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blvck

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May 12, 2018
122
1. Bad parenting - father should have never had kids. Wish he never met my mom
2. Unnatural anxiety and fear about the future
3. Afraid to confess to people (would rather keep a secret till I die)
4. Future is hopeless anyway, we're all gonna die eventually
5. Feel like I have to be perfect and that I can't make any mistakes
6. Have no outlet to talk to anyone honestly with out fear of judgement
7. Wasted my time and crossed my boundaries for someone that doesn't care about me
8. Ugly
9. Everything is my fault
 
Life

Life

To much time is evil
Oct 30, 2023
44
Pretty much everything is my fault
 
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pepperfarmer

pepperfarmer

eccentric
Aug 31, 2026
89
My life isn't materially ruined. It's me and my mind that's the problem. I'm probably one of the few people with the kind of trauma where it truly wasn't my parent's fault at all. It was other family members that poisoned the well for my mother and I guess the trauma trickled down, although she did her best to protect me.
 
Vombie12

Vombie12

I wanna sleep
Jan 23, 2026
15
1. Family issues (major-)
2. Social anxiety
3. BPD/PTSD (ig just mental illness)
4. Never taking opportunities
5. Being stuck in life
6. Feeling Like I don't belong
7. Being scared to do anything/have any change
8. Not trying to get help sooner
 

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