Why do you want to kill yourself so badly?

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Can't form relationships lol.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Because I'm so tired of being alone! 30 year's is a long time!

Because I'm so tired of being alone! 30 year's is a long time!

Thank you Dr Iron Arc and Mentalmick, a Hug is always very much appreciated! One right back at ya dude's:-)

 

[the_final_countdown]

Health problems that are steadily worsening.

But more than that, I had a terrible reaction to some medication and I've felt nothing but anxiety and fear for the last couple of months.

It's slowly been decreasing but I shudder to think what'll happen if it doesn't ever go away.

I don't want to live a life like that.

Even now, sitting down I'm filled with just terror and anxiety for no reason. It's been like this for months. I can't deal with it. I just can't.

 

[inthemoonblue]

Everything is too hard and I'm way, way too tired.

 

[notreallynow]

Incapable of loving or being loved. Lol

 

[victoria91]

Because I am exhausted ....
I'm a massive fuck up .....
I'm just a waste of space in all honestly, I really am :(

 

[jakaranda3]

To increase the mean IQ of the human race.

It might decrease if you are above average.

 

[DivineMedicus]

It might decrease if you are above average.

Lol, I'm pretty sure my IQ is below average. I have problems with working memory and speech, as well as executive function (e.g. driving, following instructions, etc.). I used to be normal but I don't know what happened, and perhaps it is too late to address these issues. Is it depression that fucked up my brain? Probably. Is it almost 100% reversible? Yeah maybe. Eh whatever, I'm done giving a shit about what happens to me. In a few months, none of this will matter anymore.

 

[Shero]

Genetic condition that halves my life span. I wouldn't mind it if i didn't suffer daily from it. Im trapped in a visibly and physically deteriorating body.
Why should i bother to keep on going if objectively my quality of life won't improve?

 

[booray]

Because living from day to day with treatment resistant depression and crippling anxiety is just so exhausting that it is literally sucking the life out of me.

 

[ixkitty]

The reason I would like to end this life is because:
- I am incapable of continuing to survive in it.
-I am entirely too nice and I have no way of speaking up for myself.
-I have opinions that get squashed as soon as someone says it's not right.
-I am Non confrontational, so I've been used as a door mat and I continue to live as such
My-My life is lead by fear and, personally it's exhausting.
-I want love but fear that no one will truly love the mess I am nor will they want to deal with all the mental illnesses.
-I have goals I'd love to reach but I lack the physical and mental motivation to do such.
-I have hobbies I'd love to involve myself into but, again, I lack that motivation to do it.
-I'm bound to get into another relationship where I get abused emotionally and psychologically.

 

[jakaranda3]

Lol, I'm pretty sure my IQ is below average. I have problems with working memory and speech, as well as executive function (e.g. driving, following instructions, etc.). I used to be normal but I don't know what happened, and perhaps it is too late to address these issues. Is it depression that fucked up my brain? Probably. Is it almost 100% reversible? Yeah maybe. Eh whatever, I'm done giving a shit about what happens to me. In a few months, none of this will matter anymore.

I think you have very good writing ability (do you recognize this?). Judging from that I was thinking you are well above average.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

If I was a house I would be uninhabitalble.

No
purpose.

 

[boydiablo]

I'm going to die regardless, I want my death to be at the time of my choice and by the method of my choice. I have no interest in getting old.

 

[Mr blobby]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

Bringing up religion in a forum like this will only bring about anti religion comments. Understand the demographics here.

I am Muslim and I 100% believe suicide is wrong (as it should be). Killing yourself goes against instinct and the drive to survive. Survival of the fittest. Doesn't make sense from a scientific perspective either.

I find it ironic that religious people are being accused of being "sheep" when you've all grown up obeying the law of your land. Bowing down to politicians, indoctrinated by political ideologies including liberalism, progressivism, feminism, etc and somehow you feel you are exempt from any kind of Environmental influence? Seriously?

My religion teaches me that i must be kind to my neighbour and make sure they don't go hungry. i am obligated to give to charity every year or i will fall into sin. I must be kind to my parents. I must not severe ties with my family. I must not lie or i will fall into sin.

What's wrong with that? Some dude who wants to control everyone with religion you say?

The arrogance of atheists boggles my mind.

 

[fred farkle]

Extreme loneliness and no way to get out of it

well,since my wife Deirdre died at age 65 two years ago,my life has been worthless. its hell. i only wish i could get the nerve to ctb.

 

[Final Escape]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

I'm not able to solve these problems listed in this screenshot.

 

[Abir_london]

well,since my wife Deirdre died at age 65 two years ago,my life has been worthless. its hell. i only wish i could get the nerve to ctb.

Well I'm sorry for your losss
I'm here if you need to talk to someone

 

[heraclitus]

I don't want to kill myself badly - I want to do it really, really well.

 

[Kbeau]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

I don't choose to live in misery. Orhers decide for themselves

 

[loopylou]

Sick of my own shit. Was abused as child but can't get over it

 

[nohopeforethefuture]

I would kill myself if I could. The fear of failure and being found is what's holding me back. Furthermore, suicide is forbidden according to most if not all religions. And I'm religious. God could punish me.

Therefore, I've accepted that life is not a choice and that I have to accept the circumstances that I've chosen for myself. I'm wondering how you plan on killing yourself. Have you no survival instinct? Do you intend to force yourself?

We all die so wouldn't you rather have a peaceful death in old age?

I know there are a million responses already, but your post stuck out to me. I am also religious. I grew up religious due to family, but honestly I dont know if I can come to terms with any of it. The problem is I believe its true, so I can't just abandon it for a different religion, or no religion. So I'm stuck not being able to live according to my religion, but not being able to decide that its not for me either.

I want to die because I feel like there is no hope for the future. I have been slowly losing motivation for life since middle school but didnt become suicidal until after college. The feeling is a hopeless one. Dying doesnt bring me peace or joy like some others. I had dreams and visions - I wanted to get married and start a family. But I understand now that I would be the worst mom - I would never be able to treat my kids well and I would just make them turn out like me or worse. I wouldn't wish how I feel on anyone. But even if I didnt have kids, I can't get married anymore either. My boyfriend and I had a spotty (mostly unwanted) sexual relationship. I will admit there were times I was fine with it, but most of the time I didnt want to (because of our religion - we have the same religion. He is religious, just has self control issues). As a result I now hate sex and everything sexual. I dont even hold hands or touch any more than a quick hug with my boyfriend now. Breaking up with him would only make me alone and break his heart, so there's no point in that (besides, he wont let me anyways). I dont think I could ever have sex with a man ever again, let alone my boyfriend. And thats kind of necessary for marriage.

So now here I am. Crisis of faith, no hope or desires for the future, no hope of me getting any better. I actually do think im quite toxic about it. I honestly think I enjoy the pain. Like I will find myself wishing my boyfriend will touch me against my wishes and I hope every time its worse than the last (until it starts to hurt. I feel like I want this so I have a valid excuse to not want to touch him, to cry to people, to feel the way I do. After all if there's nothing bad happening then I'm just being a selfish whiner, throwing myself pity parties for no reason. Or maybe its that I've just been conditioned to believe I didnt want it, so in actuality I let it all happen because I do want it and I just can't admit to myself that I enjoy it. I believe that even if I lived my life I would still go to hell in the end. So why not get it over with early since I can't enjoy life?

 

[lofticries]

Depressed since 6. Can't build relationships for the life of me and honestly can't stand myself. No talent, smarts, and very lil looks to speak of. Hell I'm not even a good person since all I can do is pity myself. I just want to be gone permanently.