BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
I got fired from my last job 5 years ago and haven't had a proper job since. I was a teacher and my career was a big part of my identity and gave me much needed purpose, structure and social interaction, not to mention a paycheck. I'd love to be working again and being productive but I'm just too damn sick. Sometimes I feel like a big pile of crap especially when I start comparing myself to others.

Losing my career is a huge reason for planning my suicide. I'd rather be dead than sitting around watching life go by while I rot and also having to depend on the charity of others, which is what I'll have to do once my money runs out which is right around the corner.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,199
I am struggling a lot with work too. Mainly due to crippling anxiety and fatigue

I am sorry you got fired and are in a difficult situation

Best wishes my friend
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
I can't work at the moment. I can't even reliably volunteer or participate in groups. Many people seem to understand but the UK government is convinced that we're a bunch of work shy shirkers and benefit-fraudsters. That in itself is terrible for my mental health. Go figure.
 
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MidnightDream

MidnightDream

Warlock
Sep 5, 2022
736
I can't work at the moment. I can't even reliably volunteer or participate in groups. Many people seem to understand but the UK government is convinced that we're a bunch of work shy shirkers and benefit-fraudsters. That in itself is terrible for my mental health. Go figure.
honestly quite terrified of whats happening to the uk rn in terms of disabled people
I do 3 days a week.. Most i can manage
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,040
Totally screwed, and shunned upon. Screw society. My friends are deluded to, thinking I'm just ragging the dog lol
 
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ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

-terminally sad-
Mar 14, 2024
1,276
I got fired from my last job 5 years ago and haven't had a proper job since. I was a teacher and my career was a big part of my identity and gave me much needed purpose, structure and social interaction, not to mention a paycheck. I'd love to be working again and being productive but I'm just too damn sick. Sometimes I feel like a big pile of crap especially when I start comparing myself to others.

Losing my career is a huge reason for planning my suicide. I'd rather be dead than sitting around watching life go by while I rot and also having to depend on the charity of others, which is what I'll have to do once my money runs out which is right around the corner.
Have you applied for disability?
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
301
I work 4-10 hours every week. I refuse to stop working even if working increases my anxiety. I took an extra job twice. I work in journalism and that is my passion. Well it used to be my passion. This crippling depression makes everything 1000x harder to do. I want nothing less than be rid of the depression.
Work for me means being useful for society, something I find important.
 
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DeletedAccount0864

Student
Dec 17, 2023
199
I'm unable to work, but I still do work full time (somehow) because if I don't I will be homeless. Although, I will likely quit my job and CTB as there's no other option for me.

And sorry you've experienced all that shit, Bob.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,251
Yes, I can't work. I was immediately approved for American disability without a need for lawyers or appeals or anything. That tells you something.

I abhor feeling like a drain but I just can't do it.
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
453
I work minimum wage jobs. I've also tried to get some other experience volunteering but I never get anything except labor, which is what I'm already doing. Society only wants me for physical labor which has had a major impact on my self esteem.
 
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SnakesButNoLadder

SnakesButNoLadder

"Don't trip on what is behind you" • UK
Jan 15, 2024
78
I've had local security issues, I can work but I need to move out my local area. Currently unemployed claiming welfare.

( This thread would've been good as a poll )
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I don't want to work. Work is modern day slavery. My main motivation for ctb is to escape having to work for a living. I want to be a NEET until I die. I've been one ever since graduating college. For me, it's live free or die. I will stay free, even in death
I work 4-10 hours every week. I refuse to stop working even if working increases my anxiety. I took an extra job twice. I work in journalism and that is my passion. Well it used to be my passion. This crippling depression makes everything 1000x harder to do. I want nothing less than be rid of the depression.
Work for me means being useful for society, something I find important.
Why do you want to be useful to society?
 
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lnlybnny

lnlybnny

the art of being alone
Jan 25, 2024
531
one of my main reasons to ctb, i never worked in my life and the people who support me are pressuring me to change my ways, and people look down on me bc of this, talk shit behind my back, i feel horrible but i'm too much of a coward to ctb already... but i hope i'll be able to at least do this right
 
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CrownOfThorns

Member
Apr 9, 2024
13
Chronic fatigue, migraines, anxiety and depression... I'm just so tired even the very thought of working makes me exhausted.
I don't feel safe enough with my mental health professionals to let them know how bad it is for me so they think I should be able to get a job.
I'm not and it's really fxing terrifying to be honest.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,276
I'm on disability and live off a lawsuit
Working sucks but not being able to work sucks even more . You just lay around all day feeling sorry for yourself
I don't want to work. Work is modern day slavery. My main motivation for ctb is to escape having to work for a living. I want to be a NEET until I die. For me, it's live free or die. I will stay free, even in death

Why do you want to be useful to society?
Working gives people a sense of purpose if they like their job
 
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dggtscccvfd

Mage
Jun 1, 2023
563
I have a drug-induced breathing disorder and I'm unable to work. I get 750 quid in benefits per month. I'd much prefer assisted suicide to benefits. I don't like being a burden. I didn't choose to get sick.
 
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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Experienced
Jul 18, 2023
262
Me basically. Im basically a European hikikomori; too autistic and anxious to work… as well as too fed up and hopeless to work a garbage capitalism job, and be stuck in it until I die… only the hope of making ctb easier is making me consider suffer through this miserable capitalist dystopia in some job for a whole
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Me basically. Im basically a European hikikomori; too autistic and anxious to work… as well as too fed up and hopeless to work a garbage capitalism job, and be stuck in it until I die… only the hope of making ctb easier is making me consider suffer through this miserable capitalist dystopia in some job for a whole
Fuck capitalism. I hate how we all have to live in a capitalist dystopia
 
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dggtscccvfd

Mage
Jun 1, 2023
563
Fuck capitalism. I hate how we all have to live in a capitalist dystopia
It's no different under communism: people still have to work in North Korea and Cuba. There's no escaping the work treadmill unless you die.
 
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Timothy7dff

Timothy7dff

Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
661
I got fired from my last job 5 years ago and haven't had a proper job since. I was a teacher and my career was a big part of my identity and gave me much needed purpose, structure and social interaction, not to mention a paycheck. I'd love to be working again and being productive but I'm just too damn sick. Sometimes I feel like a big pile of crap especially when I start comparing myself to others.

Losing my career is a huge reason for planning my suicide. I'd rather be dead than sitting around watching life go by while I rot and also having to depend on the charity of others, which is what I'll have to do once my money runs out which is right around the corner.
Same boat. I was a teacher. I got a serious health problem. I got scammed out of my life savings in the stock market. My health got even worse. So, can't work and no money. Perfect site for people like me 😂
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Elementalist
Feb 10, 2024
838
I can't work at the moment. I can't even reliably volunteer or participate in groups. Many people seem to understand but the UK government is convinced that we're a bunch of work shy shirkers and benefit-fraudsters. That in itself is terrible for my mental health. Go figure.
I discussed this with the crisis team yesterday. They made the point that it is the people with agenda joining in with the witch hunt, and trolls. There are so many people out there experiencing or have experienced poor mental health (1 in 4 people) that actually more people understand than the vocal minority. Saying that, what Sunak said and the media frenzy afterwards, especially GB news, hit me hard too, and the crisis team and my mental health practitioner said it had been the same for many others. Mind have a statement about it too on their website. I felt sickened and ashamed. It must have tipped some people over the edge. I will never ever vote for the conservatives. I think they know they've lost the red walk votes so they're trying to appeal to the Daily fail (Mail) readers. Ive blocked all news sources from my Facebook page, cancelled my TV licence, and I don't even glance at the newspapers since Sunak said that. Most people understand how challenging mental health problems are, and the conservatives really shot themselves in the foot. Cos ATM I don't think I know anyone, other than my mental health workers, who hasn't got one or more mental health problems. Big hugs to you. It's so hard. But people on here were there for me yesterday even though I probably triggered some of them. And we are here with you now ❤️❤️❤️❤️
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
301
I don't want to work. Work is modern day slavery. My main motivation for ctb is to escape having to work for a living. I want to be a NEET until I die. I've been one ever since graduating college. For me, it's live free or die. I will stay free, even in death

Why do you want to be useful to society?
Being useful for society gives me a feeling of purpose. I already feel quiet useless only being able to work so little. I want to produce something I can be proud of and that helps people or entertains them.

Being a NEET would be a nightmare for me.
Btw there's a good anime on the subject of NEETs called welcome to the NHK. Ctb is also a theme in the show
 
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Yuina

Yuina

Member
Apr 13, 2024
89
I'm completely unable to work. I have never had a job, and by the looks of it, I probably never will. If I couldn't even finish middle school, there's just no way. I applied for disability but it's such a difficult and long process I'm not sure if I'll even have a chance.
 
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FadingDawn

FadingDawn

Experienced
Jul 18, 2023
262
I'm completely unable to work. I have never had a job, and by the looks of it, I probably never will. If I couldn't even finish middle school, there's just no way. I applied for disability but it's such a difficult and long process I'm not sure if I'll even have a chance.
im a very similar situation, i think a lot of others here are; so sorry to hear you also have to go through this
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Elementalist
Feb 10, 2024
838
I work 4-10 hours every week. I refuse to stop working even if working increases my anxiety. I took an extra job twice. I work in journalism and that is my passion. Well it used to be my passion. This crippling depression makes everything 1000x harder to do. I want nothing less than be rid of the depression.
Work for me means being useful for society, something I find important.
We'll be careful. I pushed on through with severe anxiety, partly because 3 of my colleagues were dealing badly with bereavements. But I got worse and worse, making mistakes, panicking all the time over things I could do easily before, crying hysterically to helplines every day, but still I tried to keep going. Until one morning I had a crisis. Couldn't move, couldn't think, couldn't speak, no emotions, just floods of tears and feeling so horribly lost. 6 months later I'm still officially employed by that employer, but haven't been to work in all that time on the strong advice from my employers occupational health assessment, and my mental health practitioner. I will probably never be able to do that job again. I even get flashbacks about the job sometimes, so don't push yourself too far or you'll do too much damage. Before this I'd coped with so many serious traumas in my life, even from childhood, and always coped and supported others involved, never ever asked for help or even told anyone. Never gave in. And now I'm finished, broken, defeated. Every challenge just knocks me flat again. All because I felt too guilty to take the time off I needed, and nobody at work cared. And after all those efforts I made to stay in work to protect them, not one of them contacted me even once over the whole last 6 months to ask how I was. So sod the government, GB news, and all the others jumping on the bandwagon to further themselves without caring about the consequences.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
I don't think that I really have the ability to work as I get overwhelmed so easily but, even if I didn't get overwhelmed easily, I still wouldn't want to work as working is absolutely awful
 
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Red Moon

Red Moon

Warlock
Sep 21, 2022
722
Me, but that's because I'm autistic with other health conditions. I doubt I can work a full time job, I don't fit into society and I got very little help to find jobs or a career. I don't exactly want to be a part of society though and feel like it hates me.
 
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natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
169
I'm technically employed, but only at Goodwill for 16 hours a week, doing the task that most of the stores only give to community service people and special needs student volunteers. I have two degrees in very different fields, but those don't help bc my autism and social anxiety lead me to keep failing interviews. And the few hours I do work are very stressful for me, also bc of the social aspect. I really wish remote work would have stayed the norm, that would make working so much more tolerable (the chance of being able to WFH was the only reason I went back to school for a second degree!). The worst part is that not having a decent job to move out means I'm stuck in the red state my parents live in, which is surely going to ban my HRT meds (I'm trans) in the near future. I just want to stop existing!
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,276
I'm completely unable to work. I have never had a job, and by the looks of it, I probably never will. If I couldn't even finish middle school, there's just no way. I applied for disability but it's such a difficult and long process I'm not sure if I'll even have a chance.
Took me about 3 years to get. Keep fighting. Getting a neuropsych exam helps a lot and make sure your doctors make lots of notes and a good disabilty lawyer. You have to fight like hell to get the shitty disabilty pay
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,020
I have never worked in my life but I don't know if I will be able to do it in the near future.
 
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