Fly Me to the Moon -- Goodbye, my love.

[Circles]

atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing

Hey I don't know what I can say to help but as hard as it may be try to breathe, take your time and sit/lay down to process all this. If you got anything like clonazepam to calm your nerves maybe take some, if you want of course. If you need anyone to just listen I'm open okay.

 

[Skyview]

atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing

Please please do what you need to do to take care of yourself at this moment

 

[Time]

Everyone. Moonie threw up. i couldnt see how much. after that she had some trouble breathing. the breathing only became slower and slower. and now she's laying not breathing. peacefully. i need some time to proces this whole thing. i will update everyone another time.

i have it all documented. i need some time to process this. i will update you later in this thread. or in a new thread.
i think overall the method is pretty fast. and i guess there was a bit of suffering.allot of gasping for air. but im not sure if she was consious during that.

atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing

Thank you for this, Lotus1818. Please take your time & take care of yourself. That's what matters most.

 

[HereToday]

Rest in peace, we will always remember you and your kindness
How sad to hear she was struggling for air..

 

[Goneforgood]

I'm so sad... I hope you are in peace

 

[zeroambition]

 

[MsMaudlin]

atm im really shaking. in total it took around 20 min for me to be fully sure she stopped breathing

Gentle hugs for you @Lotus1818 , you are so brave <3
And beautiful @Moonicide you are in my thoughts and prayers <3

 

[OrangeLounge]

It's hard to see her name crossed out.

 

[enlightened_suicide]

It's hard to see her name crossed out.

It is hard to see :( .. but I take comfort in knowing she is finally filled with peace and in comfort after so long <3

 

[less than]

@Moonicide you will always be in my mind with your kind being. I hope your transition was mostly peaceful and you didn't suffer much. Farewell to you and rest in peace.

 

[BlueWidow]

For Moonicide,

I didn't know you well, but I always enjoyed your posts. You are already dearly missed here on the forum. We will keep your name, as well as the names of all those who ctb, alive on Stan's thread. I hope you have now found peace and freedom.

 

[Emily123]

I am sorry anytime that I see a thread like this . it is the second time in the last few weeks that I see a teenager CTB . I don't really know what we can do as the memebers of the forum to help them to make a right decision . It is not really the time for them to go . I am watching the photos that she put and reading her lat comments . I can not stop crying . All she probabley needed was some people to be kind with her .

 

[HereToday]

I am sorry anytime that I see a thread like this . it is the second time in the last few weeks that I see a teenager CTB . I don't really know what we can do as the memebers of the forum to help them to make a right decision . It is not really the time for them to go . I am watching the photos that she put and reading her lat comments . I can not stop crying . All she probabley needed was some people to be kind with her .

I think society as a whole has failed young people, and there's not much anyone on this forum can do sadly

 

[WhyIsLife56]

 

[WallsClosingInn]

This whole tread was so overwhelming...I read every post....The sadness of it,and yet the amount of support,understanding and empathy showed by many here,i'm sure it meant a lot for Moon.There is comfort in knowing,as she said 15 years of suffering,that now that has ended,she is at peace.

 

[Emily123]

I can not stop crying

 

[Tempeste]

Safe journey beautiful soul. The Summerlands are waiting.

Blessings to you also Lotus, for having the strength to be there when it mattered most

 

[Nnana]

I am sorry anytime that I see a thread like this . it is the second time in the last few weeks that I see a teenager CTB . I don't really know what we can do as the memebers of the forum to help them to make a right decision . It is not really the time for them to go . I am watching the photos that she put and reading her lat comments . I can not stop crying . All she probabley needed was some people to be kind with her .

I don't know if you thought that she was teenager, but she was 29. It was the time she chose to go and that should be respected. The suicidal often exhausted his options, and their freedom to leave is a right. Society can improve things to make life more bearable but while it doesn't people should still be free to leave. Nobody should be forced to cope with a life of suffering they can't cope with. That's torture.

 

[Lotus1818]

Thank you everyone for being with her during her final moments. It really meant allot to her. Right now i am making the documentation thread. I will link it in this thread once i finished writing it. its been about 5 hours since she took the drink. And according to her it will take another 10-12 hours untill she is found. She promised me to come back to this forum if she for some reason survived this

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Thank you @Lotus1818, I'm glad she had someone with her in her final moments.

 

[CyanideSoup]

I hope you had a peaceful journey and are happy now. I hope you are okay @Lotus1818

 

[Emily123]

I don't know if you thought that she was teenager, but she was 29. It was the time she chose to go and that should be respected. The suicidal often exhausted his options, and their freedom to leave is a right. Society can improve things to make life more bearable but while it doesn't people should still be free to leave. Nobody should be forced to cope with a life of suffering they can't cope with. That's torture.

I though she was 15 years old . I can understand what you are saying I will write a good bye threat sometime soon for the same reason .

 

[Lotus1818]

I hope you had a peaceful journey and are happy now. I hope you are okay @Lotus1818

im doing alright for now. i really wanna finish this thread for her

 

[enlightened_suicide]

Thank you for the update @Lotus1818 I hope youre doing okay.

im doing alright for now. i really wanna finish this thread for her

She was lucky to have you, ik she appreciates what you're doing.

 

[Lotus1818]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/first-ever-sn-documentation.29734/

SN Documentation is up.

 

[durba1]

Guys, there's no need to start guessing and making conclusion whether sn is painful or relatively painless, whatever the documentation's outcome will be, it'll definitely be a plus but not a conclusion for this method.
I wish her a peaceful journey.

 

[Lotus1818]

Guys, there's no need to start guessing and making conclusion whether sn is painful or relatively painless, whatever the documentation's outcome will be, it'll definitely be a plus but not a conclusion for this method.
I wish her a peaceful journey.

exactly. this is only one documentation. so please take everything with a grain of salt

 

[BipolarExpat]

What an incredibly loving and giving essence, moon and to ALL of the contributors here: You are such an inspiration...such a worthy collective of unbridled love and acceptance.

Moon, you are already desperately missed on this plane while most assuredly and eagerly welcomed (home) on another.


The depth of your spirit, care for others and free-flowing intimate tenderness touched so many and will never be forgotten.

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Bless your warm soul sweet one & embrace the happiness on the other side of the veil.

 

[BooGirl]

This was beautifully sad. I barely knew her, but I almost reached the point of tears. I truly hope that there's a beautiful afterlife waiting for her.

 

[Nem]

RIP Moon, you were a loving and kind person
peace/hugs