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ComradeJas

ComradeJas

Member
Aug 31, 2020
18
between 9-10 tbh
don't really feel sad or anything at this moment, just... empty.
 
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OttOnSN

Member
Jul 21, 2020
13
8-9 the last while. Getting pretty tired of it all.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,634
8.5, maybe 9.
 
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Pol

Pol

Student
Jan 24, 2020
112
5
 
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deadwithoutmusic

deadwithoutmusic

Member
Sep 10, 2020
73
Usually around a 6 but can get to 8 a couple of times a week
 
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Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
8.5 tehe
 
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LoveMePlease

LoveMePlease

Student
Sep 28, 2020
104
between 7 and 8
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,193
Think Im kinda upgrading to 8 since yesterday :'D The only reason I wont do anything is fuck psych ward
 
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restingspot

restingspot

Lucid Dreamer
May 30, 2019
224
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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5
 
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sadstuffie

sadstuffie

Student
Aug 11, 2020
157
7. fml.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,634
9
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
5 today
 
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Stubbe

Stubbe

Member
Sep 11, 2020
34
Been doing well today. So only a 6-7.
 
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TheSomebody

TheSomebody

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Sep 28, 2020
283
9 but can go 10 anytime.
 
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Ready2GoNow

Member
Sep 10, 2020
74
8
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,868
I'm at a 9, i hope my SN arrives in the next few weeks, i can't wait
 
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pika8787

What is life
Sep 9, 2020
19
I would say 8/10 im drunk and I hate my life. Going to ctb before end of october.
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
928
Got from 8 to 6 recently, no apparent reason.
 
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Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
295
3.5 as of right now
 
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TheSoulless

TheSoulless

I'd like to fly but my wings have been so denied
Jan 7, 2020
1,059
I've been 5 for many weeks. Now I'm 8. I don't know how to cope with my reasons to ctb anymore... At least I cry now instead of just staring at nothingness
 
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Anonymoususer1234

Anonymoususer1234

Experienced
Apr 13, 2023
225
I think 4 or 5. A lot lower than the rest of the replies here.
 
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user56765567

In recovery and getting help
Oct 1, 2023
154
6-7 in better moments but mostly 8-9 on the daily as I could go any day now whenever I wanted to as I got everything set so I could go.
 
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_Broken_alice

_Broken_alice

She/Her
Nov 19, 2023
226
7-8 on a "good" day. Most days lately, somewhere between 8 & 9. Haven't been under a 6 in ~15 years. We already have multiple notes in our journal for the few people left in our miserable life, and one that no longer is (our bio-father). Within the last two weeks, we nearly got right out of bed from a horrible dream and ate a bullet without even thinking about it.. No conscious decision, just impulse and subconscious drive to end this torture Our dreams (when we can sleep) just take whatever pain we are feeling and make it our entire existence. And thanks to MH issues, we aren't even certain THIS is reality anymore.
 
hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
Between 6 and 7. Actively trying to distract myself. Trying to deny to myself that I'm having thoughts of ending it. Drinking to excess. Definitely need help. But won't make the mistake of trying to get some. I'm beyond help. So I'm just going to keep drowning
 
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Yaffle

Life’s a bitch
Nov 9, 2023
398
I haven't had a moment below 5/6 for decades.

Currently elements of 8 & 9
 

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