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hooman57

hooman57

kill me
Aug 13, 2026
30
i feel this is the right place to ask
it can be from anyone or from a specific person
but if someone were to really find the perfect words to convince you, or say the one thing youve been waiting for the whole time,
that would make you wanna keep going, or give u a proper reason to,

what would it be ?

(ps im partly asking for a personal situation of mine)
 
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Zzzkurt

Zzzkurt

Member
Aug 21, 2026
12
unless it was like hearing matching lottery numbers… I don't think there's anything anyone could say or do to prevent it. Because I've heard it all and most times I get annoyed when someone tries to say or show me something as if it's going to change the way I think and feel.

They might be able to prolong it but I don't see myself leaving any other way. But then again…it's hard to say since I practically swing from one mood to another so my answer can be different at any given time of the day lol it's annoying.
 
sixthgun

sixthgun

Suicide postponed :/
Sep 29, 2024
27
"Would you like a billion pounds?" Okay, that's a bit of a hyperbole, but honestly a good enough chunk of my problems could either be solved with or helped with money. I don't think anything else could change the way I feel tbh, but who knows? You don't know what you don't know.
 
aerials

aerials

amounted to nothing
Jul 11, 2026
2
i've been suicidal since elementary school and i'm now in my mid-20s. i've tried countless antidepressants and forms of therapy and nothing has worked, so i don't think there's anything that will make those types of thoughts stop outright unfortunately. there are some nice words that could possibly delay the inevitable, like hearing "i love you." from a few choice people, but I don't know if that would be enough to stop me from ctb in the long run.
 
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MeSauce

MeSauce

Armchair Philosopher
Jun 1, 2023
181
i feel this is the right place to ask
it can be from anyone or from a specific person
but if someone were to really find the perfect words to convince you, or say the one thing youve been waiting for the whole time,
that would make you wanna keep going, or give u a proper reason to,

what would it be ?

(ps im partly asking for a personal situation of mine)
I don't know :ahhha: I'm sure it exists but I haven't heard it yet. Maybe it just doesn't exist right now... but in the future? A particular combination of words said at the right time, in the right place, in just the right way. Or maybe it doesn't exist and I'm holding out for nothing and I should bite the bullet ASAP. I'm pretty sure it exists, but we'll see which I find first; Bullet or Belief. XD
 
DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,428
"I've invented a Time Machine!".
 
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sifp

sifp

Student
Aug 19, 2026
103
The money comments are interesting. I can't relate because no amount of money can fix your brain as far as I can tell. I agree with the time machine comment. And a way to reverse cognitive impairment from mental illness and meds.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,766
No, nothing would ever make me wish for this existence so torturous and terrible, this existence never should had been imposed at all and I'll always see it as the most dreadful mistake to exist, all that this existence ever does is just cause all this cruelty and suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it.

For me non-existence is just all that could ever be positive to me, it's just so terrible how the suffering of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, there is nothing desirable about suffering in this tortuous existence and there never could be, all I want is the peace of non-existence, all I want is to be free from this futile existence that is just waiting to die anyway with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
618
if I were able to get back with my emotionally abusive ex or find another for myself to completely depend on
 
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pk@2001

pk@2001

Student
Apr 27, 2026
122
Nothing could force me to look back as long as I'm trapped in this body which is getting screwed up day by day
 
lonely_potato

lonely_potato

Member
Aug 23, 2026
38
I don't feel like there's anything anyone could say that would change my mind. Now, if someone were to give me a bunch of money and let me experience wealth before I died, I might stick around for a while longer.
 
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Dandelion's

Dandelion's

Dumbass
May 24, 2026
235
"You are my favorite person" from someone who understands me and is just as broken.
 
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
5,119
Nothing. I am done living.
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,370
i feel this is the right place to ask
it can be from anyone or from a specific person
but if someone were to really find the perfect words to convince you, or say the one thing youve been waiting for the whole time,
that would make you wanna keep going, or give u a proper reason to,

what would it be ?

(ps im partly asking for a personal situation of mine)
Beautiful question
There are two cases that i can think of


If she comes back to me and my life, i may drop the idea of ctb

Another, where i have enough money to support myself, and i can use my skills to help people in distress which such accuracy that anyone i talk to, i can bring them back to normalcy
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
676
I would've said "I love you", but these words are not always the truth 😭, so idk
 
Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
242
The only thing that would make me stay is if my health problems could be fixed but there isn't any yet & probably won't be until I am long gone from the planet. And taking meds isn't enough for me. It still makes me feel horrible because I know I still actually have the issue. Sadly they probably won't find a cure, probably like, two centuries after i'm gone.😪
 
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abcdefg789

Experienced
May 8, 2026
234
how painful and traumatic it is to go through with it. that's one reason I haven't been able to do it.

also as per previous poster, if my health problems could be fixed, yup, I'd wouldn't want to.
 
tomame

tomame

lost in the country 🌾
Dec 28, 2025
290
honestly no
 
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combustiblebear

combustiblebear

depressed thirtysomething
May 5, 2026
10
"I love you, I will never leave you."

But that would require a time machine to see if it actually happens… words are hollow.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

i hit my peak at 7
Dec 24, 2025
1,244
ive heard the perfect words. i need more than words to keep me alive now. i need all those perfect things said to really happen and make a difference.
 
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LoveIsLonely

LoveIsLonely

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
134
Maybe my ex saying she loves me and wants a relationship with me again.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,575
no one could ever say anything that would change my mind about me wanting my suicide asap

nothing could ever happen to change my mind about me killing myself asap
 
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Aren

Aren

Student
Jun 15, 2026
149
i feel this is the right place to ask
it can be from anyone or from a specific person
but if someone were to really find the perfect words to convince you, or say the one thing youve been waiting for the whole time,
that would make you wanna keep going, or give u a proper reason to,

what would it be ?

(ps im partly asking for a personal situation of mine)
From her : I'm back to live with you, i love you.
From someone else : she is alive, she loves you, she is back to live with you.

I cry everydays thinking about it, but death is looking at me with open arms.
 
lilybug02

lilybug02

Chronically depressed
Aug 22, 2026
14
The only way id stop suicide is if this guy i like finds out about my mental health and bad suicidal thoughts and accepts me for me or wants to be in a relationship with me even though im so messed up and tries to help me. If not ill continue my plan to od. Only time can tell.
 
Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving in anhedonia =/= living
Aug 26, 2026
319
A few years back, maybe. So unless someone says they have a Time Machine and actually is telling the truth, I don't think anything could be said that would help me at this point. Because the damage my failures in life and the ramping depression that came out of it caused in my brain doesn't feel reversible at this point. I've been unhappy and suicidal at times for a long time, but ever since my last try to get help in another mental health clinic 3 months ago it became even worse and the damage is just beyond repair. And even if it isn't, I don't have the strength to fix the 1 million problems that cause my life to be so shit and depressing. More so, there's just so much stuff that is not in my power to fix anyway, like having friends, being loved, hell even finding some girl I also like who wants to have sex with me even. Just fucking hopeless.

Also, words are hollow, it would need actions and facts. I've heard so many words in my life only to find out they weren't true anyway. I'm done with talk from people...
Anyway, all the people around me (as far as there is still people around me, just my dad and some mental health "professionals" at this point) are doing is telling me the same bs they've been telling me for more than a decade now and none of it ever came to fruition. Sometimes also someone hits me p because they want something.

Sure, being wealthy enough so I could just enjoy stuff would maybe wanna make me stick around a bit longer, but in the end it probably wouldn't change much. As thats pure utopia anyway it doesn't matter I guess.

So I'm just trying to figure out what is the easiest and least painful way to go at this point, but even that is hard because I have 0 motivation to do anything at this point, not even researching and planning how to CTB. Hypoxia via exit bag sounds like a good option but requires equipment I don't have and would need to do the work to acquire. It's just fucking sad and cruel no one helps you with this and they want to keep you alive and suffering instead.
 
Nat.

Nat.

Member
Aug 28, 2026
63
I think words don't mean anything. If I had a lot of money, I know I would still be suffering and eventually end up suicidal again, but for a while I would probably be distracted. If I could help my friends financially and do things for animals, I would. I'd probably try different things to see if I could discover something I enjoy, but it would just be because having money was something new. It wouldn't fix my mental health problems.
 
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roborabbit

Member
Aug 27, 2026
20
If someone told me (and I knew they were 100% right) that there is for sure an afterlife I would not ctb. I'd probably fall into a despair I could not come back from. I don't want there to to be an afterlife. When I'm gone I want to be Done.