I've... done everything / Secret Suicide Shoe-box Stash

[It'sNotLookingGood]

I think I'm finally fully prepared.

I have a hotel booked, suicide note written, SN tested, I've said the important things I wanted to say to the people I love, and I have every drug necessary for the facilitation of a peaceful SN death.

Myyy lack of emotion rn, the fact that thinking about this I still don't really feel anything, is odd to me - maybe a little disconcerting.

Anyway, here's my secret suicide shoe-box stash:

Give it a rating out of 10:)

(Nitrite Aquarium Test, SN bottled + in mason jar, Propranolol, Milk of Magnesia, Metoclopramide, Mints, Xanax, Paracetamol and Pipettes)

 

[Kcountdown]

Wow, I guess you get a 10 out of me, you've clearly planned and prepared. I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm a bit jealous lol, but if you do decide to make use of your shoe box I hope you find the peaceful and painless ride your looking for.

 

[Silver]

10/10. Especially the Extra Strong Mints! They're my favourite.

After ctb they'll say you "bought an online suicide kit"

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

Wow, I guess you get a 10 out of me, you've clearly planned and prepared. I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm a bit jealous lol, but if you do decide to make use of your shoe box I hope you find the peaceful and painless ride your looking for.

Thank you friend <3 I don't have the best stomach, so I'm somewhat apprehensive that I might vomit and have to redose. I think overall though, it should be peaceful.
I hope you find whatever peace you are looking for too:)

10/10. Especially the Extra Strong Mints! They're my favourite.

After ctb they'll say you "bought an online suicide kit"

Like I was saying above, I don't have the best stomach lol, so hopefully the mints will help with that:)

If only it were as easy as buying an online suicide kit smh! I spent ageess gathering and researching all this:)

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

That's impressive!

Before my attempt a few years ago, I was completely logical about the whole thing. I was disconnected from any feeling about it. You might just be in a similar place. It makes it easier, that's for sure.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

That's impressive!

Before my attempt a few years ago, I was completely logical about the whole thing. I was disconnected from any feeling about it. You might just be in a similar place. It makes it easier, that's for sure.

Thank you!

I think you're right about me being in a similar place to where you were. I do feel disconnected kinda, desensitised perhaps. That would make sense, because I've thought about ctb literally almost every day for like 4 years.
Maybe it's because I'm confident in my method too? I think that for sure is taking away a lot of anxiety. Also I don't believe my death is gonna be painful. Perhaps these things are part of the reason I don't feel as scared or emotional, as I guess I imagined I would be feeling.

 

[Ghost2211]

9, only because I would make back up servings, so 2 or 3 serving vessels.

 

[voidman]

10/10 Looks like you have everything nice, neat, and prepared. +1 for the bars, haven't seen those in a while.

 

[AJ95]

Very nice! I'm planning to do the same thing for when I go

Edit: 10/10! Forgot to give a number

 

[LonelyNick]

Out of curiosity, when do you drink the milk of magnesia?

 

[Donewiyhitall]

Jealous of your thourouness. May not have pulled that correct. Best of luck!!

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

10/10 Looks like you have everything nice, neat, and prepared. +1 for the bars, haven't seen those in a while.

Thank you! I have like 80 bars left in a nice air-tight mini cup thing lol, those 5 are set aside though. Xanax is blissss

Out of curiosity, when do you drink the milk of magnesia?

I will be drinking it at the same time as I take my last meto dose; 45 minutes before taking the SN

 

[TAW122]

It looks like you are well-prepared with your plan. I wish you a peaceful journey into the unknown whenever the time comes.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Will the milk of mag interfere in any way with absorption of the meto??