Knowing that nothing matters, it's all just to get some dopamine and then die.
I also hate that existance is meant for people who want to procreate, orgasm and raise families "Build the tribe"
I have no such feelings, i don't feel love or have any interest in it, i have people who like me for some reason but perhaps i'm just good at playing the chilled out guy vibe. I don't grasp the social elements well at all, i've pretended to be a stoner for the past 16 years just to use it as a crutch.
I really feel like i should have been born into another kind of universe, i'm really just an anomaly, i like that though some days.
It's not really depression for me, it's just i know the game, the script and i'm putting a end to it, good times.