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I'm a solid 7. I think it'll be how I go eventually but for now I'm doing good. I just know myself well enough to know I'm never going to be free from these thoughts.
9, it's inevitable for me. i can't cope with my life, i'll never be content and truly happy. i have no desire to work and things like that. no desire to try and save myself, because it can't happen. there's no hope or future for me. i can't be treated or saved and i'm fine with that. my only salvation is death, and i'm fine with that, as long as it's not painful. i plan to go in the next year or 2, unless something really bad happens before that.
Realistically I probably would have voted 3-4, but I don't believe my problems will be fixed, so 5-6. Still somewhat hopeful, but I do think about and wish for my existence to cease almost every hour of the day.
7. I am planning on this Sunday, but it's likely I will chicken out. I have two ideas, one is jumping from a bridge near me and the other is partial hanging at my bf's apartment (he won't be back until the next day) - because he's a dick idc if it traumatizes him and i'd rather him than my innocenct housemates to find me
I have written my letter to my parents, one for him, and I need to move some savings I have into my main account so that my parents can access it. I am not in denial of the fact that this will destroy them. I am the only kid. Has nothing to do with them, i have great parents. I haven't seen them in a bit and it will be sad but if I go to say goodbye i think it will weaken my resolve. But I really can't do this anymore. I am going to the hardware store to look for rope tomorrow and I'll practice in the next few days.
I am struggling between the two because I imagine jumping onto a busy road will cause a lot of issues and be worse as far as traumatizing others goes. And I feel like it's easier to chicken out of. But I also don't want to cause issues for him finding my body dealing with police etc. But then also why would I worry about this if I actually die lol. Survival instinct is a bitch
7. I am planning on this Sunday, but it's likely I will chicken out. I have two ideas, one is jumping from a bridge near me and the other is partial hanging at my bf's apartment (he won't be back until the next day) - because he's a dick idc if it traumatizes him and i'd rather him than my innocenct housemates to find me
I have written my letter to my parents, one for him, and I need to move some savings I have into my main account so that my parents can access it. I am not in denial of the fact that this will destroy them. I am the only kid. Has nothing to do with them, i have great parents. I haven't seen them in a bit and it will be sad but if I go to say goodbye i think it will weaken my resolve. But I really can't do this anymore. I am going to the hardware store to look for rope tomorrow and I'll practice in the next few days.
I am struggling between the two because I imagine jumping onto a busy road will cause a lot of issues and be worse as far as traumatizing others goes. And I feel like it's easier to chicken out of. But I also don't want to cause issues for him finding my body dealing with police etc. But then also why would I worry about this if I actually die lol. Survival instinct is a bitch
7. I've got my SN prepared, now trying to make sure my cats will be taken care of, and there is still a bit of hope. Other than that, nothing is going to keep me here.
5. I wish it were higher but there is a 50% chance that I find true love and happiness in the next few months and decide to give up on CTB or maybe I'll just chicken out instead. That 5 is a really strong 5 though. Let's hope this coin flip is a little weighted in CTB's favor.
Somewhere around 7-9. I have the method and supplies ready, but I don't have a location or date. I don't know if I'll CTB within this year or in 10 years but it'll happen eventually.
I don't really know anymore. Sometimes I tend to think that the pro lifers have me in checkmate and that I'm forced to live until a natural death due to how hard suicide is. However, I also feel like I'll be even more mentally broken now from work than I am right now which could probably make me ctb despite society's checkmate on me right now
Around 7. Used to be a lot lower. In the pass few months something 'clicked' within my head and I'm beginning to take steps to ctb. I used to just fantasize about it and it made me feel comfortable that I always had a way out. But now it feels like something that I should do.
I am still trying, get my hands on creating Youtube content or maybe something interesting. Just want to fill up the emptiness. But if things get worse in a year, the possibility will go up.
I am sure. It's weird, like it used to trouble me, thinking what if my dad takes his own life after me? But as much as I love him I don't care much what happens after. It's horrible but I've passed some turning point lately. It doesn't keep me tethered anymore.
I am sure. It's weird, like it used to trouble me, thinking what if my dad takes his own life after me? But as much as I love him I don't care much what happens after. It's horrible but I've passed some turning point lately. It doesn't keep me tethered anymore.
Somewhere around 7-9. I have the method and supplies ready, but I don't have a location or date. I don't know if I'll CTB within this year or in 10 years but it'll happen eventually.
Sounds like an 8 then. You have the supplies ready to make you feel like you've got a way out but you're not absolutely certain you'll do it, but maybe you just don't see any hope.
9 is when you're certain you're going to CTB, probably quite soon, but simply just don't have it planned yet.
8 is when it's very likely, and you don't really have any hope, but are not 100% certain you're CTBing.
I mean, eventually? Like 9.9 or something. Even if I didn't have my current mental problems I have no desire to be old what so ever and I'm getting close unfortunately.
9. I have some SN to go, a lot of conflicted feelings and acutely aware it will fuck up my parents but yes I'm quite set on this, a few days ago I reached the point in my head where I realised I'm not going to suffer any more, of course I am still working through all the ways I am hurting internally but that's as far as it goes, nothing is coming to hurt me any more and now I can just focus on dying, starting to write out some feelings a bit as well as a kind of suicide journal, will organise what I can before I die
I honestly don't know, but it seems pretty likely. I know how I plan to do it if/when I do decide to, but I'm giving it some more time. For over a decade I was certain that was how I was going to go, but then I had a period of recovery for a couple years. Now, for the last year, I've been increasingly certain I will eventually make the final decision to ctb. But I can't do it as long as my dog is alive, because while I know it will hurt the humans in my life I can at least explain to them and they will know what happened; my dog is an animal, she has strongly bonded to me, and there is no way to explain to her what I did and why. If she weren't here, I'm pretty sure I would be making arrangements to ctb imminently.
Because I've had a period of recovery I recognize that I may recover during again during my dog's life and change my mind, even though it seems very unlikely. But I don't expect that to happen, so right now I'm at the point where when she goes, I go. I know that will hurt my parents and my girlfriend deeply and I genuinely hate that and wish it weren't the case, but I also don't think it's sustainable to live indefinitely for another human being for decades on end. My elderly dog won't keep me around for decades, so I can suffer through the misery for her as long as she's here, but humans with decades left themselves are a whole different situation.
Everything is not fully planned out or solved yet but getting close. I will undo their imposition no matter what even if everything is not fully planned. To freedom / salvation/ non-existence soon
8-8.5 in my case. I don't have anything planned yet, but I am consistently miserable and hopeless, so it's almost a certainty I will attempt once I'm able to, and likely fairly soon. I'd say it is effectively certain that I will do it eventually. I might hold on for my family for a bit once I have planned it and acquired a method, but not indefinitely unless things improve drastically (which will never happen).
9. I have some SN to go, a lot of conflicted feelings and acutely aware it will fuck up my parents but yes I'm quite set on this, a few days ago I reached the point in my head where I realised I'm not going to suffer any more, of course I am still working through all the ways I am hurting internally but that's as far as it goes, nothing is coming to hurt me any more and now I can just focus on dying, starting to write out some feelings a bit as well as a kind of suicide journal, will organise what I can before I die
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