nahh, not surpised, im a coward. i do have an "attempt" but its not lethal enough to kill me, im embarassed to even remember about it lol. i do want to die, sure im afraid of the pain in the process of dying, but that's not the big issue. im trapped in my own thoughts, fear of getting into hell even if i dont really believe in religion and god, i just get thaught that way since i was a child so it have been ingrained to me untill now...