Discussion What’s the biggest reason you want to ctb?

[suicidalcatlady]

Mine is having autism and knowing the world wasn't built for me and never will accept me tbh

 

[Death is my goal]

not sure, there's many reasons contributes to my ctb. looking way back i realized that it was meant to be the moment i was born.

 

[Kiraya]

honestly i just feel like there's nothing to live for - you have to go through so much misery just experience a tiny bit of happiness. i guess i am too lazy for this world hahah

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

I'm ugly and I've never had a craving for a social life

 

[ferret-in-a-sock]

I just crashed my car and got my 2nd concussion, and ended up stranded in another state. I thought everything was finally looking up...I got over my fear of driving, was feeling super good...now I realize I was right weeks ago. I was never going to get better.

 

[FuneralCry]

Overall, it's just the fact that existence could never be worth enduring.
The existence of life is a horrifying, harmful and cruel mistake, and I see no value in delaying the inevitable just to risk experiencing even worse suffering and harm just to decay from age. Existing in this world is completely unappealing and futile as well, in my case I see suicide as being the more rational thing to wish for, as to die solves all problems.

 

[ArachnTerror]

I only have few friends and it's very hard to socialize for me so no one will care if I do ctb.

 

[Zelda-frog]

I can't handle the responsibility of being alive. I can never live up to easy expectations and it sucks.

 

[StolenLife]

Failing med school and trauma.

 

[ringo99]

Constant, unbearable stress, watching people get ahead of me while I lag behind more and more, the certainty that I will end up broke, alone and homeless before I'm 50

 

[henry22]

my reason is chronic illness

 

[silent star]

honestly loneliness, I can't take it anymore

 

[leavingsoon99]

Pretty much the same as you. I feel like I'm in a simulation where everything and everyone is programmed against me. I feel like I'm not natural to this world. I feel like I wasn't meant to exist, and whatever drives the life-force or whatever created this is mad at me for existing. I feel like I'm human-shaped, however I'm not a human. I'm tired of everything and everyday being a fight. I'm tired of submitting to made-up laws and rules that no one else seems to respect. I'm tired to feeling like I've been left out of beautiful experiences because I'm different. I'm tired of the superficial and vicious nature of humans. I'm just tired of life. I didn't ask to be here, and don't feel like I should be obligated to live out a lonely, miserable, pathetic life that has, up to this point, had no real meaning.

 

[powerofdap]

Life is ass. More negative than positives so overall output is negative. No point of continuing

 

[DepressedSloth]

Suffering

 

[unnormal9]

I lost count how many of these same threads pop up every two days.

 

[DepressedSloth]

I lost count how many of these same threads pop up every two days.

I would say more in the past. But easy to sum up in 1 word at this point

 

[anonaon]

Anhedonia mostly

 

[tiredangelgirl]

lack of money for sure, I don't even have massive debt or children. I'm licensed and have a decent job but it's a never ending cycle of struggle I feel stuck in

 

[cherrysquick]

lack of goals in life and my mental struggles. even though i'm on medication things just get worse everyday and my mood swings are genuinely so tiring (bpd) i prefer nothingness over my everyday routine at this point, i think i'm hopeless and broken beyond repair </3

 

[warriorofeld]

Mistakes that were made stupidly

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

Mistakes that were made stupidly

Same as well.

 

[quietly_gone]

my family hates me, my mom is a narcissistic, I have no chance of succeeding in my career and I have basically no future. I've also lost three dear cats in less than a year and I'm still heavily grieving. also college debt lmfao

 

[jorheslen428]

Anhedonia mostly

Same. How'd you get it?

 

[anonaon]

Same. How'd you get it?

not sure. Things just naturally got more & more mundane over the last few years

 

[charlotte_]

Probably because I'm a failure. I have the ability to make things work, yet I never do anything. Right now, I'm browsing this site despite having a workload to deal with lmao. I know things could work if I try, but I just don't see a reason to.

 

[GasMonkey]

Low genetic quality.

 

[suicidalcatlady]

I lost count how many of these same threads pop up every two days.

Ok lol

 

[outrider567]

Loss.......I'm just miserable

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Worn down by narcissists, child abusers, paedos and rapists.