I had only recently started cutting and ruined both of my hands with cuts, afterwards i regretted but scars remained, i had very deep cuts on my left wrist, it was hurting for week, then my sister found out and asked if i was a masochist, I'm not quite sure if I'm one, i got addicted to cutting easily, it was the feeling i liked, kind of afterward feeling just when i cut, it's like a huge relief, it felt good. I occasionally hit myself when i get upset about myself, its like punishing myself