I think mine would be a mixture really.
I feel mine with be a mixture as well.
My sister will likely take it the hardest however she knows much of what I have been through and am going through currently. I have made an effort not to tell her
too much about my deteriorating physical health as she is already worried. I will likely mail her a letter with further information. I want her to know how much I love her and not to feel any guilt - we both have tendencies to be hard on ourselves and I want her to know, nothing could have been done to keep me going. It would ultimately be the preservation of a broken heart, really; keeping myself "alive".
My "father", brother and SIL will likely
act surprised but they very well may celebrate in their own way. I know my father has been counting against me for decades, but he'll be disappointed I didn't "jump off a fucking bridge" as he advised me to do almost 3 years ago, which was when I decided to end communication with him.
I remember after our mother died, the night we got back from scattering her ashes at sea, my "father" wanted to have a cook out in my brothers backyard.
In November.
We were all looking at each other like wtf - really? My sister and I occasionally reminisce on that and have to laugh at how absolutely fucking absurd and tone deaf he is. Underneath, I find him to be a sadist among other things.