Discussion How likely is it that you are going to CTB? On a scale of 1-10.

[Villager_37]

I know that I will CTB someday in the future, and I am reaching there, every day is a new low for me
but....I couldn't, at least right now, I'm just so tired all day and just wanna sleep. Sure SI plays a part but the main thing is I just don't want to do anything, at all, not even CTB.....

I have a full metal airsoft gun that looks like a SIG P226, I put it near my pillow, I just love picking it up and doing some tacticool reloading or just pointing it against my head and pulling the trigger, trying different holding positions, just let me fully experience the process, hearing the mechanisms within the gun ticking....and the harder I pull the trigger, the more significant the sound is, its kind of my own way of meditation
And just hopes that i will hold a real loaded gun, and just do it quick.

 

[ImTelling]

Date set, method chosen and practiced. Time not chosen. I'm pretty certain it will happen.

 

[everythingoes]

10