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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
823
Hi all

It's a generic question that a friend here asked me moments ago.

I loved that question as it made me think something I had not thought about before.

I wish to ask that question to you all

What is that one thing that could happen in your life today that could change your mind and let you live a happy life?

Think about it and answer.

I also know that people suffering from pain, chronic/terminal illness or severe mental illness have a specific reason to think of ctb. So, it's very obvious that if their illness or pain gets healed, they'd like to change their mind.

How about the others?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Dying by some other means. I do not have any interest in continuing to live under any circumstances.
 
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Set Real Goul

Set Real Goul

Does'next on the menu' ring a bell for ya...normie
Jul 10, 2026
192
If I can get my sleep and anhedonia issues sorted out, that should be enough to swing the ctb pendulum in the other direction, and if I manage to make something of myself in one professional field, that would be even better
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
823
Dying by some other means. I do not have any interest in continuing to live under any circumstances.
❤️🫂 I can understand and relate.
I myself have gone numb and nothing excites me except just one last thing that can make me change my decision. That is lots of money so i don't have to go to shitty corporate job and i can help people in distress to come out from their condition and the time to elevate my knowledge that i can effectively empower just anybody to live a beautiful life❤️ that's the only last thing left that can change my mind
If I can get my sleep and anhedonia issues sorted out, that should be enough to swing the ctb pendulum in the other direction, and if I manage to make something of myself in one professional field, that would be even better
I can help you with sleep. I'm not sure what anhedonia is.. I'll Google and check if i have something on it.
When i was in the UK, i was having trouble sleeping. I had to rely on alcohol to sleep. Without it, i couldn't sleep, so i didn't use to sleep for 4-5 nights at stretch.
I used deep breathing and hypnotic audio and it helped over time.
I'm sharing two videos with you that should be helpful for sleep.
The following audio is hypnosis/guided meditation:

The following video is havening technique that creates delta brainwave to break any stubborn pattern that's affecting you, it can be any stress, any anxiety, anything literally that you want to change, it breaks that pattern.

❤️🫂 I can understand and relate.
I myself have gone numb and nothing excites me except just one last thing that can make me change my decision. That is lots of money so i don't have to go to shitty corporate job and i can help people in distress to come out from their condition and the time to elevate my knowledge that i can effectively empower just anybody to live a beautiful life❤️ that's the only last thing left that can change my mind

I can help you with sleep. I'm not sure what anhedonia is.. I'll Google and check if i have something on it.
When i was in the UK, i was having trouble sleeping. I had to rely on alcohol to sleep. Without it, i couldn't sleep, so i didn't use to sleep for 4-5 nights at stretch.
I used deep breathing and hypnotic audio and it helped over time.
I'm sharing two videos with you that should be helpful for sleep.
The following audio is hypnosis/guided meditation:

The following video is havening technique that creates delta brainwave to break any stubborn pattern that's affecting you, it can be any stress, any anxiety, anything literally that you want to change, it breaks that pattern.

I just googled anhedonia
I think even i have developed anhedonia because the things that used to make me happy don't make me happy anymore..
 
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hlchoo

hlchoo

Member
Jul 23, 2026
21
Without the mental illness and all sort of medication like SSRI, SNRI, Xanax, Olanzapine etc etc
 
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SealsOfTheArctic

SealsOfTheArctic

Member
Aug 15, 2026
14
My body suddenly being able to carry a pregnancy.
 
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Byez

Member
Sep 13, 2023
7
Hi all

It's a generic question that a friend here asked me moments ago.

I loved that question as it made me think something I had not thought about before.

I wish to ask that question to you all

What is that one thing that could happen in your life today that could change your mind and let you live a happy life?

Think about it and answer.

I also know that people suffering from pain, chronic/terminal illness or severe mental illness have a specific reason to think of ctb. So, it's very obvious that if their illness or pain gets healed, they'd like to change their mind.

How about the others?
Outside of not having cancer?

Honestly, even with my chronic illness, I think I would keep on living if I had a lot of money. Sure, living with constant pain, fatigue and crippling anxiety sucks, but if I didn't live paycheck to paycheck and had money to spare so I could actually enjoy life... I think I'd be happy despite all of that.
Unfortunately, my disability check just barely covers rent and groceries
 
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discernment

Member
Aug 11, 2026
71
1. time travel back to before my mum chose to ctb and save her
2. time travel back to prevent trauma from past abusive romantic relationship
3. somehow acquire enough money to not have to suffocate under the pressure of not having enough to live daily

**just re-read your post and realised you asked for ONE thing not multiple 😂 there isn't one thing alone that could happen
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
823
Without the mental illness and all sort of medication like SSRI, SNRI, Xanax, Olanzapine etc etc
I think that's possible. For that you'll need a skilled therapist. And you can yourself program your mind to change with the help of hypnotherapy and NLP and TFT and havening. Homeopathy can also help to some extent.
There's a medicine aurum metallicum in homeopathy, if that's administered regularly to all the members, in a few days, they'll stop feeling the urge to ctb. 😁 this was told by my father and interestingly also by the one who gave me all the trauma and anxiety disorder and mdd.
My body suddenly being able to carry a pregnancy.
I'm not sure about your age, but if your age and body permits certain treatments can help. My relative has had 3 abortions. She was not able to get pregnant after that. She had to undergo a few surgeries and take some medications intravenously. Now she is pregnant and I believe is in her 4th or 5th month of pregnancy.
In case such a treatment is costly in your country, you can always come to India for treatment, that'll not cost you much because 1$ = 100INR approx.
Outside of not having cancer?

Honestly, even with my chronic illness, I think I would keep on living if I had a lot of money. Sure, living with constant pain, fatigue and crippling anxiety sucks, but if I didn't live paycheck to paycheck and had money to spare so I could actually enjoy life... I think I'd be happy despite all of that.
Unfortunately, my disability check just barely covers rent and groceries
I'm happy to hear that it can change your mind.
And I think I have a good news to share. Kids are able to earn 1000s of dollar a month by using ai, internet and social media.
I have followed a few pages on Instagram that talk about such money making ideas. I haven't been able to try as I'm stuck with my day job. If i could use my time, I would start a hypnotherapy business and high performance coach business. Hypnotherapy business to help people and high performance coach to get high ticket clients so that i can make good money from them so that i can chill😁
So, there are things you can explore that could make you money easily. Some of the ideas just need you to invest some money to get freelancers to do the work for you and earn money for you.
If I knew all of these methods, I would have given a free training to all of you so that all of us could become financially independent
1. time travel back to before my mum chose to ctb and save her
2. time travel back to prevent trauma from past abusive romantic relationship
3. somehow acquire enough money to not have to suffocate under the pressure of not having enough to live daily

**just re-read your post and realised you asked for ONE thing not multiple 😂 there isn't one thing alone that could happen
Aww it's alright 🫂❤️ i mentioned one but you can always pour your heart out🫂
And having suffered in life, still you are able to smile that tells how strong you really are to smile through your pain ❤️

Talking about point #1 - it hurts 🥺 i wish there was a way to do so. My ambition as a kid was to make time machine and i discovered the concept of parallel universe when i was 7 years old even before it was made common by movies like everything everywhere all at once or doctor strange multiverse of madness or loki season 2.

Talking about point #2 - healing your trauma is possible. I have left a video on havening. It's used for PTSD. So, it's going to help you come out of it. I have a program that i bought from inspire3 on Rewrite History. I can share all the content with you if you would like to try it out.
I have 2-3 hypnotic audios from centerpointe that uses brainwave and hypnosis to repogram the mind.

Talking about point #3- using ai, internet and social media, this is possible
If you look on YouTube, search on perplexity and claude ai, you'll get ways to earn good income online, directly from home.
As kids these days are earning 1000s of dollar.
A 14 year old kid in India has opened his own company. Another one has his own ai digital marketing agency.
So, what I could understand, there are lot of avenues right now. And it's being said, that Covid lockdown made many billionaires because suddenly people started consuming online content exponentially.
AI is said to create 1000 times more billionaires than Covid lockdown.
So, it's possible❤️
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,531
nothing could happen ever that would make me not want to kill myself asap

I will always want my suicide asap no Matter what could happen or what anyone could imagine ever
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
823
nothing could happen ever that would make me not want to kill myself asap

I will always want my suicide asap no Matter what could happen or what anyone could imagine ever
I am sorry to hear about your pain🥺❤️

I wish for you that you have a peaceful life till the time you are here on earth and may you achieve the peace that you seek🫂❤️
And feel free to talk your heart to me or anyone whom you feel good talking with. We are here to listen to you🫂
 
TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
381
Multiple things would need to happen in order for me to not want to kill myself. It can't just be narrowed down to one thing, unfortunately.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
521
I would have to be a completely different person with different everything
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
823
Multiple things would need to happen in order for me to not want to kill myself. It can't just be narrowed down to one thing, unfortunately.
Ikr . Life is a curse for some of us. My life has been cursed ever since i was a toddler. There are multiple wounds. I tried to forget those wounds but time to time i realise they are still fresh deep down.
Life can be really painful🫂❤️ i wish you peace till the time you are here❤️ and peace in everything that you choose
I would have to be a completely different person with different everything
I think that's possible:
1. You can always reprogram your mind to change your personality within a month's time or even fast if you have a good therapist to work with
2. You can relocate to a new city or if possible country or may be a new job or a new house - whatever small change is feasible in your life within currently available resources
If you wish to try, Silva mind control is a good place to start.. On library genesis you can find the latest books on the subject.
In case you are interested, give it a try🫂❤️
 
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staticdepression

Member
Jan 18, 2024
19
Maybe a 10k in my bank account would tempt me to try things I haven't tried and postpone it a few years.
 

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