How did you first hear about and/or find your way to this site?

[Alli0602]

I think this website is a pretty good example of the Streisand effect in practice. I was getting bombarded with all these campaigns against suicide, and a few mentioned this website. Now, I believe google had slightly misunderstood what I was searching for (or not, who knows) before recommending me all these campaigns. Pretty useful website in my opinion, and I don't really understand why people are so enraged about people doing what they want to themselves.

 

[Forest Fire]

I googled "suicide discussion forum"

 

[kwho]

I am one of those who found out about yew toxicity a few years ago without realising that most of what you read on the subject is just a basic copy and paste job from the same wikipedia article and believed the "3 seeds" should be enoughto kill you. Took 10.
Was probably the best day of my life before the night i took it. Such peace and bliss. Woke up the next day of course. Crushed. It was almost as bad as going through the trauma of being born. Realised that a much more thorough research is needed. So this was the only useful site i managed to find.
I am glad i did. Not just because it is useful from the practical aspect. It does good to see so many beautiful souls.

I know they see people like us, who want to leave this life as wierdos, who are somehow wrong, mentally unwell, etc, but i feel the opposite. After all - it is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a sick society....

 

[slanabhaile]

A girl that my ex was friends with was an active member here for a long time and said she felt great comfort and support here. She passed away last year and I've been in a shitty situation since me and ex broke up so I thought I would check here out because I have very few options and for a couple of reasons, I don't really want to carry on going through the motions.

 

[composingthefuture]

i got here from tanta's video i dont even know the guy it just showed up on my yt reccomended lmao

 

[jarglingjargle]

found it on ashspace, found ashspace from Church of Euthanasia (bless them)

 

[hurtingmom]

I first heard of it from my daughter's suicide note....

My first reaction was shock.

But now I'm grateful in a way that my daughter found a place where she could share her feelings and thoughts.

I like that for her.

 

[lovesickness]

I remember reading about suicide forums and such, but I never could find one that is actually pro-choice. The closest I could find was a really small subreddit that got immediately shut down. I always assumed stuff like this is only on the dark-web. Well, Tantacrul's video made me aware that SaSu exists in the first place, so here I am.

 

[thelookingontheway]

I simply searched suicide and what does CTB means(my first language is not English). I found this forum and the Ash email group. I just saw the document of other's last words and I cried for everyone, so I decided to stay.

 

[DrinkyCrow]

Found it linked on another Forum that i used to visit years ago, it's almost completely dead now tho.

 

[murmur]

I asked for methods on 4chan cause I didn't know where else I could, the bulk of the replies were people that felt the need to assert their virtues on life, thankfully it wasn't too long before someone referred me to this forum

 

[notwhereIbelong]

Found it linked on another Forum that i used to visit years ago, it's almost completely dead now tho.

Completely off-topic, but your profile reminded me of Maakies and reading it as a child; it's something I had completely forgotten, and opened a bunch of other old, innocent (as innocent as Maakies and Drinky Crow was..) comic-related memories. Thanks pal

 

[DrinkyCrow]

Completely off-topic, but your profile reminded me of Maakies and reading it as a child; it's something I had completely forgotten, and opened a bunch of other old, innocent (as innocent as Maakies and Drinky Crow was..) comic-related memories. Thanks pal

Nice to hear that, glad i could give you some nostalgia :)

 

[nightshade00]

I don't quite remember, but I think I've been lurking for so long it even goes back to the days of the subreddit. I only recently created my account because my mental health has gotten much worse, but I've been familiar with the community for years. Probably first came across the subreddit while searching for methods.

 

[All-Dead-Y]

Found it through a comment on Reddit. I've been looking for years to find a place with like-minded people. I'm happy that this forum exists.

It's funny to see how that youtube video backfired lol. Surprised so many people came from that

 

[TheLastStraw10]

Tantacrul video. I wasn't even a minute into the video before I started desperately searching for this website. It took me a while, but I finally found the link in a Reddit thread discussing the Tantacrul video. Now I find out that the site was way easier to find .-.

same

 

[storeboughtisfine]

I was shocked by the co tent of Tenta's video but when i got here, i realized how wrong and biased his info was.

Its not fair.

 

[RoyBlight]

Hah, it's that idiotic youtube video. As if just saying ''Seek help, it gets better" infront of a camera is going to help anyone in this state...
I did think the video was stupid, it would just lead more people to this website... looking at the votes, seems I was right.

 

[moontime62]

I was researching methods and outcomes and stumbled onto this site through Wikipedia.

 

[Librarian]

I found it on wizarchan under the depression category which has frequent suicide threads. Quite an obscure site but so is this site i guess.

 

[loyalskateboard]

When I was younger I used to lurk the subreddit. It disappeared and I had no idea what happened for a while. I eventually found this forum and lurked once again. I live in Australia so one day it just disappeared again. I figured out I could use a VPN and began lurking again. Recently I decided I wanted to start posting, so here I am.

 

[snipsnapsnup]

Lol the dude did not do a good job of hiding this website _(≥∇≤)ノミ☆

 

[Surgical_Mask]

Heard a youtuber vaguely mention it. Then found through reddit

 

[searchingpeace]

I knew about this forum sometime back in 2019 when I went through an emotional crisis. I believe someone linked me SS on an obscure image board. I never bothered to register until now. Im glad its still here so I can enjoy the company of people who want to ctb

 

[ejt]

I found it from the New York Times article. It didn't mention the name of the site (or at least I don''t think it did) but with a little searching I managed to find it.

 

[Samalam]

I was on the subreddit before it got nuked, can't recall how long ago that was

 

[pulsar]

i was looking for suicide chats. I really wanted to talk to someone but only via text. This came up as an option. I am so gladit did as my mental frame has really improved

How the hell that would be is beyond my comprehension when if you google anything regarding suicide ending your life no reason to live etc...all you get is a page full of crisis line bs.

 

[waffels]

i was already feeling very suicidal and was looking for methods, but obviously google wasn't very helpful and just kept trying to get me to call the suicide hotline. then i stumbled across tactacruls video several months after it was uploaded, it is unfortunate he made the site really easy to find because now police might try and get this site taken down, but at the same time i am thankful because now i am able to fit into a community and find CTB methods i wasn't able to find before

 

[RedHotRage]

I've looked up methods to CTB many a times throughout my life over the years and I remember seeing this site pop up many times. Recently decided fuck it, I'll join, because CTBing went from a fantasy to an option.

 

[Krystal]

The first search result on Google. Yep. It is pretty cool that it shows up as a result so people can form their own opinions instead of getting bombarded with propaganda, though the latter still happens to a great degree.