole that you can't escape.
If you feel like we'd click, hit me up.
 
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Caffeineaddiction

Caffeineaddiction

Caffeine is my only source of happiness.
Dec 18, 2024
29
Hey, I'm Cyrus I live in germany, and I'm just looking for someone who understands. Some people to talk to, to share experiences with without being called dramatic, or a burden, or being looked at weird. I'm into MMA, anime, webtoons, I play the piano, I used to attend a choir, I used to play a lot of games, and I like discussing philosophy (Not the "Ooh, I read kant" type of philosophy but the one where a problem is presented for whatever reason, and you think and talk about it.). For the past 2 months I've just been home lying in bed though.
 
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jatty

jatty

zero emotional regulation
Nov 13, 2023
51
young F, Looking for a gaming buddy; I play gta, fort, roblox, minecraft and various console games (though im not the best). I don't mind voice chat.
I also like anime and manga (currently a one piece connoisseur)
I'm also huge into animals and the environment, but I mostly like to talk about random thoughts and listen to indie rock.
I understand the struggles of ptsd, social anxiety etc so I'm accommodating and nonjudgmental. I understand first convos are going to be stressful.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The one who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
196
Hi I'm the autistic Brit who puts crappy doodles on a load of my posts. I don't really have anyone to properly relate to due to a few things like me self harming out of masochism (not sexual), not depression or anything like how most mentally ill people seem to be, so if you're just as insane as I am, just as frustrated as I am and also likes old and indie video games then yeah: I exist.

I felt like posting something here because I've been feeling very lonely lately due to that inability to really relate to anyone and I'm scared of becoming depressed or something so here I am.
Happy
 
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tiredash

Student
Dec 5, 2024
135
35 M from Spain

My main point is that I do not enjoy anything in life. Everything costs a lot of effort and pain. I always been alone, but I always needed a girl to trust and share my life with... So I would have strength to deal with the pain of existing... To trust and share everything with... The loneliness of not having anybody has always caused me huge pain...

I do not like to socialize, or having friends, or going out, or traveling. I have depression and autism. Im always in front of my computer unless I have to do errands, although most of the time I am bored. I play or watch videos and stuff, but mostly single player.
 
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pleasexbexover

uncertain
Feb 26, 2025
47
hello

24 f from usa, looking for friends with a similar "dark-sided-ness" (that's a joke pls don't come for me) preferably fellow ladies (bc of past trauma) but I definitely am not anti-men
my mind has taken a turn for the worse in recent years and I'm not as concise and articulated as I once was. I like music from all different decades (former musician), like movies, most recent book I've read is Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen. I'm also an absolute clown, one of the only things keeping me from ctb'ing is fucking with people. I have a very stupid and at times dark sense of humor. have also experienced a lot of profound losses which are kinda impossible for me to exist without remembering at the moment. please dm if interested 💜
 
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littleearthquakes

littleearthquakes

Member
Apr 10, 2024
41
There are previous posts here with more about me but I just got diagnosed with a serious autoimmune condition and on new heavy duty meds. Experiencing a bad flare that makes speaking verbally and typing hurt if I do much. But I'm depressed and lonely and no one wants to just be around at all and vibe with me.

I can send short messages and song suggestions and listen to lots of venting and sharing and share some writing and art of mine etc. So if anyone is into that send me a DM. I'm mid 30s, LGBT+, live in the US, no immediate CTB plans.
 
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littlepup159

littlepup159

Member
May 25, 2025
18
Hi am a 24yo trans girl from Czechia.

I really like to enjoy media with emotional or philosophical impact. Sometimes i have unhinged opinions lol. I am trying to find a friend from the same country that I can relate too. Age and gender doesn't matter.

Even thought i am planning ctb i still want to be a good person and help others. I train my empathy and try to listen and understand others.
 
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selfaware?

selfaware?

New Member
Apr 14, 2025
3
Hello, im an 18yo guy from Argentina.

I really love music, tech, japanese culture and gaming. I probably have a lot more of things i like or know about but the list will become too extense haha.

I joined this forum to have a place where i can vent and seek for other people experiences, mostly in the recovery section. Now that im actually here i also want to be sort of active, help and understand others, tho i dont know how often im going to get online here, i dont mind talking about almost any topic!
 
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Eternal Eyes

Eternal Eyes

Student
Dec 3, 2023
126
I'm going to repost in here as my prior post was a few pages ago. 26m, UK, England. I like video games (currently playing Morrowind, Ena Dream BBQ and hoping to start YS : Oath In Felghana soon. Used to play games like Pokemon and Minecraft). Also like football/soccer, and pro wrestling (hence profile pic). I love nature and the outdoors, especially birds and cats. I love walking in forests and woodlands just far away from civilization. I used to watch a lot of anime, the last one I saw was Revolutionary Girl Utena and it was awesome! Before that I finally saw Serial Experiments Lain after years of putting it off. I have Aspergers and can find it hard communicating but am also lonely (nice paradox lol). I love geography and history and always love learning about other countries. I probably have a lot of interests I've not mentioned thus far (I guess I'm jack of all trades master of none) Thanks for reading :)
 
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