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Why it was so long? How mg did he take? 99/100?
For him I hope no found....peace
He took 5tsp
and he mentioned his weight is 300 pounds.

it's short of recommended dose by body weight.
 
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His was the most peaceful I've seen though, his calmness and alertness for so long, he was also determined this is what he wanted. God Bless Him...
 
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His was the most peaceful I've seen though, his calmness and alertness for so long, he was also determined this is what he wanted. God Bless Him...
Yes, he seemed to have been an extraordinarily calm person. May he be pain-free wherever he is.

Maybe this way (taking a little less SN) isn't actually the worst...easier on the stomach, less likely to vomit...takes longer though.
 
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I think it comes down to
"Know the maths,
Know the risks".

Individual choice whether to die,
How to die,
And how much to die.
 
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Maybe this way (taking a little less SN) isn't actually the worst...easier on the stomach, less likely to vomit...takes longer though.
I was thinking the same thing. He probably had a large stomach, and apparently drank lots of coke also, didn't take anything else with it. It was actually pretty amazing.

He said over 300 pounds so it could have been much more. He didn't mention fasting. It took longer to absorb and do the job. It would be good to really think about this. He eased into it.
 
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I suppose it depends if SI is likely to kick in if you take too long. Although that might mean you shouldn't be doing it anyway.
 
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5 teaspoons is 25 grams. He took it with double the suggested amount of water.

So for his weight it was low. Apparently the trade off in slowness was more than made up for with the lack of any unpleasant symptoms. Rather than passing out in 5 or 10 minutes, he did not pass out until about 1.5 hours, but there was no nausea or vomiting.

He actually might have if he wanted to drank a second glass of it after an hour. He was without any signs he took anything for so long.
 
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On mg how?
Someone correct me if I'm wrong as I'm not exactly sure, but I think that 3 teaspoons is 25 g, and so 5 teaspoons should be (5/3) * 25 g = 41.666666... g Sorry, looks like I got my math wrong. See the post above me..
 
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1 teaspoon is 5.7 grams so 5 = about 28.5g
 
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Someone correct me if I'm wrong as I'm not exactly sure, but I think that 3 teaspoons is 25 g, and so 5 teaspoons should be (5/3) * 25 g = 41.666666... g
Nope...I think @Meditation guide got it right...roughly 25 g but we don't know for sure how "full" his spoons were.
 
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❤️ hope you are at peace hakku
 
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We also don't know his weight, he could have been 600 for all we know.

What a great attitude he had. He said he "assumed the position", I would probably not be so jolly and calm. I'm more nervous just driving my car than that.
 
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Farewell
 
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Rest in peace.
 
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Oh my God. It took so long for him to achieve his peace. But it's nice to hear that he wasn't in pain or something. God bless his soul. Hopefully it won't take this long once my time will arrive. I'm kinda sweating buckets right now just thinking about it...
 
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Rest in Peace Hakku!
 
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I'm kinda sweating buckets right now just thinking about it...
If I knew I could have as peaceful an exit as he had it would make me feel a lot better about all this.
 
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Rip @hakku from first post till last login 59 mins +taken 10 mins before. But no vomiting and seemed peaceful.
 

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Anyone else think that the 1.5 hour duration was a good thing? No unpleasant side effects and long enough to decide whether he wanted to continue or get help.
 
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Anyone else think that the 1.5 hour duration was a good thing? No unpleasant side effects and long enough to decide whether he wanted to continue or get help.
I would love to go out like he did. I wish I had a little more information, like if he took any meds or fasted. I can't get over how relaxed and cheerful he was, how easy it was for him.
 
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I would love to go out like he did. I wish I had a little more information, like if he took any meds or fasted. I can't get over how relaxed and cheerful he was, how easy it was for him.
Sounds like he didn't take any other meds due to his financial situation. I was also curious about if he fasted before or not.
 
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I would love to go out like he did. I wish I had a little more information, like if he took any meds or fasted. I can't get over how relaxed and cheerful he was, how easy it was for him.
From what I gathered from his posts , it was impulsive so I guess he didn't fast or take any other medicines ?
 
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Farewell Hakku! Yeah if you keep talking and then BAM, the effects hit you all of a sudden and you have to lie down. That's how it is. It may take awhile depending on body weight and other factors
 
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I didn't know you, but I'm still sad you had to go like this.
I hope your journey is gonna be much better, than you thought your life was...
Farewell...
 
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What a lovely guy. There aren't many, but I'd have loved to had met him. As glad as I am to think he may have found peace, I hate that he had to go.

I'm thinking that he probably didn't fast, since it was an impulsive thing. He doesn't seem to have done much of anything that we're so caught up in.

I don't know about anyone else, but I'm extremely encouraged! At around 154 kg, our weight is probably similar. If the extra weight and a stomach that isn't empty helps ease the discomfort, I'll gladly take the time delay in exchange.

Who knew that being fat all my life could pay off in the end?
 
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