Discussion Will your suicide come as a complete shock?

[SkeletonFlower96]

No, i've talked about it often, will only be a "shock" if they don't think that i'm Seriously speaking. I didn't provide details about methods but basically everyone near me knows it. i didn't buy SN, meto, clonazepam to play with.

 

[rembleeds]

The attempt itself wouldnt be a shock, I've had several in my life (obviously unsuccessful). Actually succeeding would be the kicker.

 

[alivefornow]

Probably not since I've been depressed for very long and sectioned twice already. But some people probably think I'll somehow turn my life around and be happy. They just hope from afar. Then when I finally kill myself, it will be within expectations for most.

 

[otomedissection]

For people close to me, not really. But it would probably be a huge shock to outsiders. My friends know I'm at least passively suicidal and they say it feels like they're watching me decay. My parents know I struggle really hard with my mental health and I self harm, but idk if they know I'm constantly wanting to die.

 

[Off_Switch]

Nope, I talk about wanting to off myself at least a couple times a month. And when I do, I declare how I want to off myself every single day. I feel like this is abnormal. Hoping to here that others here do the same thing, so I don't feel so abnormal.

 

[Defenestration]

Yes very very shocking

 

[SpencerSees]

Yes and no
I've been depressed all my life, and most of the people around me know that. Which is why it will come as a shock when I finally do it after threatening it so much lol I just need to get over SI and we're on

 

[dragonofenvy]

I've had depression since I was 5. I've been suicidal since I was 8. People know that I'm suicidal. Some even know and understand my reasons for wanting to die. Yet despite that it'll still shock them. They have this idea in their head that I will be able to turn around and get better. Ha! They only believe that because they want it to be true to satisfy themselves.

 

[mars2027]

I've been depressed and isolated from society for more than a decade. I've also talked openly about suicide, sometimes jokingly or without even fully believing it myself because I held on to the hope that some kind of miracle might happen. But that little spark of hope I've had has faded as the years have gone by and I guess they can feel it too. I don't think they still think I've got a chance in life.

 

[SummerTrip]

Nope.
They'll know it was long coming and they didn't do shit to prevent it.
I don't have any living immediate family left so anything I've told is either my cousins or my aunts.
At some point in this fucked up journey I realized there is no point in hiding anything from people so I started openly share my thoughts, feelings and even stupid attempts.
They might call themselves "family" but family would never be so calm and carefree after what I've told them. To be honest, I didn't expect much of them, my path is already drawn, but their lack of reaction made it so much clear that I truly have no soul left in this world that cares for me. I'm truly alone and it hurts like hell…
I told about my ideation, my failed attempts, my daily struggles and passive attempts. Doesn't mean a thing. "Family". Yeah.
If someone Id truly cared about said something I'd said to them I'd do anything to stop them/help them. Alas…
I didn't look for a savior I just wanted to see whether there is a single lining person that cared whether I exist and I got my answer.
Fuck them.
FUCK THEM.
FUCK THEM!!!