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purepuresister27

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Aug 6, 2026
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I posted about attempting again hours ago, but I just kept failing. After my last retry, I started feeling hope of moving on from the thing that's making me so emotional. Also because someone special to me messaged me while I was doing the last retry.

Anyway, even though I kind of have hope, I still feel like I have to go through with my attempt. The only feeling I can compare it to is when you miss a deadline and want to work on the task as quick as you can so that you can hopefully still submit it. I don't know. There's something in me saying that the feeling doesn't make sense and that I should hold onto hope that things will be better again, but it still makes me kind of stressed that I didn't go through with my attempt.

I wanted to know if someone else has experience this weird thought, and if anyone has advice on how I can deal with it?
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
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What method are you doing that you are failing repeatedly? :(

All I know is, don't be hard on yourself if you fail. It will make things more difficult. I can't stress this enough!
 
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purepuresister27

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Aug 6, 2026
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What method are you doing that you are failing repeatedly? :(

All I know is, don't be hard on yourself if you fail. It will make things more difficult. I can't stress this enough!
I should have known that this method was going to be hard but the tourniquet method. And thank you for the advice, I'm not sure if I wanna go through now though... I think the hope feeling in my head is kind of taking over
 
theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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Yes, it's pretty traumatic, but basically it's about relaxing your body and mind.
 

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