I've just met a suicidal woman in the streets (insane story !)

[unluckysadness]

I've just met a random woman in the street who talked me about her suicidal thoughts and she thinks it's a normal thing. It's just crazy ! This is what happened :

I just went out to send a little parcel and in front of the locker, a woman said to me "hey, you cannot park here". I have an electric bike but I didn't see that I was on a handicapped parking spot. I said "okay, but I'm disabled". Then she said "oh sorry, I'm disabled too". And I've explained my disabilities and she said how much it must be difficult for me. I said "yes, I can maybe ride only 1 kilometer because of my spasms and pain". And we talked like that during 15-20 minutes.

Then she said : "anyway, if things get worse for my bad health, I'll take my car and go directly into a tree". My brain didn't instantly understand what just happened. It was : "man, is this woman telling me she's suicidal ?"... Then she explained me why suicide is a normal thing when you suffer too much. WOW !! So destabilizing !...

I was thinking : "should I tell her about my plans ?" I mean, there were people around us (it was in front of a supermarket). Then I thought "oh shit, I'll tell her about my plans for Switzerland, I have nothing to lose, she talked about her thought so I can do it too". Insane. I just shared my plans to a RANDOM woman in the street. And she told me again that it's a normal a responsible thing to think about how you want to die.

Then I thought about what she said about using her car to ctb. I've told her "wait, don't you fear a failed attempt and being more disabled ?". She replied : "don't worry, I know exactly how to do ! I've studied the subject !". I don't think she's here on SaSu so I can share it. I was trembling in front of her. I was thinking "wait, this discussion cannot be real". If I came just 10 seconds later, I wouldn't have met this woman... Isn't it crazy ?? She also blamed religions that claim that suicide is a sin. I told her that suicide is a death like another. She agreed.

I don't know if it's a coincidence but the parcel I've sent contains a DVD from the singer Mike Brant (who died by probable suicide - jumping). And today is the day I wanted to send my whole documents to Athanasios... So is it an approval from the universe which says to me : "you can ctb, it's okay". I'm just shocked right now...

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NOTICE FOR TEENS AND YOUNG ADULTS : I'm in my 40s and this woman is in her 50s. We are both severely DISABLED with severeal health issues that will only get worse with aging. We are aware about it. So if you are a teen or under 35, I repeat : suicide should be considered ONLY if there is no other alternative. I'm pro-choice and I don't judge anyone's choice. But if your health condition may get better, PLEASE try to recover before trying the ultimate solution called suicide. Thanks.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

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DISCLAIMER FOR TEENS AND YOUNG ADULTS : I'm in my 40s and this woman is in her 50s. We are both severely DISABLED with severeal health issues that will only get worse with aging. We are aware about it. So if you are a teen or under 35, I repeat : suicide should be considered ONLY if there is no other alternative. I'm pro-choice and I don't judge anyone's choice. But if your health condition may get better, PLEASE try to recover before trying the ultimate solution called suicide. Thanks.

Strange encounter…

But under 35? Really? That would probably be about 80-90% of members on this site…

 

[blacksand]

Tree and car is such a crazy way to go. I always wonder how many seeming accidents like that are ctb.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I've just met a random woman in the street who talked me about her suicidal thoughts and she thinks it's a normal thing. It's just crazy ! This is what happened :

I just went out to send a little parcel and in front of the locker, a woman said to me "hey, you cannot park here". I have an electric bike but I didn't see that I was on a handicapped parking spot. I said "okay, but I'm disabled". Then she said "oh sorry, I'm disabled too". And I've explained my disabilities and she said how much it must be difficult for me. I said "yes, I can maybe ride only 1 kilometer because of my spasms and pain". And we talked like that during 15-20 minutes.

Then she said : "anyway, if things get worse for my bad health, I'll take my car and go directly into a tree". My brain didn't instantly understand what just happened. It was : "man, is this woman telling me she's suicidal ?"... Then she explained me why suicide is a normal thing when you suffer too much. WOW !! So destabilizing !...

I was thinking : "should I tell her about my plans ?" I mean, there were people around us (it was in front of a supermarket). Then I thought "oh shit, I'll tell her about my plans for Switzerland, I have nothing to lose, she talked about her thought so I can do it too". Insane. I just shared my plans to a RANDOM woman in the street. And she told me again that it's a normal a responsible thing to think about how you want to die.

Then I thought about what she said about using her car to ctb. I've told her "wait, don't you fear a failed attempt and being more disabled ?". She replied : "don't worry, I know exactly how to do ! I've studied the subject !". I don't think she's here on SaSu so I can share it. I was trembling in front of her. I was thinking "wait, this discussion cannot be real". If I came just 10 seconds later, I wouldn't have met this woman... Isn't it crazy ?? She also blamed religions that claim that suicide is a sin. I told her that suicide is a death like another. She agreed.

I don't know if it's a coincidence but the parcel I've sent contains a DVD from the singer Mike Brant (who died by probable suicide - jumping). And today is the day I wanted to send my whole documents to Athanasios... So is it an approval from the universe which says to me : "you can ctb, it's okay". I'm just shocked right now...

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NOTICE FOR TEENS AND YOUNG ADULTS : I'm in my 40s and this woman is in her 50s. We are both severely DISABLED with severeal health issues that will only get worse with aging. We are aware about it. So if you are a teen or under 35, I repeat : suicide should be considered ONLY if there is no other alternative. I'm pro-choice and I don't judge anyone's choice. But if your health condition may get better, PLEASE try to recover before trying the ultimate solution called suicide. Thanks.

That's a striking coincidence really
Well said, that people should first try to see if things can improve. Not all things lead to a dead end. Some can be solved with time and bit of patience

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I love when stuff like that happens. It's like a message from the universe, however it is interpreted. We live in a death denying culture that believes we need to live at all costs & endure all suffering no matter how bad it is. I think the woman you met is more normal than the rest of the population. We should be contemplating our death in how we want to die because it is coming for all of us. I am very sorry for your physical sufferings. Mine are mostly mental right now, but I am 57, so the physical will be coming soon, as I have inherited a couple of poor genetic conditions. I like your disclaimer to the younger folks on here because for them it is often true things can get better, they just can't see it and often act on impulse. If I acted on impulse I would have been dead by my 20's. Despite living with severe mental illness, meds have given me years of good life in between really bad episodes. The unfortunate thing is the meds eventually stop working and you are back to the drawing board.