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How likely are you to CTB?


  • Total voters
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  • Poll closed .
Villager_37

Villager_37

The weak one
Sep 21, 2023
17
I know that I will CTB someday in the future, and I am reaching there, every day is a new low for me
but....I couldn't, at least right now, I'm just so tired all day and just wanna sleep. Sure SI plays a part but the main thing is I just don't want to do anything, at all, not even CTB.....

I have a full metal airsoft gun that looks like a SIG P226, I put it near my pillow, I just love picking it up and doing some tacticool reloading or just pointing it against my head and pulling the trigger, trying different holding positions, just let me fully experience the process, hearing the mechanisms within the gun ticking....and the harder I pull the trigger, the more significant the sound is, its kind of my own way of meditation
And just hopes that i will hold a real loaded gun, and just do it quick.
 
ImTelling

ImTelling

Sad Doggo
May 27, 2024
177
Date set, method chosen and practiced. Time not chosen. I'm pretty certain it will happen.
 

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