27m California. I'm really into video games and enjoy playing/listening to music. Some of my favorite games are Marvel vs Capcom 3, Devil May Cry, Doom Eternal, and Baldur's Gate 3. I'm currently dealing poker, and I used to be a teacher. Tbh, I'm just looking for connection, better than feeling lonely and having negative thoughts.
takuyablackbox
[ should've been born a deer ]
- Feb 19, 2025
- 18
helloooo am 19m (he/him) from the us . currently at a very weird and hectic point in my life! i've lived in the same town for my whole life and for a while have had an intense urge to pack everything i can and leave but i just really hate being alone. i've also abused substances for the last few years but not to any really extreme extents.
was extremely close to ctb in late 2023 but couldn't bring myself to leave my mother completely alone. and her situation has since changed, but now but i don't struggle with suicidal ideation as much as i once did. but im also on a lot of different medications now and feel very disassociated from myself and others. i feel very alone bcause none of my friends have ever been at the places i've been at mentally, so there's some barrier of understanding between us . just looking for any friends to chat to ! around my age ideally
love nature, anime, drawing and chess but i think music is veryyyy epik. have a pretty cool cd/vinyl collection, i'm most close to hip hop but i love everything; currently indie folk, IDM, and french black metal. pms are open! be my friend plz
was extremely close to ctb in late 2023 but couldn't bring myself to leave my mother completely alone. and her situation has since changed, but now but i don't struggle with suicidal ideation as much as i once did. but im also on a lot of different medications now and feel very disassociated from myself and others. i feel very alone bcause none of my friends have ever been at the places i've been at mentally, so there's some barrier of understanding between us . just looking for any friends to chat to ! around my age ideally
love nature, anime, drawing and chess but i think music is veryyyy epik. have a pretty cool cd/vinyl collection, i'm most close to hip hop but i love everything; currently indie folk, IDM, and french black metal. pms are open! be my friend plz
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guapogato
drowning
- Mar 27, 2025
- 20
hey everyone, I'm just a dude who's existing right now and is around if someone needs to talk or wants to hang out. no immediate plans to CTB yet, too fuckin tired lol. I'm 25, like digital art (ocs, no ai....), post-hardcore music/punk music/ect., but I like any music and video games!! sims, guitar hero/rock band and old call of duty games are my favorites but thas just a few
part of the lgbtqa+ community in the reddest state in the US! during a time where me existing is a political statement. so if you too know that special kind of hell then you have company haha
i'm pretty much always sleeping, eating or toking up if not working otherwise. oh and lately i have an obsession with vinesauce and/or jerma if anyone's a fan of either!! oh and I love stuff like buffy the vampire slayer!! I'm pretty slow to reply sometimes but feel free to message/pm/whatever floats your moat (๑°꒵°๑)
part of the lgbtqa+ community in the reddest state in the US! during a time where me existing is a political statement. so if you too know that special kind of hell then you have company haha
i'm pretty much always sleeping, eating or toking up if not working otherwise. oh and lately i have an obsession with vinesauce and/or jerma if anyone's a fan of either!! oh and I love stuff like buffy the vampire slayer!! I'm pretty slow to reply sometimes but feel free to message/pm/whatever floats your moat (๑°꒵°๑)
imtiredasf
Member
- May 23, 2025
- 61
32/M. I like a whole bunch of dorky stuff, videogames, mainly PC. I've got a huge Steam library. Horror movies, I really like slashers and stuff like that, the gore makes me laugh. I love practical effects. Eclectic music like Aphex Twin, Boards of Canada, Lustmord, so on and so forth. I'm a NEET right now so I'm online constantly, working to deal with how I feel. I'm chatty as Hell, and prone to rambling about a bunch of stuff if left unchecked.
hi, i went through a bad breakup in december and i've been quite lonely since. i'm a 21yo (asexual lol) male from the netherlands and i like to read, exercise (mostly running) and watch movies. i'm starting uni in september, until then i'm working.
i'm not actively suicidal right now but i feel down sometimes and i'm bored constantly. i think it would really help to have somebody to talk to about... anything really. i've been trying to recover and while i'm feeling a lot better than i used to i feel like some social interaction would be good for me.
i like to think i'm open-minded and relatively easy to talk to
couldn't find a way to add this in but i have a dog as well :)
anyone is free to pm, i'm not too fussed about gender, age or location as long as you can be nice. apologies for the word salad lol
i'm not actively suicidal right now but i feel down sometimes and i'm bored constantly. i think it would really help to have somebody to talk to about... anything really. i've been trying to recover and while i'm feeling a lot better than i used to i feel like some social interaction would be good for me.
i like to think i'm open-minded and relatively easy to talk to
couldn't find a way to add this in but i have a dog as well :)
anyone is free to pm, i'm not too fussed about gender, age or location as long as you can be nice. apologies for the word salad lol
soolka
ʚ♡ɞ killing me softly ʚ♡ɞ
- Apr 13, 2023
- 77
hey, im a 22 year old woman from finland :). i like to read, watch anime and play video games. i love different indie games such as omori, undertale and cry of fear. i also play league of legends and occasionally dbd, wouldnt mind having more people to play them with ^^
i dont care about gender but i would prefer 21+ friends :) anyone is free to pm, im non-judgemental and we can talk about pretty much anything!
i dont care about gender but i would prefer 21+ friends :) anyone is free to pm, im non-judgemental and we can talk about pretty much anything!
garbage01
heavily dissociated
- Jun 6, 2023
- 11
Hello I'm 18m from midwest USA, I'm just looking for someone similar to me with my same issues. I love art and any topics surrounding it, I love culture, architecture, philosophy, overall I love the humanities. I love horror media, I read and watch alot of movies. Play alot of games too.
I deal mostly with psychosis and dissociation/dpdr. I think I have DID, I would like to meet someone who understands that experience.
I joined this site because ctb has been a constant throughout my entire life, i see it as an inevitability.
Im very communicative and I like talking about complicated or difficult topics, i have a hard time keeping conversations lighthearted so id like to talk to someone who doesnt prioritize small talk lol. I have little to no filters on to what I can talk about, id like to meet someone who also wants to talk about things like trauma, dissociation, psychosis, self harm, etc. Things that most people around me can't relate to or don't want to talk about. I also just enjoy learning and listening just as much.
My dms are open :)
I deal mostly with psychosis and dissociation/dpdr. I think I have DID, I would like to meet someone who understands that experience.
I joined this site because ctb has been a constant throughout my entire life, i see it as an inevitability.
Im very communicative and I like talking about complicated or difficult topics, i have a hard time keeping conversations lighthearted so id like to talk to someone who doesnt prioritize small talk lol. I have little to no filters on to what I can talk about, id like to meet someone who also wants to talk about things like trauma, dissociation, psychosis, self harm, etc. Things that most people around me can't relate to or don't want to talk about. I also just enjoy learning and listening just as much.
My dms are open :)
Rynalia
Who even am I?
- Apr 22, 2025
- 290
Hey there.
Well, I've been on the fence about posting on this thread, and I don't know if I'm going to regret this decision in the future, but oh well. Here we go.
I don't consider myself very good friend material, by the way. So it's probably a good idea to not expect too much from me.
Note that:
I might flip-flop all over the place.
I might have random active hours.
I might have random response times/speeds.
I might disappoint you.
I might fall off the grid randomly for varying lengths of time.
If that's okay with you though, then feel free to shoot me a message.
Cheers.
Well, I've been on the fence about posting on this thread, and I don't know if I'm going to regret this decision in the future, but oh well. Here we go.
I don't consider myself very good friend material, by the way. So it's probably a good idea to not expect too much from me.
Note that:
I might flip-flop all over the place.
I might have random active hours.
I might have random response times/speeds.
I might disappoint you.
I might fall off the grid randomly for varying lengths of time.
If that's okay with you though, then feel free to shoot me a message.
Cheers.
LetMeOut67
Experienced
- May 7, 2025
- 254
Hi I'm 57 male from England, total music freak , also like football, comedy (Alan Partridge in particular) horror films and reading.
Suffered severe depression for decades and am probably autistic. I have a good sense of humour and am reasonably easy going.
Suffered severe depression for decades and am probably autistic. I have a good sense of humour and am reasonably easy going.
a-fond-farewell
"You say she's waiting, and I know what for"
- May 22, 2025
- 48
Hey y'all! 18m in socal. I love music, whether that's listening to it or playing guitar. I love being outdoors, but honestly I don't go out enough nowadays lol. Besides that, I love Sufjan Stevens, Minecraft, Terraria, existentialism, and learning in general. I'm autistic, but I'm friendly.
lwovely
cat lover
- Oct 13, 2024
- 67
hii everyone! im 19 turning 20 in a couple months.
im currently going through trades school to become a welder, i plan on getting my red seal eventually.
been suffering from severe depression since i was really young and i got diagnosed in my early teen years.
pretty much joined this site to have a space to talk to about my illness and my suicidal thoughts since talking abt it irl isn't really safe enough for me.
I also really like jfashion if you cannot tell haha however gender isn't an issue for me. pm if you want, I'll try my best to answer as quickly as possible.
im currently going through trades school to become a welder, i plan on getting my red seal eventually.
been suffering from severe depression since i was really young and i got diagnosed in my early teen years.
pretty much joined this site to have a space to talk to about my illness and my suicidal thoughts since talking abt it irl isn't really safe enough for me.
I also really like jfashion if you cannot tell haha however gender isn't an issue for me. pm if you want, I'll try my best to answer as quickly as possible.
iwishiwasntborn
Member
- May 21, 2025
- 15
Hi!
J, 22, F.
I'm not sure if I'm looking for any friends tbh. I think I gave up on connecting with people after I've burned bridges with everyone and distanced myself. I dont know if its worth it making friends knowing ill end up hurting them once I successfully CTB. although i do think its been lonely and I'm getting by thanks to my lovely cattos. :D I'm not sure how to interact with people anymore tbh. it feels awkward and i overthink that everyone who talks to me find me weird or hate me. its been difficult.
I joined this site mainly to get infos on how to properly CTB and find a less painful method but I ended up engaging more and it's become my safe space for venting and just saying whatever thoughts I've been keeping to myself for years.
J, 22, F.
I'm not sure if I'm looking for any friends tbh. I think I gave up on connecting with people after I've burned bridges with everyone and distanced myself. I dont know if its worth it making friends knowing ill end up hurting them once I successfully CTB. although i do think its been lonely and I'm getting by thanks to my lovely cattos. :D I'm not sure how to interact with people anymore tbh. it feels awkward and i overthink that everyone who talks to me find me weird or hate me. its been difficult.
I joined this site mainly to get infos on how to properly CTB and find a less painful method but I ended up engaging more and it's become my safe space for venting and just saying whatever thoughts I've been keeping to myself for years.
¡Hola! Perdón que escriba en español pero el inglés se me da fatal. Soy de España y me gustaría conocer gente también de aquí.
stink144
Nothing
- Dec 29, 2024
- 79
Poland, 20s, depressed since 12yo, ghosted by a friend recently and suffering lmao anyone wanna talk my discord is @stink144 I will probably kill myself soon
anesthetized
I want drugs
- Jun 8, 2025
- 23
18F no I'm not lying about my age, I'm at the age where everybody thinks you're lying but unfortunately, I'm actually an adult.
I have people in my life that love me and I'm molested with the sense of prospect every now and then. those two things are the only reason I'm alive. if those people in question didn't want me around, I would have caught the bus a long time ago, positive prospects aside.
I like drawing, though I don't draw as often as I used to because I'm pretty depressed. I like old 90s-2000s video games like silent hill, resident evil, oblivion, etc but my taste varies. I also like all sorts of music and Im willing to share my Spotify but im worried this might get taken down if I do it here.
I'm judgemental but I'd say I'm fair. id also say I have a good sense of humor but I'm rarely in a good enough mood to stimulate it. I complain a lot, too. I'm mildly racist and I hate men despite having a boyfriend, but sometimes he disgusts me too. with that being said, if you're a male, I don't want to interact with you. if you're a male disguising yourself as a female, I'll be none the wiser but I'll be rather quick to verify your identity through a voice message or something.
I don't want to date anyone, but it would be nice to have friends on this forum or elsewhere.
I have people in my life that love me and I'm molested with the sense of prospect every now and then. those two things are the only reason I'm alive. if those people in question didn't want me around, I would have caught the bus a long time ago, positive prospects aside.
I like drawing, though I don't draw as often as I used to because I'm pretty depressed. I like old 90s-2000s video games like silent hill, resident evil, oblivion, etc but my taste varies. I also like all sorts of music and Im willing to share my Spotify but im worried this might get taken down if I do it here.
I'm judgemental but I'd say I'm fair. id also say I have a good sense of humor but I'm rarely in a good enough mood to stimulate it. I complain a lot, too. I'm mildly racist and I hate men despite having a boyfriend, but sometimes he disgusts me too. with that being said, if you're a male, I don't want to interact with you. if you're a male disguising yourself as a female, I'll be none the wiser but I'll be rather quick to verify your identity through a voice message or something.
I don't want to date anyone, but it would be nice to have friends on this forum or elsewhere.
Alreadylate
Member
- Jun 8, 2025
- 73
31 Spanish gay man.
I'm going through the last time trying to fix my life, started studying ethical hacking some weeks ago. My main interests are classic gothic literature, horror films and all kinds of music specially rock. I have been an occultism student for a decade also.
I have no friends but trying to know a guy right now, despite I don't really know if it's a good idea in my circumstances. I'm trying to keep going with my life and having a healthy routine, but I keep having suicide thoughts constantly. I always had mental problems but since I live in a flat where the nieghbours are trying to make my life impossible everything is much more difficult.
I'd like to meet someone to talk about anything, I usually feel lonely and frustrated for not having someone nice to talk to.
I don't consider myself a very mature person but I like having deep conversations.
I'm going through the last time trying to fix my life, started studying ethical hacking some weeks ago. My main interests are classic gothic literature, horror films and all kinds of music specially rock. I have been an occultism student for a decade also.
I have no friends but trying to know a guy right now, despite I don't really know if it's a good idea in my circumstances. I'm trying to keep going with my life and having a healthy routine, but I keep having suicide thoughts constantly. I always had mental problems but since I live in a flat where the nieghbours are trying to make my life impossible everything is much more difficult.
I'd like to meet someone to talk about anything, I usually feel lonely and frustrated for not having someone nice to talk to.
I don't consider myself a very mature person but I like having deep conversations.
Interdegenerate
Heaven and Earth… regard all things as straw dogs.
- Jun 10, 2025
- 32
20s - Male
I have avoidant personality disorder and I'm boring! I literally just want to hear someone's schizo-rambles, i.e., messages about any topic you want to talk about. I'm posting this because it has become a commonality that I frequently message people and they rarely message be back. I'm trustworthy, I swear! If you're a predator looking to extort a vulnerable person for money or something, I'm probably your prime target; unfortunately, though, I'm broke… I'm too anxious for voice chatting, so I prefer old fashioned messaging.
I have avoidant personality disorder and I'm boring! I literally just want to hear someone's schizo-rambles, i.e., messages about any topic you want to talk about. I'm posting this because it has become a commonality that I frequently message people and they rarely message be back. I'm trustworthy, I swear! If you're a predator looking to extort a vulnerable person for money or something, I'm probably your prime target; unfortunately, though, I'm broke… I'm too anxious for voice chatting, so I prefer old fashioned messaging.
hi everyone, i'm a bit late maybe, but i hope this will find the right people.
i'm repeat, 24F. diagnosed with bpd, bipolar disorder, severe ptsd and anxiety and an ed. quite the combo uh?
i've never had the chance to have someone, a friend i could tell all my story to without being pitied and thrown away.
i've always been rejected by everyone. until i found this website. maybe, maybe i'll finally find someone who understands without judging.
i'm repeat, 24F. diagnosed with bpd, bipolar disorder, severe ptsd and anxiety and an ed. quite the combo uh?
i've never had the chance to have someone, a friend i could tell all my story to without being pitied and thrown away.
i've always been rejected by everyone. until i found this website. maybe, maybe i'll finally find someone who understands without judging.
Hi everyone. 30F here, in New York. Looking for people to talk to in whatever capacity, from chatting via PM here to meeting irl to wander aimlessly.
I like reading, writing, art, learning about the occult / thinking about spirituality and stuff like that. We can share writing and art if you want. Down to touch base day to day, talk about our reasons for stuff etc. I have a dark sense of humor.
Not planning to ctb yet, but open to talking to those who are.
Also, prefer LGBT+ of any gender or women (whether LGBT or not), but am open minded. Also prefer an age range of 25+ but open minded.
I'm good at listening and I'd like to think I'm empathetic.
I like reading, writing, art, learning about the occult / thinking about spirituality and stuff like that. We can share writing and art if you want. Down to touch base day to day, talk about our reasons for stuff etc. I have a dark sense of humor.
Not planning to ctb yet, but open to talking to those who are.
Also, prefer LGBT+ of any gender or women (whether LGBT or not), but am open minded. Also prefer an age range of 25+ but open minded.
I'm good at listening and I'd like to think I'm empathetic.
16thsatirist
predisposition? kinda silly
- May 31, 2025
- 30
hi!! my name is ross
18, and i'm from texas. i have some issues with memory and psychosis, but other than that, i'd like to think i'm a pretty easy person to get along with
i like shitty music, drawing, and astronomy.
i'm just looking for people who are okay with me spamming them and talking about random weird things, thats kinda how i am. i'm not planning on ctb anytime soon, my life is unfortunately a bit too busy at the moment for that.
gender doesn't matter, but i'd prefer people closer to my age!!!
feel free to pm me, i'm pretty open for everyone!
18, and i'm from texas. i have some issues with memory and psychosis, but other than that, i'd like to think i'm a pretty easy person to get along with
i like shitty music, drawing, and astronomy.
i'm just looking for people who are okay with me spamming them and talking about random weird things, thats kinda how i am. i'm not planning on ctb anytime soon, my life is unfortunately a bit too busy at the moment for that.
gender doesn't matter, but i'd prefer people closer to my age!!!
feel free to pm me, i'm pretty open for everyone!
Hi! I'd be happy to be friends. I don't have the chat function for your profile yet, maybe because you have just 1 post, it looks like? Welcome to SaSu! (I'm new too.) I have a lot of the diagnoses that you mentioned. Please feel free to PM me when your post count is higher and you have that feature.
Hello.
Bird. 19, they/them, US.
Open to anyone, but I'd describe myself as a tad paranoid so apologies if I don't open up right away.
Some interests: anime, vocaloid, a smattering of video games
BPD haver, generally negative outlook on life, desire to CTB varies day to day but I'd give myself at least a month, probably more.
Bird. 19, they/them, US.
Open to anyone, but I'd describe myself as a tad paranoid so apologies if I don't open up right away.
Some interests: anime, vocaloid, a smattering of video games
BPD haver, generally negative outlook on life, desire to CTB varies day to day but I'd give myself at least a month, probably more.
hey! thanks for answering me, i'd be happy to be your friend too. welcome to SaSu! i'm working on that, hopefully we'll be able to talk soon.
karakoltriste
I hate psychiatry
- Apr 30, 2025
- 248
Soy mujer de 30 años y quiero hablar con gente en castellano!
Me gustan los videojuegos, la lectura, la montaña y el senderismo, los animales, la justicia social, la lucha libre...
Me gustan los videojuegos, la lectura, la montaña y el senderismo, los animales, la justicia social, la lucha libre...
sideways
Don't blame me for what happens next.. it's your f
- Jun 13, 2025
- 4
Hi... I'm getting older knocking on 40. I've lost everything and recently moved in with some friends. I'm very grateful to have them but they have a 3 yr old and he's super sweet but all it does is remind me of the family I had. I can't stay long, I've taken basically my whole script since I've been here. Only like 8 days.. Not good. I'm scared of how I'll be without my meds and don't know anybody down here to get more. I'm either going to hop a train to New Orleans or just do it. I've been thinking about it So much these past few months it consumes me. I was thinking things will get better, I'll get back with my fam.. Now I couldn't be farther away. I need drugs to cope and I'm scared of myself without them. I just want to take one big shot and be done with it.
Nice to meet yall..
Hi all
Im 30 and a male from the united states
If anyone, i mean anyone needs a ear.. Im here. Working on getting my posts up so i can get PMs..
I dont go outside, im very depressed.. Beaten up over life.. I dont want to talk about myself. Im not looking to compare lives.
I play aton of runescape, so if you play that even better. Some other games too.
Im 30 and a male from the united states
If anyone, i mean anyone needs a ear.. Im here. Working on getting my posts up so i can get PMs..
I dont go outside, im very depressed.. Beaten up over life.. I dont want to talk about myself. Im not looking to compare lives.
I play aton of runescape, so if you play that even better. Some other games too.
suacide
angel
- Sep 13, 2023
- 27
Hi! Call me Sua for now!
London, she/her, 23F.
I'm a huge homebody, so I have a really tiny circle of friends who are online and if I'm being honest, I can't talk to that freely or honestly with. That's why I wanna make friends with someone who gets it. I'm super introverted at first, but once I'm comfortable with someone I have no issue doing things that even a lot of extroverts would hesitate doing! I like anime, manga/manhwa, animation series, vocaloid, fashion and makeup, scrolling TikTok, playing games, singing, drawing, playing D&D and making ocs/drawing them.
I'm a bit of a baggage case, but I'll never make it your problem. C-PTSD, AuDHD, Depression + Anxiety, Behavioural issues stemming from family trauma, amongst other things I haven't been in to be diagnosed for, but I've been told I likely will if I stepped in for it. My need to CTB fluctuates a lot, and I go from wanting it all to end and being in depressive episodes to giggling and watching funny videos and remarking how I love life very, very quickly. Just want to be upfront, as I don't want to harm anyone with my own issues, ever.
Right now I'm a little unstable but I put myself together very well, and I've been told I'm really friendly, funny and easy to talk to! Glaze imo, but I need to start learning to accept good words about me.
But yeah, I'm not sure if I can dm and stuff yet, but I hope to build it up so I can start making friends!
London, she/her, 23F.
I'm a huge homebody, so I have a really tiny circle of friends who are online and if I'm being honest, I can't talk to that freely or honestly with. That's why I wanna make friends with someone who gets it. I'm super introverted at first, but once I'm comfortable with someone I have no issue doing things that even a lot of extroverts would hesitate doing! I like anime, manga/manhwa, animation series, vocaloid, fashion and makeup, scrolling TikTok, playing games, singing, drawing, playing D&D and making ocs/drawing them.
I'm a bit of a baggage case, but I'll never make it your problem. C-PTSD, AuDHD, Depression + Anxiety, Behavioural issues stemming from family trauma, amongst other things I haven't been in to be diagnosed for, but I've been told I likely will if I stepped in for it. My need to CTB fluctuates a lot, and I go from wanting it all to end and being in depressive episodes to giggling and watching funny videos and remarking how I love life very, very quickly. Just want to be upfront, as I don't want to harm anyone with my own issues, ever.
Right now I'm a little unstable but I put myself together very well, and I've been told I'm really friendly, funny and easy to talk to! Glaze imo, but I need to start learning to accept good words about me.
But yeah, I'm not sure if I can dm and stuff yet, but I hope to build it up so I can start making friends!
Unbearable Mr. Bear
Sometimes, all you need is a hug...
- May 9, 2025
- 830
stink144
Nothing
- Dec 29, 2024
- 79
I'm gonna add more, I'm dysphoric, hate being a woman and I'm sex repulsed and quite blackpilled, never want to date romantically, I'm super sensitive and I would like to find someone similar who accepts me for all my darkness is more on the amoral side so I can be fully myself and not be judged by them. I also like playing Roblox to hang out :)
sideways
Don't blame me for what happens next.. it's your f
- Jun 13, 2025
- 4
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