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Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
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That's how I feel right now. Doesn't happen too often fortunately, but still happens :(
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Absolutely. I actually hope to leverage one of those moments to CTB soon though.
I hope you feel better soon
At which times I wish I was standing on the edge of a cliff.That's how I feel right now. Doesn't happen too often fortunately, but still happens :(
In that moment if I had the means right then I would Ctb and be gone. Over the pain. Over the guilt. Just overAt which times I wish I was standing on the edge of a cliff.
I definitely understand this feeling. Taking more than enough meds to just pass out. Dull the pain. I had never cut until yesterday. I can definitely see why it is used to cope. I cut my arm, wrist, chest, legs. The pain dulled the crap I was feeling from this life.I do, usually I try to get my mind off of them by overdosing on some stuff and try to fall asleep. In the past I would paint, listen to music or self harm but that stopped working.
I usually try to smoke when I have itYes quite a lot. It is really connected to panic and anxiety for me. Sometimes it feels like my body is rejecting life entirely; my chest feels tight and I can't make myself move around. I want to vanish and never return when that shit happens.
I would definitely agree with those "some people". If your attitude can change in just a few hours, you aren't ready to go.Yes, but in those moments I usually have eaten within the last 8 hours, so my option to use SN to ctb isn't even possible
I've been reading some theories about suicide though, and some people argue that if you ctb during one of these overwhelming moments, it wasn't a rational decision, because when the moment passes the desire to ctb isn't nearly as strong.
Yeah it doesHopelessness and just straight up emotional pain. it sucks
This right here. Thinking about the few moments in my life when I thought things would be okay, and then realizing that going back to a state like that is impossible now.Yes. I get "emotional flashbacks" into intense bouts of despair, hopelessness, and sorrow
If those periods come and go, and life is OK between them, then it's probably best just to put up with the bad times and wait for the good times to return. (Sometimes easier said than done, I know.) It's probably not a good idea to ctb because of a situation that is only temporary, however bad it feels. Of course, if you are down most of the time, and there are few or no "good times", that's a different situation.Yes! I'm in that place now. If I could just press a switch, here and now, I would.
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