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Just took SN. AMA.

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hakku

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May 30, 2020
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Oh wow my heart is in my throat now its beating so hard
I tried to stand but felt super woozy
How do i turn back without hospital
So i guess i'll keep going
 
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hakku

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May 30, 2020
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Man i really hope i dont have to wake up for that meeting tomorrow
Can you guys please keep talking to me?
Feeling a bit nauseous
Getting the burpies
Hopefully no pukie
 
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Deleted member 24006

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Nov 20, 2020
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Sorry things have come to this for you - we're here no matter what you decide in the coming hour.
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
I hope your transition is a comfortable one <3
We'll be here as long as you need
 
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StuFin

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Oct 21, 2020
449
How much do you weigh OP? Weight makes a big difference on amount of SN needed.
 
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hakku

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May 30, 2020
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If you guys keep messaging and talking to me i will be more at peace
 
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hakku

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Bro i'm over 300 pounds for sure
 
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OopsIdidntwanttodie

Ctb by the 20th of December
Oct 11, 2020
137
If you choose to go to the hospital you could always pay for it later. Anyways, we are here for you hakku :hug: :heart:
 
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hakku

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I cant handle the answering of so many questions
 
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hakku

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My parents are brown and dont believe in mental illness
StuFin said:
That'll be why it's taking longer to kick in.
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Should i take more or just wait?
 
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Latios

Latios

Experienced
Nov 22, 2020
270
What do you want us to talk to you about?

IDK, what are some of your favorite hobbies?
 
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hakku

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May 30, 2020
63
I tried walking around and got more woozy
I love watching professional wrestling
Def feeling more lightheaded than before
 
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StuFin

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Oct 21, 2020
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You need around (I think) at least 35g if you're over 100KG so that would be for you maybe 45g? It's up to you, you've probably taken 30g-35g?
 
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hakku

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Def feeling more lightheaded than before
 
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OopsIdidntwanttodie

Ctb by the 20th of December
Oct 11, 2020
137
Have you ever tried to be a wrestler?
 
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hakku

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May 30, 2020
63
StuFin said:
You need around (I think) at least 35g if you're over 100KG so that would be for you maybe 45g? It's up to you, you've probably taken 30g-35g?
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You are right
Heart beating so loud can hear it over the music
OopsIdidntwanttodie said:
Have you ever tried to be a wrestler?
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Nah i dont have the physical prowess nor the drive
I got a degree in computer science but have been too anxiety ridden to get a job
Also i was really bad at coding so i wouldnt get a job anyway
And i have this ability to not be taken seriously by anyone who talks to me
 
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Does anyone know how many gm SN is needed for the above mentioned rate?
 
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hakku

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May 30, 2020
63
I love my friends though and I'm really sorry i did this to them
 
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hakku

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I feel better when im lying down so idk if thats the problem
Listening to music and trying to relax
 
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OopsIdidntwanttodie

Ctb by the 20th of December
Oct 11, 2020
137
hakku said:
You are right
Heart beating so loud can hear it over the music

Nah i dont have the physical prowess nor the drive
I got a degree in computer science but have been too anxiety ridden to get a job
Also i was really bad at coding so i wouldnt get a job anyway
And i have this ability to not be taken seriously by anyone who talks to me
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No worries OP. You could always practice more no? But if this isn't what you want, I understand
 
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hakku

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If i lose conscious next this wasnt as bad as i expected it to be
OopsIdidntwanttodie said:
No worries OP. You could always practice more no? But if this isn't what you want, I understand
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I have no work ethic
hakku said:
If i lose conscious next this wasnt as bad as i expected it to be

I have no work ethic
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I just lie in bed and smoke weed all day
My gpa is not enough to get into a good cs masters progrma
or do a phd let alone
And i dont want to make my parents lay 50k+ a year for some shit university
 
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Gromit-CTB

time for ctb
Nov 14, 2020
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Still thought 25g was fine even if 100kg
 
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hakku

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Which i already did through my undergrad defree
Hey good thing is that i dont have to worry about deadlines or meetings anymore
Ooo some pain around chest area hmm
The smiths are so good
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
hakku said:
Which i already did through my undergrad defree
Hey good thing is that i dont have to worry about deadlines or meetings anymore
Ooo some pain around chest area hmm
The smiths are so good
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Are your lips/fingertips blue?
 
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hakku

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Im having some trouble typing so this means its working
 
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