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infinitesimal

infinitesimal

i love you
Aug 12, 2026
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my first (public suicide discussion board) post, hi sasu! i ask this mostly out of curiosity, but also because ive had recurring thoughts of skinning myself alive. i feel like si is preventing me from doing some really gruesome shit to myself. i already struggle with self-harm, but not to such an extreme degree.

i wonder if peoples methods would change if pain or si didnt have to be considered, or if theyd stick with the method theyve thought about already. personally, i still might stick to the method im doing because its hard to do impulsively (and i wanna be 100% satisfied when i eventually ctb)… even though the urge to take the quickest and most brutal route is very strong.
 
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throwawaygirl

throwawaygirl

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Dec 23, 2025
23
Honestly probably poisoning with household chemicals, its a method ive gotten close to doing in the past but just sounds horrifyingly painful.
 
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Dinistro

Dinistro

Member
Oct 21, 2020
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The fastest way!
On the roof, off the roof~
 
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Sleepycat

Member
Mar 31, 2023
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Pain and fear stop me. I can pull the trigger when the chamber is empty and hate myself for being a coward when its not. Soo gunshot. Quick easy. Hopefully minimal mess. Or find someone to hook me up with the trip of a lifetime i can OD on.
 
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lilybug02

lilybug02

Chronically depressed
Aug 22, 2026
7
Id choose cutting my wrists open its what i come close to every-time but its easy to be a coward because of the pain.
 
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FF777

FF777

I am male..
Jul 21, 2019
297
lol what a funny question......... if i didn't feel pain or SI then i guess making my self explode in public would be cool, like some mortal kombat fatality with my blood and guts flying every where and bones spinning through the air.. wait i guess i really could do that if i suicide-bombed my self to death and probably wouldn't feel much pain..

but my favorite method has always been H2S (hydrogen sulfide) because it's like: quick, painless, easy to obtain (some times), and i kind of like the edginess/coolness of knowing how freakishly toxic it is for some reason........ like some people accidentally die from it.. 1-2 breaths and you are knocked out fairly instantly if the concentration is high enough.. remember to wear goggles so it doesn't burn your eyeballs..

i was going to do that method last month and i almost did but then my motherfucking SI kicked in so fracking hard, and so basically i'm forced to keep living even though my life blows a fat dong..... noooooooooo
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
556
I am not very worried about pain or survival instinct, so I'd still be going with jumping. I would choose another method if accessibility wasn't such an issue. If I could choose any method I wanted, and guarantee death, I'd combine gunshot and something else.
 
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otomedissection

otomedissection

a boring life with feelings too frail to touch
Jun 19, 2026
61
I feel like even with no pain or SI I'd still be too much of a coward to go through with it. But if I could, maybe poisoning myself. Just lay back and wait for it to kick in.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

i hit my peak at 7
Dec 24, 2025
1,213
drowning
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

professional dissociator
Jan 23, 2026
177
probably stabbing myself lol
just want to feel the life slowly slip out of me

feels fitting since I'm just permanently anemic
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Bandaids on gunshot wounds.
Mar 27, 2023
428
Without pain then I might go back to the method I was trying years ago: partial hanging (never got it right). Or maybe jumping into the river before it freezes over for winter, which is also a method I was mulling over before.

Right now I'm settled on gun, but it's taking time, preparation, and money. PSH or drowning/hypothermia combo are pretty accessible to me.
 
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Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
246
i've always really wanted to bleed to death. whether it be cutting my throat out or just stabbing myself all over. i really just wanna know what it feels like to slowly bleed out. obviously very unrealistic, though.

if i'm being a bit more realistic, and still not considering pain and si, then jumping or drowning.

my actual ctb choice is hanging and that's how i'll be going out so that's not really a fun answer for me to give.
 
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