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angelz08

angelz08

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Mar 3, 2025
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trying to hang myself with my bra while i was in the psych ward. and impulsively taking a ton of tylenol
 
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ctb_warrior

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trying to hang myself with my bra while i was in the psych ward. and impulsively taking a ton of tylenol
How did you recover from side effects of tylenol? I had extreme heaviness in chest after i had tons of it. Interestingly, intuition of my father is so good, he usually catches my stuff before I'm trying to execute them.
trying to hang myself with my bra while i was in the psych ward. and impulsively taking a ton of tylenol
I have never been to a psych ward despite having so many failed attempts. Do they not monitor the people in the ward so they don't do any harm to themselves?
 
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How did you recover from side effects of tylenol? I had extreme heaviness in chest after i had tons of it. Interestingly, intuition of my father is so good, he usually catches my stuff before I'm trying to execute them.

I have never been to a psych ward despite having so many failed attempts. Do they not monitor the people in the ward so they don't do any harm to themselves?
i spent a few days in the ER and medical care unit after my tylenol attempt. threw up a lot and felt incredibly nauseous and just bad. my liver tests were pretty fucked but not bad enough to die clearly lol. it was a really stupid choice i was just feeling impulsive and couldn't control myself. my parents typically keep all medications in a safe but i managed to find some tylenol in the house and couldn't resist…

they do monitor people in the psych ward; at mine they did rounds every 25-30mins. the trying to hang myself with my bra was also half-assed and impulsive and i quickly realized it likely wouldn't work so i didn't try for long haha
 
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i spent a few days in the ER and medical care unit after my tylenol attempt. threw up a lot and felt incredibly nauseous and just bad. my liver tests were pretty fucked but not bad enough to die clearly lol. it was a really stupid choice i was just feeling impulsive and couldn't control myself. my parents typically keep all medications in a safe but i managed to find some tylenol in the house and couldn't resist…

they do monitor people in the psych ward; at mine they did rounds every 25-30mins. the trying to hang myself with my bra was also half-assed and impulsive and i quickly realized it likely wouldn't work so i didn't try for long haha
Yeah, it's really a bad idea as it's slow painful death by affecting the liver. I feel my liver was very healthy when i attempted, it somehow handled all of the ODs I attempted in that phase.

It was that bad an idea considering the impulse, because one tries to use any object that can be helpful.. i used my vest to strangle myself😂 though that was waste of time and effort. And a great disappointment too. I was too naive to think that it should be enough to say bye bye to the world
 
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May 30, 2026
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Not really sure if I should be putting it but ehh gotta have some posts :3
I tried drinking an entire canister of Methylated spirit from my mom's salon when I was 12. Didn't work so well I kinda just felt dizzy afterwards and ended up puking.
 
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Not really sure if I should be putting it but ehh gotta have some posts :3
I tried drinking an entire canister of Methylated spirit from my mom's salon when I was 12. Didn't work so well I kinda just felt dizzy afterwards and ended up puking.
Must have been a crazy experience at that young age. The worst thing i have ever tried is arsenic salt
 
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Fish

Fish

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Apr 19, 2018
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That's interesting. I never knew nutmeg could cause hallucinations. I just checked on Google the side effects of having a huge quantity of it.
Hah I'm probably an expert in this because my family eats lots of nutmeg!
To hallucinate on it you need to eat it freshly ground. You can eat as much cooked as you want and it's just delicious and no death 😋 (could be the way my family cooks it though)
 
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Feb 11, 2024
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Hah I'm probably an expert in this because my family eats lots of nutmeg!
To hallucinate on it you need to eat it freshly ground. You can eat as much dried/pickled as you want and it's just delicious and no death 😋 (could be the way my family pickles it though)
That's nice 😁 i want to experience hallucinations.. i have a good grip on reality. So, i never had any hallucinations. I also want to try psychedelics to understand altered states of mind and if we can use it to improve our life in any way . I have heard shrooms are also used for that. It's tough to get my hands on these substances.
Alcohol is the worst thing to try to get a high, because it ultimately depresses the entire system. It's the worst thing i started with the hope to escape from reality.
 
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That's interesting. I never knew nutmeg could cause hallucinations. I just checked on Google the side effects of having a huge quantity of it.
My bad it was 50 grams not milligrams haha. It was quite a lot that's why it was awful. Ironically before that pathetic attempt I tried 10 grams which gave me an amazing high. I really wanted that but even more intense and perhaps even lethal through heart palpitations but nope.
Hah I'm probably an expert in this because my family eats lots of nutmeg!
To hallucinate on it you need to eat it freshly ground. You can eat as much cooked as you want and it's just delicious and no death 😋 (could be the way my family cooks it though)
So that might be why!!! Oh my god, for that first time high I did use freshly grounded nutmeg unlike with that "attempt". So that's why. I might try nutmeg again but not for CTB as it's stupidity. Thanks Nutmeg Expert! 😁
 
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whywere

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Kind of tried on my 1st thoughts of ending it, as I went to a park and I went to a more secluded part of the park, BUT to my surprise, a naked man with just shoes and socks on came running by with the police in hot pursuit trying to get him and I packed up my rope and things and left.

With the police there, I did NOT want them to "figure it out" and then be put in the squad vehicle with a buck-naked man, no thanks!

Walter
 
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Fish

Fish

...still here
Apr 19, 2018
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That's nice 😁 i want to experience hallucinations.. i have a good grip on reality. So, i never had any hallucinations. I also want to try psychedelics to understand altered states of mind and if we can use it to improve our life in any way . I have heard shrooms are also used for that. It's tough to get my hands on these substances.
Alcohol is the worst thing to try to get a high, because it ultimately depresses the entire system. It's the worst thing i started with the hope to escape from reality.
I was curious about shrooms too and I was told to look into something called truffles which apparently is legal? Alcohol just makes me sleepy, I use it as a sleep aid haha
My bad it was 50 grams not milligrams haha. It was quite a lot that's why it was awful. Ironically before that pathetic attempt I tried 10 grams which gave me an amazing high. I really wanted that but even more intense and perhaps even lethal through heart palpitations but nope.

So that might be why!!! Oh my god, for that first time high I did use freshly grounded nutmeg unlike with that "attempt". So that's why. I might try nutmeg again but not for CTB as it's stupidity. Thanks Nutmeg Expert! 😁
I don't think it's possible to CTB on nutmeg... But I think it's delicious and I'm glad to share the joy 🤗
 
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Feb 11, 2024
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I was curious about shrooms too and I was told to look into something called truffles which apparently is legal? Alcohol just makes me sleepy, I use it as a sleep aid haha
No idea about truffles. I'll check if it's available.
Alcohol true makes me sleepy as well.. i was in the UK and i was going through anxiety. I used to buy 1L vodka and drink almost everyday just to sleep. On those days, I didn't drink, it used to be impossible to sleep
Kind of tried on my 1st thoughts of ending it, as I went to a park and I went to a more secluded part of the park, BUT to my surprise, a naked man with just shoes and socks on came running by with the police in hot pursuit trying to get him and I packed up my rope and things and left.

With the police there, I did NOT want them to "figure it out" and then be put in the squad vehicle with a buck-naked man, no thanks!

Walter
😂 I imagined this situation. It's a crazy situation. Universe didn't want you to ctb on that day
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

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Feb 10, 2020
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Mentioned this already lots of times on this site but I once tried to induce a heart attack by eating an entire stick of butter. I managed to eat it all and it didn't even taste that bad but my heart did feel a little weird for a short while afterwards. Maybe this method would have had a higher chance of working if I were 20 years older or something. I was only 19 when I tried this.
 
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