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VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch. any pronouns. pfp is by pixiv id 3217872.
Aug 10, 2020
1,156
god died on me.
 
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Homecoming

Wizard
Aug 14, 2020
644
Lifetime loud tinnitus, visual snow, aspergers, social anxiety, and the OBVIOUS one: sh!tty BPD, narcissistic, abusive parents who often insults each other :hmph:
 
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JohnDoe555

JohnDoe555

Arcanist
Aug 5, 2020
416
Chronic illness, chronic pain, chronic treatment resistant depression. A general sense of dread at knowing I'll never escape this. That this pain/exhaustion/fear/sadness/panic is permanent and death is the only relief.
 
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Sinkinshyp

Sinkinshyp

Paragon
Sep 7, 2020
947
my older son died in a car accident almost 3 yrs ago. I have been beyond depressed and destroyed since.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,362
Because I don't want to live.
 
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voidman

voidman

emptiness —> nothingness
Sep 15, 2020
217
I don't belong here.
 
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Sulabhnpa

Member
Nov 6, 2019
9
Debt and effect of debt on my self worth as well as on my family
 
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Binami

Member
Sep 18, 2020
11
There's no possible improvement to a life worth living.
 
Water-Lily

Water-Lily

Enlightened
Dec 26, 2020
1,179
Abusive mom and future sexual abuse left me in a state of pain soba I want to CTB to escape and never have flashbacks
 
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kolski

ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴇʀs
May 27, 2019
115
Because I don't deserve to live.
 
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Moon2018

Member
Apr 12, 2020
48
В жизни нет смысла. Жизнь - это длительное ожидание, страдание.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
I was born to die.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Because I don't know if I'm losing my way or I'm already lost.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Hey man how's it been going back to teaching?
Hey bro, thanks for asking!
It's quite good actually. I love teaching. However, sometimes I feel so down that I find it hard to "start" but I end up doing it anyway because I really need the money.
 
BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
For me it's being a bartender again. But bars are locked down here in England. Teaching must at least make a little more money anyway?
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
For me it's being a bartender again. But bars are locked down here in England. Teaching must at least make a little more money?
The lockdown sucks!
As for teaching, well, it depends on where you teach. I'm only tutoring privately some people so I don't make that much but it allows me to make a living and save a little for the time I "leave" this world. Just wanna put things in order.
A bartender huh? You must make amazing cocktails!
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
I could totally make you a mean margarita but I don't think it's a major career skill that people are interested in?
 
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Yiyo123

Member
Apr 24, 2020
93
Emotional pain, meaningless life, guilt, sadness, emptyness, lonelyness... among other things
 
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Deleted member 23885

Experienced
Nov 18, 2020
294
I'm just tired of life. Plus, life is suffering.
 
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Initiated

Is life worth living?
Dec 5, 2020
66
I want to die because I suck at everything.
 
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BehindTheWall

BehindTheWall

May 21th 2020
Aug 26, 2020
132
I don't live, I survive.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
I am the product of a rape in 1971, rejected by birth mother(understandably) rejected at 17 by abusive adoptive parents, cheated on by once much loved wife, and do not want to live in a world where every twisted sick perversion is accepted by most, and after existing for 30 odd year's alone and friendless l've had enough and am ready and looking forward to death, as soon as my Dog has passed l will be joining him a month later over rainbow bridge!
 
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Simba

Simba

Missunderstood Potato
Dec 9, 2018
748
I want to die mainly cause of my autism ,im able to talk to people but not everyone gets me or understand me .. same for me also when I don't understand others i end up getting frustrated ,i heard the therapist from school once told one of psychologist i saw at the time that im falling between the chairs , not everyone with autism or different disabilities get me either ,it's more autistics tho.. i rather die then have all of this shit brain of mine
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
I'm broken in ways that cant be fixed, creating a cycle of (false) hopefulness to complete loneliness. Now I feel empty/hollow and shattering i cant do this, feel this way anymore its too much.
 
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Realman!@

Member
Jun 30, 2021
15
Life sucks and it's going to get worse as time moves on.
 
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WrongPlaceWrongTime

Better never to have been
Jul 4, 2021
695
Know life, Know pain. No life, no pain.
 
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hʚll

hʚll

not real.
Jun 18, 2021
467
no freedom
 
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