list your attempts

[sadbadpsychogirl]

1. amitriptylene
2. heroin
3. antifreeze
4. air embolism
5. failed partial hanging ( a few times)

 

[Wraith]

1. Lorazepam
2. Drowning
3. Partial hanging

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

1. Tried to drown myself in a hotel pool (felt too painful so I stopped. Didn't help that I can swim)
2. Starvation/exposure (succumbed to survival instinct extremely soon)
3. Charcoal burning (was stopped by the fact I had nothing to light a fire with)
4. Jumping (couldn't find anywhere high enough and my mom also just happened to call me and talk me out of it without her knowing)
5. Tried to create a heart attack by eating whole sticks of butter. (Heart did feel a little weird but ultimately I got too full before I could get far enough.)
6. Now I have SN which I probably won't use for a while.

 

[waterstrider]

Tried to jump down some very high rocks (with some kind of pond in the middle) as a kid. I went there on a Saturday when I thought none of the usual workes (mining some kind of stone there) were around.
I climbed up the highest cliff and stood there for a few minutes contemplating. Then suddenly I noticed a worker waving and screaming at me to get back from the edge. If it wasn't for him I would have jumped at the age of 12.
I was pretty determined and hadn't even thought about the impact of dying.
Probably also wouldn't have been high enough so for the better.

 

[user667]

od
slit wrists
hanging
drowning

 

[whywere]

Jumping and hanging at same time., Rope around my neck tied to the bridge and then jumping off the bridge
Bleeding out in a shower in the bathroom

 

[Isadeth]

1. Partial hanging
2. Slit my wrists
3. Starvation
4. Overdose - barbiturates
5. Partial hanging

 

[All washed up]

No attempts

 

[Cursed4ever]

Rat Poison
Hanging both Partial and Full
Wrist Cut
Overdose with Amlodipine
Jumping from Heights
Drowning

 

[Isadeth]

Rat Poison
Hanging both Partial and Full
Wrist Cut
Overdose with Amlodipine
Jumping from Heights
Drowning

Yikes, how was the rat poison? I imagine excessive blood thinners would be horrible.

 

[SunnyPotato]

OD with no research or possibility of success, ziptie around neck that may have been more of a gesture... Those are the "official" ones, resulting in hospitalizations.

Then there's the many "hope this works" or "let's just see" type attempts, I haven't kept track of the numbers of tries but those include cutting wrists (failed quite quickly,) lots of mixing various otc and prescription drugs and alcohol and hoping it may work, only to wake up with a fucked hangover and sometimes lasting issues like seizing or passing out... several tries at partial suspension and night-light with only one recent time where I think partial could've worked had I been home alone and not risking quick discovery.... ideally I can recreate those circumstances again because it's been one of the few positive things lately to keep in my back pocket.

 

[Dagon]

1. Partial hanging
2. Carbon monoxide
Sucks that it's so hard to ctb, but hopefully third time's the charm

 

[_Kaira_]

1. Cutting
2. Starvation
3. Drowning
4. Partial
5. Pills OD (desperation during a mental breakdown, dumb idea)

 

[SweetTangerine]

1. partial hanging
2. drowning
3. electrocution (was too scared to put the fork in the socket but i really hyped myself up and ended up crying like a bitch baby)
4. i tried starvation but it only lasted 3 days because i felt bad that my partner found out

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

OD a few times
Wrist
Partial
Plastic bag over the head
Starvation at first not intentional then thought why the hell not
Put a 9mm in my mouth once and another time to my head

 

[Unlucky Self]

1. Self-immolation.
2. Cutting.
3. Ingesting a shoe deodorizer (most poisonous thing I acquired while in a hospital).
4. Plastic bag.
5. Cutting.
6. Hanging (partial suspension).

 

[suicidesheep31]

several ODs with different mixes of meds.
tried to jump in front of a train but I didn't find the courage to do it and then someone did catch me.
I tried partial hanging but it was more a cry for help than a wish to die.
I prefer meds...

 

[Wrennie]

1. Starved myself until I reached 90 pounds but was institutionalized at an eating disorder ward
2. Stayed outside in the frigid cold on a winter night in an attempt to give myself hypothermia. Didn't work.
3. Jumped off of a building (my most recent attempt. I broke my back and my femur. Oddly enough the pain was bearable.)

 

[Lilium]

1- Plastic bag
2- Drug overdose (various)
3- Partial hanging
4- Slitting wrists and upper arm

 

[Dizzylady80]

When I was younger I tried a few things:
electrocution (knife in an electrical socket, circuit breaker flipped or whatever)
slit wrists (came close, managed to carve in on painkillers before by friend got there and stopped me)
Oxycodone OD
Mixing benzos, painkillers and alcohol

It's been years since my last attempt. Not planning on having any more failures

 

[Prathibha]

Rat Poison
Hanging both Partial and Full
Wrist Cut
Overdose with Amlodipine
Jumping from Heights
Drowning

Did you try all those methods

 

[Cursed4ever]

Yikes, how was the rat poison? I imagine excessive blood thinners would be horrible.

I Suffered 30days of vomitings for it's taste alone
My request to all ss frnds don't try poison or Overdose
I Suffered like anything

Did you try all those methods

Yes

 

[Lastsauce]

Rope around my neck tied to the bridge and then jumping off the bridge

Oh damn, how did you survive that?

 

[NodusTollens]

1. OD
2. Partial
3. Bleed out in tub
4. Partial ( repeatedly for a week)
5. OD (Talked out of it , took meds away)
6. (...)

 

[MrBlue]

1. Starvation
2. OD on whatever meds I had
?. Slit one of my forearms open. I don't actually remember if it was an attempt because I wasn't all there at the time.
3. several attempts at full and partial hanging
4. Caught jumping off a bridge

 

[Konjac]

In order:

1) Paracetamol, was 12 and only took a pack but it was my first serious attempt ig. Tried a few more times before realising it wouldn't work.
2) Starvation, all I earned was months of harassment from mental health services and eventually a trip to the psych ward.
3) Ibuprofen, apparently would've succeeded if I wasn't found.
4) Caught trying to jump off building by security, got the fuck out of there.
5) Ibuprofen 2: Electric Boogaloo.
6) Multiple ligatures in the psych ward, eventually gave up.
7) Sleeping pills, hallucinated and threw up but nothing serious.
8) Alcohol poisoning, the hangover was miserable.
9) Slit wrist, had to get surgery.

10th time's the charm, right? :')

 

[Sakura94]

Not sure it counts as an attempt, but I got as far as tying the noose and tying it over a beam and then I was too terrified when I saw my setup SI or whatever took over and that was that.

Also some of these attempts are terrifying and that more attempts follow just shows there should be easier legal methods.
I'm glad of this site and Stan's guide but even those reports don't sound that peaceful as it should be.

 

[Symbiote]

1. Seroquel OD
2. Xanax w/ Jack Daniels OD
3. Bleed out by cutting femoral artery in leg
4. SN

 

[Lil]

1. Partial hanging
2. Slit my wrists
3. Starvation
4. Overdose - barbiturates
5. Partial hanging

Can you please detail what went wrong with the barbiturates?
I want to use them, so it will help me to know...

 

[TotallyIsolated]

I get impostor syndrome when people talk about attempts. How close do I have to get for it to count?

• I saved up my pills for a month and got a bottle of vodka to wash them down with, but I chickened out.
• I drove 3 hours to Beachy Head, but I just sat and cried near the edge until the sun went down.
• I stood on the railing of a motorway bridge, but even when a stranger came to rescue me I knew I wasn't going to jump anyway. :(

I feel like a coward.