
listen before i go
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- Sep 22, 2019
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If all is well in my schedule, it occurs specifically on weekends.
I wake up and immediately start rolling cigarettes for about two hours. During those two hours, before symptoms and other shit wakes up, those two hours are absolute heaven!
I buy three-four, sometimes even five packs of tobacco, ten packs of filters and sixteen packs of paper, throw the tobacco into a blender, pour the resulting not-quite-powder into a tupperware thing, grab the rolling device, the tupperware thing, and just go nuts with it. I aim for at least a week's worth of cigs, though I also aim to make a cache of cigs for emergencies. Mostly hospitalization. If you can walk, the ER staff will assign a guy to follow you around when you're asking for a smoke.Are you rolling all those cigarettes for the week ahead? And if so how many do you roll?
When I have showers. Pathetic I know
Why do you think it's pathetic?When I have showers. Pathetic I know
I'm not quite sure, I guess it's pathetic that all the things I should be able to take peace from, I don't and only taking showers give me a short release where I feel at peace because I feel clean until the water stops running.Why do you think it's pathetic?
When I have showers. Pathetic I know
Not really - I really feel at peace during showers as well.When I have showers. Pathetic I know