Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[fox21132113]

She's high functioning autistic, and has decided tantrums are the best way to get much desired attention even if it's negative. Ignoring doesn't help. All I can do is keep telling her that isn't acceptable, and give myself space to try to stay calm.

Yes, that is a necessary tool with tantrums. My big one is dealing with those still due to her communication skills. They say over time they subside. Hang in there :)

 

[deadbeat]

5-8 always, today I'm an 8.

 

[LittleJem]

I was 9 this morning, then had a lot of weed and after the weed was knocked out but still functioning most of the day, and tonight am about a 3. The main thing today is feeling traumatised about how bad my mental health was yesterday - when it was an 8 or a 9. Maybe I didn't have the right weed on me yesterday.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Between a 5 and a 6 I'd say. But it varies between a 5 and an 8 most days.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Varying between 6 and 9. I'm not actively making plans to end my life, but I'm just working on my method.
6 is how I feel on average. Though when I get back to work on Thursday, it's gonna be up to 7 at the baseline.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Despite my anxiety, today is a good day. At a 6.

 

[LivingDeadGirl]

7-8

 

[Denise2207]

Was an 8 yesterday.....asked someone for help and got ghosted as usual.....don't know why I keep asking him. Now I'm a 6 and looking for that out of control semi!

 

[Lmd]

10. Tried my SN and puke so bad because I ate too much and I did everything wrong and now im pissed, alone and have lava in my stomach. Life looks fantastic right now

 

[idontevenknowanymore]

Probably a solid 8 or even 9 right now.

 

[L I F E T O L O S E]

10 now,i want die instantly

 

[Silver]

I suppose technically I am at 9 because I have a plan, have written notes, etc. But day to day I'm at 7 to 8.

 

[Midnight-rain]

I'd say 8 given how my daily thoughts consist of too much, "kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself" and I throughly let myself indulge, I can't be bothered to care anymore. But not the "It isn't safe for me to be alone" part, I'm only mentally ready, still need to properly plan things through.

 

[RandomDude1234]

8.5

 

[Blueman]

5 a good night sleep has helped after I spent yesterday applying for a job I was recommended to apply for to later be told it's no longer available

 

[Lilacmoon]

I was hovering between 8 and 9 for a long time. Then I went to a 5 for about a year. Now I'm back in my home between 8 and 9.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I think I'm at a 5 today :)

 

[IcyBat]

10 but there is not a single chance that I'll actually die. I just can't pass out from partial suspension hanging.

 

[TheSoundofTime]

I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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I am somewhere between 7 and 8 most of the days most of the times but there are occassions of being in 10.

 

[Misfit72]

6-8.

Same here.

I don't think I've ever met anyone who was a 1 unless they were on drugs.

Or religious - 'have faith in the Lord'....

 

[IcyBat]

Same here.



Or religious - 'have faith in the Lord'....

Fucking god is not helping me or other people who are suffering. You must be joking.

Where is god here?

 

[nerve]

5 for most of the day, 7.5ish now :(

Feeling very fatigued but there's so much to do... School is killing me. I think this was a bad idea.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

8. I really, really wanted to kill myself for a good part of the day. Then it settled down a bit. Then my coworkers were talking about guns and how easy it is to get one here...and God damn. It hasn't stopped. Been having bad urges all day, and it's just so hard to deal with. I want to die so bad. I hate life.

 

[whywere]

8 plus, the 24/7 chronic pain today is unreal.

 

[Wishing for Luck]

I would say I'm an 8 now. I had brought myself down to a 2 for a few months by exercising daily, but that was just a temporary fix. I still exercise, but I find no joy in it. It's just something I do while I think about the grim reality I live in

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Was about a 7, and even an 8. But from my two days back to work... especially today, all was good. My heart to heart with a coworker brought me down to a 3. All was well.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

I range from 6-9 depending on the time of the day. Nighttimes are brutal for me.

 

[Ghost2211]

9

 

[Sea Turtle]

8-9 all day every day..

 

[Lilacmoon]

Moved from 8 to 9, it's getting worse.