i am mainly addicted to nicotine. i have tried most forms of it - cigarettes, cigars, pouches, snus, hookah, heats, but nowadays i just vape with the occasional marlboro, i can definitely hold a conversation just based off cigarettes lol. i used to be a very heavy drinker, my peak consumption must have been like 5 bottles of 80 proof gin every week with some ligher stuff thrown in, but i lost touch with my drinking buddies so ive stopped.
Alcohol. At my worst I was drinking 2-3 shots every day during the week (only after work, at least I had that going for me) and like 9 shots each day on the weekends (I think my record was 12). I would start drinking at 5am and just keep myself going until I went to bed. Unfortunately I built up such a tolerance it started doing fuck all for my mood and just made me sick instead. God knows what condition my liver is in.
Had to give it up but I think about drinking pretty much constantly and it will only be a matter of time before a find a new chemical to replace it.
i feel you, in my last days seriously drinking i would just go through bottles, feel awful then puke it all out. i wish alcohol were more agreeable, i really did like being a drunk.