Will your CTB be a surprise or expected.

[ddn.ctb]

Surprise. My parents have been unsupportive and have called me lazy even when I tried to open up and tell them about it once. It only made them angry. My former social circle at uni thinks I just acted out for attention. Ha. Only my close friends believe my intentions, but they thankfully said that they wouldn't stop me and that it was my choice.

If your really good friends say they won't stop you. You have very good friends

 

[uniqueusername987]

I always feel like actors trying to hide our real selves for the final act

Honestly. I'm having fun dropping clues for the more oblivious people who can't seem to catch on. But there are people who I know would catch on (e.g. my mom) so I have to put up a front for them.

 

[lemonbunny]

surprise definitely, but deep down i have a feeling some of my friends and family would know they contributed to it somehow. or maybe that's wishful thinking.

 

[BlazingBob]

Very much expected to the few people who'll even notice I'm gone.

 

[Lucilius]

Totally expected. But as long as the people who expect it can pretend to not be aware of it they don't mind.

 

[strawb12]

Mine will be sort of expected that it'll happen eventually but a lot of surprise if I managed to pull it off with the ridiculous amount of safety & people watching me rn.

 

[Sid19]

Surprise. Planning carefully before doing it so no one can stop me.

 

[RealitySurf]

It will make sense, but it will be unexpected


I've talked about this with my family about a year ago.

I remember one day I said that I wanted to kill myself to my mom, and she just said something like "people don't talk who really wants to do it (ctb) never talk about it, people just do it and thats it" kinda ironic because when I was like 5 saw her trying to take a lot of pills

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I've been trying to off myself for decades and it's no secret. So my friends won't be surprised in that sense.

But they think I've been doing great for years and have moved beyond that. They won't expect it in that way.

 

[PracheenKaal_00!]

I'm carrying out my daily routine as usual to avoid suspicion, and I am hiding my plans.
It will be a complete surprise to my family, friends and relatives.
None of them know about my CTB plans.

 

[Kerrtu]

If I had a reliable plan to free myself from this existence

@FuneralCry - I ask out of pure curiosity and sincerity, what would you consider to be a reliable plan?

 

[Bobbylobby]

Expected.. I drunkenly showed my friend my suicide note

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think mine would be a mixture really. It would likely be a shock initially but I expect people would then start to think- she was kind of depressed. My friends know I have had ideation from a very young age too- so, it shouldn't really come as a shock to them. My family don't know but- by the time I feel able to go, I'll have no close family left.

I guess we never really know. Probably depends on whether they have considered suicide themselves. I think for people that haven't, it's always going to be more of a shock. The thinking must seem so alien to them.

 

[dumpsterfire]

both, in years past i would have said expected. but everyone thinks im happy and doing well now. It would be more of a surprise if i went now.

 

[Gloomislost]

As I understand about 50 percent of all suicides are considered to be a surprise to their friends or family. They claim it was totally unexpected.

I'd fall into that category. I feel alone because I have no one to talk to about it. The forum helps to work my feelings I can't express Irl

Probably a surprise if I'm honest. I always presented myself as being okay, with some minor set backs. My grades are good, I try to hang out with my friends (it's been tough recently though) and I interact with my family. I want to keep it this way.

 

[CH349]

A bit of a 50/50

I tend to joke alot about ctb and stuff so no one things about it too much when I say "yea I'm gonna die tmr"

I've "joked" alot about cbt lately, saying stuff like "yea I bought a rope yesterday I'm so excited". Hopefully my friends won't be too surprised. My family on the other hand though has no clue. I hope they'll take it ok

 

[Suicidal Ideation]

As I understand about 50 percent of all suicides are considered to be a surprise to their friends or family. They claim it was totally unexpected.

I'd fall into that category. I feel alone because I have no one to talk to about it. The forum helps to work my feelings I can't express Irl

I think my friends should expect it. It'll come as a surprise to my family though.

 

[ddn.ctb]

Probably a surprise if I'm honest. I always presented myself as being okay, with some minor set backs. My grades are good, I try to hang out with my friends (it's been tough recently though) and I interact with my family. I want to keep it this way.

We are always acting things are okay

 

[Avisagia]

totally shocking for my relatives and friends and coworkers and anyone, i never told about my desires to ctb to anyone. they won't believe it even after they see my corpse. there is also nothing that can cause them to suspect, like depression or illness (physical or mental)..

 

[Trakehner]

Completely expected. If anything they will be surprised that it wasn't sooner.

 

[revolutionnaire23]

Expected for one person. Surprised for everyone else.

 

[turntechGodhead]

i think it would be a mixture of both since my family r completely unaware of my plans but my friends n partner r but their believe that whenever i talk abt it i'm just joking

 

[leloyon]

Probably a surprise. It shouldn't be, honestly, however they probably will be surprised either way.
They're used to ignoring my issues when it benefits them. Let's see them ignore this.

 

[brokeandbroken]

Not a surprise. At this point my family is just waiting for it to celebrate.

 

[Borderline]

Everyone knows that I'm suicidal but no one knows that I'm going to kill myself soon.

 

[waRmblanket]

a little bit of both, while some know i'm suicidal, i don't think they know how serious i am. it hit me the other day that no one in my family would suspect i have something to end my life.

 

[SpiritualDeath]

Surprise. I never talk about such thing with anyone around me and I look far from the stereotypical images of the suicidal in their heads (crazy, with personality disorders, emotionally unstable, those kinds of crap).

 

[M.O.N]

"surprise" to family, expected by friends. my family doesn't believe me when I say I'm suicidal since I've been saying it since I was 10. they think it's just hysterics no matter how calm and matter-of-fact I am when I express the desire to them. friends have expressed concern at my noticeable decline over the past few years so I don't think it'll be news to them.

 

[jordan6243]

I think mine will be a surprise. Even for the people who know the most about my suicidal history and struggles. I don't think that people can make the connection between someone being depressed/suicidal and someone CTB. Maybe depression is so normalized that people who are approaching CTB don't seem any different from people who don't understand. Hopefully, that wasn't too vague. I think it is a rational point. I just hope when I do CTB those people close to me learn to empathize and be better for people.

 

[FuneralCry]

@FuneralCry - I ask out of pure curiosity and sincerity, what would you consider to be a reliable plan?

One that works and causes me to cease existing as a result. In this anti-suicide society it's a privilege having access to reliable suicide methods.